I hate my life...hate it hate it with a passion. The only good thing/person in my life right now is my boyfriend, Mark. My shoulder has been bothering me sooo much lately (and for those of you who don't know I'm on the swim team, so my shoulder hurting is very, VERY bad) So my rents want me to take the week off of practice and maybe stop swimming for the rest of the season. They say at least stop doing fly (butterfly stroke) for the rest of the season but I can't. Swimming is all I have. I have nothing else to channel my anger through. The swim team is everything to me and I am really getting put in a bunch of sweet events now and coach really thinks I could be captian my senior year, but not if I can't go to practices. I need to swim. It's what I do and I have to do it but people are stopping me. I hate it when I have no control over what is happening in my life. People are making decions for me and telling me what to do. I hate that. I can't stop, I NEED to swim. How can they tell me I can't? Coach says I'm the second best butterflier on the team but it'll slip if I dont practice. I HATE SHIT LIKE THIS!!!

NEW BOYFRIEND!
omg i am so happy i found out Mark likes me! It's the cutiest way he asked me too! Ok it's corny but so cute! ^_^

We are walking down the hall today at school and he asks me when we can hang out and i told him not today cause i have a swim meet after school and so he says "Well this isn't the way I wanted to do it but..." and he pulls out a fifty-cent bubble gum mechine ring in one of those plastic bubble cases, you know the ones. And he grabs my hand and stops walking, looks me right in the eyes and lovingly says with a cute little grin "Will you go out with me?" I smiled so big it took me a second to answer and I said "Of course!"

tell me that is not the cutiest little thing ever?! He says that his original plan was to get down on one knee at lunch tooday and ask me but we didnt have the same lunch today so it didnt work out. but i still think its adorable!!!

I lost a friend last weekend.
His name was Jeffrey A. Kuhn and I loved him as a friend and now he's gone. They were driving on I-75 (Michigan) and a man in a pick up truck crossed over the median and hit Jeff's Jeep. Jeff was not driving, but another man Dave was who died on impact, and so did the driver in the pick up truck. The other passenger, Danielle, is still in acoma and is not aware of either Dave or Jeff's death, but her and Dave were dating for a while now. Jeff was able t ocrawl out of the crunched Jeep but then the car exploded and a huge cguck of scrap metal hit him in the head and he was rushed to the hospital where he went into acoma. This was last Saturday, April 30, 2005. On Sunday, May 1, 2005, Jeff was anounced dead after his brain stopped and he lost sever blood flow. His parents donated all his organs and he died early that morning.

If i am not on much...This is why
I am in serious mourning!