A Pagan dies and to his great surprise he finds himself standing before some pearly gates.
Pagan: "Where am I."
St. Peter: "You're at the gates of Heaven"
Pagan: "But I dont believe in Heaven"
St. Peter: "You're one of those arent you?"
Pagan: "Yes. I believe I'm in the wrong place Im supposed to be in Summerland."
St. Peter: "Sorry, We took overSummerland, and its temporarily closed for remodeling."
Pagan: "What should i do now?"
Peter: "Well since we dont allow Pagans in Heaven, you'll have to go to Hell. Sorry. Just follow that path than leads down and to the left."
The Pagan walks down to Hell where the gates are standing wide open. He walks in and finds beautiful meadows, happy animals, and clear streams of water.
He walks on in and begins exploring, and after a few minutes a courtly gentleman walks up to him and bows politely.
"Hello, Im Satan. You must be the guy St. Peter called me about. Are you a Pagan?"
Pagan: "Yes I am. What's going to happen now?"
Satan: "Well the fishings good if you enjoy that sort of thing. There's a little refreshments stand just down the road. And I believe the Pagan meeting grounds are right over the next hill."
Suddenly a hold opens up in the sky above and a yawning chasm opens directly underneath it. The stench of sulphur and firing brimstone fills the air. Hundreds of screaming, tortured souls drop down into the flaming pit which immediately closes with a thud.
The Pagan hardly believing what he just saw askes Satan: "And what was THAT?!?!"
Satan rolls his eyes: "Oh just ignor them. They're Christians, they wouldnt have it any other way."

[9 things your looking foward to]
1.] Spending time with my friends after school
2.] Summer vacation
3.] Moving out of my parents house when I'm 17
4.] Getting my drivers license
5.] Turning 21 so I don't have to sneak... stuff...
6.] Possibly getting Mark back
7.] Going to a good art school after HS
8.] Moving to England
9.] Dying
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[08 Things You Wear Daily]
1.] Black belt with silver loops
2.] Converses or bikerboots ((depending on weather)
3.] Eyeliner
4.] My silver balls ((necklace))
5.] Checkered, studded, and black skull wristbands
6.] Earrings
7.] Hair gel/Hair spray
8.] A smile
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[07 Things That Annoy You]
1.] Lies
2.] Hypocrits
3.] People who cut for attention
4.] People who whine about everything
5.] Pot heads who brag about getting stoned
6.] Flies that buz around when your eating
7.] Chores
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[06 Things You Touch Every Day]
1.] Key board/mouse/computer
2.] Guitar
3.] T.V. remote control
4.] Some kind of video game controller
5.] My bedroom doorknob
6.] Which ever Harry Potter book I am reading
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[05 Things You Do Every Day]
1.] Wake up
2.] Put my make up on
3.] Get dressed
4.] Take a Shower
5.] Go to sleep
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[04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time or Hang out With]
1.] Paulman
2.] Adam
3.] Shawn
4.] Zach
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[03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over]
1.] 10 Things I Hate About You
2.] Harry Potter series
3.] The Breakfast Club
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[02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment]
1.] Thank You For The Venom, by MCR
2.] You'll Rebel to Anythin, by MSI
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[01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With]
1.] Mark ((even if he doesn't feel the same way anymore))

My bestest buddy in the world has joined EP
His name is Timmy
AKA [Thomas Hollywood]

If you fuck with him, I'll fuck you up!

Yes, I do still miss Mark very much but I have a new boyfriend named Dan Brown
Just an update for people who care

TO ALL MY FRIENDS
I'm sorry but I'm not my perky happy self today... I apologize for any depression or "Emoness" I may show...

ICON FOR TODAY

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SONG OF THE DAY
Thank you for the venom by My Checmical Romance
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SAYING OF THE DAY
"Give me all your poison
and give me all your pills..."

new friends today! A LOT OF THEM!

[Ein Führer] -a cool sweet guy who doesn't give a shit! \m/
[Goodbye EP] -pretty and dramatic pictures! I likey!
[mfdspanky] -My Texas cutie!!! ^_^
[♫ Jeni-Bugggg ♫] -GREEN DAY LOVERS UNITE! hehe
[Amour] -She's soooo pretty! We are Halo pwners! haha
[cpt.jack sparrow24] -Cool guy, cute name!

[ ROSES ] ARE DEAD
VIOLETS ARE TOO
I [ LOVE ] YOU BUT I'M
SO CONFUSED I DON'T KNOW
IF I CAN TRUST YOU
YOU SAY
YOU [ LOVE ] ME
BUT IS IT REALLY TRUE
I'M NOT SAYING I HATE YOU
OR THAT I
DON'T [ LIKE ] YOU
IT'S JUST THAT I
[ LOVE ] YOU
MY [ LOVE ] FOR YOU
MEANS MORE THAN ANYTHING
IN THE WORLD
I [ LOVE ] YOU MORE THAN
MY FAMILY
YOU'RE THE ONE I'D [ DIE ] FOR
YOU'RE THE ONE I'D [ KILL ] FOR
YOU'RE MY WHOLE REASON FOR LIVING
YOU'RE THE ONE I [ LOVE ]
YOU'RE MY ONE AND
ONLY

This poem made me cry... I nabbed it from [fluffly suicidle bunny of doom]'s house

A boy and a girl
The best of [ friends ]
From elementary to high school
From beginning to end


Through all these years
Their [ friendship ] grew
They both felt the same
But neither knew


Each waking moment
Since the day that they [ met ]
They both [ loved ] each other
Sunrise to sunset


He was all she had
In her terrible life
He was the one
Who kept her from her [ knife ]


She was his angel
She made him [ smile ]
Though life threw him curves
She made it worth all the while


Then one day
Things went terribly wrong
The next few weeks
Were like a very [ sad ] song


He made her jealous
On purpose he tried
When the girl asked "do you love her?"
On purpose he [ lied ]


He played with jealousy
Like it was a game
Little did he know
Things would [ never ] be the same


His plan was working
But he had no clue
How wrong things would go
The [ damage ] he would do


One night she broke down
Feeling very [ alone ]
Just her and the blade
No one else home


She dialed his number
He answered "hello"
She told him she [ loved ] him
Then hung up the phone


He raced to her house
But came a minute too late
Found her lying in [ blood ]
And her heart had no rate


Beside her was a note
And in it her [ confession ]
Her [ love ] for this boy
Her only obsession


As he read the note
He knelt down and [ cried ]
Grabbed her knife
And that night they both [ died ]


She was found in his arms
Both of them [ dead ]
Under her note
His handwriting said


"I [ loved ] her so
She never knew
All this time
I [ loved ] her too"

BAD ASS GREEN DAY SONG THAT HAS BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD FOR FUCKIN EVER!!!!!

This is the guy to find!

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
Who calls you back when you hang up on him,
Who'll lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
Who keeps your picture in his wallet,
Who wants to show you off to the world when you're in sweats,
Who holds your hand in front of his friends,
Who thinks you're just as pretty without make-up...
The one who's constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you...
The one who turns to his friends and says, *That's her*

Yeah, wonderful thanksgiving so far. I went to bed late last night and started crying. I had found the homecoming picture of Mark and I. Why do I miss him so much? It's over ,I know it is but I can't get him out of my head. It's not fair. I don't know what else to do. And again I ask you, as well as him, where do I go from here?

ICONS FOR TODAY

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SONG OF THE DAY
98 degrees' My Everything
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SAYING OF THE DAY
"I'll keep you my dirty little secrets,
don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret"

okay, no more. I have lost faith. There is no such thing as love for me anymore. This guy asked me out and I said no. Not becauseI didnt like him but because he didnt match up to Mark. I can't believe I let myself get so attached to someone. I fucked myself over big time. And now where do I go from here?

ICONS FOR TODAY

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SONG OF THE DAY
Simple Plan's Untitled
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SAYING OF THE DAY
"I'm sorry I can't be perfect..."

yes yes yes I have changed my name on here... It's one of my favorite lines from one of my favorite Green Day songs, Minority! Likes it everyone??

Well my birthday just passed last monday and I am now LEGAL! XD XD XD
yes thats right I'm 16! I am so happy, I gots my ears peirced and a new look for my room and a new hair do! w00t-tang mothafucka! HAHA

This is too hard... how can I keep this up? I can't pretend I don't love Mark, but I kind of have to... I can't walk past him at school without having to run to the bathroom and cry. I was late for 2 classes today because I was crying and couldnt go... This hurts too much. I love him, I'll admit it. I think this is the worst feeling, is when you love someone and know they don't love you, and the reason they don't is because you fucked up. I don't want this feeling. It is too much. But I'm not doing anything stupid. All my buds on here know so I feel safe saying that I am getting a "doctor" ((as my mum puts it)) so I can stop the cutting. I haven't since that one day last week and I am working on a more constructive outlet. I hope this will show Mark that I love him and I will do or stop doing anything for him. I can't see myself going out with anyone else right now or for a long while. I just want him... simple as that...

ICONS FOR TODAY!
 
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SONG OF THE DAY
Simple Plan's Untitled
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SAYING OF THE DAY
"I'm sorry I can't be perfect..."

Well, I guess if Mark won't give me another chance as a girl friend... I'll just have to be his friend. We have said it would be cool if we were friends and I promised that I wouldn't try anything funny. It's going to be hard once he gets a new girl... It's going to hurt everytime I see him with her, but I have to accept that he is happy and that's all I ever wanted for him. I know there is a very VERY slim chance that me and him would ever go out again but maybe I could prove that I can change and that what I did is over...But I'm not going to force or pressure him... I'll just hope he gives out second chances once he sees changes... but like I said, no matter what, I still love him. My mom asked me who my next b/f is going to be and I told her point blank, I don't want to go out with anyone else, and when she asked why, I said "Because, after Mark, no one will match up. I don't want to be with another ass hole who wants sex... I want someone... like Mark. But there is only one of him, and that is himself. I am not giving up."

And I just got informed last night at like midnight, that I now work on sundays, which sucks. Sundays are recovery day! LoL no I'm just messin, I dont drink anymore, but still....SUNDAYS? My rents are doing real bad with money problems that they have to open on sundays and bring me in to work for free...guess what... I don't do free! LoL

I'm actually real hyper today and after work I am so going over to Dan's house. I got him addicted to Tony Hawk Under Ground 2! SHWEET! ^_^

ICONS FOR TODAY!

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SONG OF THE DAY
Grand theift autumn  by: Fall Out Boy
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SAYING OF THE DAY
"Stab my back it's better when I bleed for you..."

I have made a new wiki in light of recent events
hopeless romantics
it seems to fit me at the moment...
T_T

song for the day:::::::

He left... Mark's gone and I can't fix it... I still love him... But he left. T_T




I don't care what happens, Mark--