Why are guys such confusing creatures?? I mean, they say one thing when they really mean another thing.... They lie to you about how they feel just to make you feel better... They tell you that you are the only person that they want, then turn around and break up with you because they "discover" that they still have feelings for their ex, who is a lesbian and wants nothing to do with them.... They tell you that they love you and then they tell you that they only said that to get in your pants (which doesn't make sense if they are already getting in your pants and only toys with your emotions)..... They come back to you and tell you that they just want to be "friends" which of course always includes the "extra benefits"... Then they string you along so that you are still willing to do ANYTHING for them... Then they really fuck with your head and tell you that they get jealous when you talk to your guy-friends who don't mean shit to you in that way... Then when you ask them why they get jealous they just say that they are worried that they will lose you forever.... I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!! A LITTLE HELP HERE?? MAYBE SOME GUYS CAN EXPLAIN THIS SYSTEM TO ME?!?!
I WANNA DIE!!!!!!!!!! WILL SOME ONE HELP ME OUT WITH IT?? HOW IS IT THAT PEOPLE THINK THAT THEY CAN WALK ALL OVER OTHER PEOPLE??
I KNOW I'M TOO MUCH OF A PUSSY TO KILL MYSELF, BUT IF SOME ONE WANTS TO KILL ME I'LL BE HOME AROUND 11:30-MIDNIGHT
KILL ME NOW!!! PLEASE JUST TAKE ME OUT OF THIS WORLD!! I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE I DON'T WANT TO BREATHE I DON'T WANT TO HURT ANYMORE!! PLEASE SOME ONE COME SAVE ME FROMM MY SELF-CREATED DAMNATION!!!!!
The world is swallowing my life I am drowning in my own blood
Just a poem today:
The Last Words My Ears Thought To Hear
"I love you"
The last words my ears thought to hear.
I glance up,
Certain to see,
his laughter mocking me,
Love shining is all i see,
It's glowing bright for my soul to see.
For it's as bright as is he,
Unfathomable feelings sweep,
Content yet tangled with fear.
Open your mouth, close it again,
can't explain,
no reply.
Up again so joe and I can see,
"I love you too"
The last words my ears thought to hear.
Well today my dad bitched at me for like 4 hours about how much of a bitch I am and how I'm ungrateful that he is my father and all this other bullshit. I'm seriously considering emancipation. Today, for like the second time ever, I deserved to be bitched at because I took the car without permission and I kind of don't have my license yet so yeah. But he didn't need to call me a bitch, I mean it wasn't that big of a deal, at least I didn't get caught by the cops like my sister did. My god he bitches at me when I don't have something to do to get me out of the house then he bitches because I'm always gone. (and he wonders why i like to be the fuck away from my fuckered up family and fuckered up life. Oh well whatever.I gotta go it's like 1 am and I have to get up early to go to school so peace.