Yes Ally is aborad on my mind, SO! You wanna make soemthin of it? lol...Yeah well lately more than ever cuz ims lowly getting closer to that point...you knwo what that point is right? Well for those of you that dont know its that point where yer just ready to fall but you need to think it over before you do. You're thinking, okay sure lets do it, lets jump, but you say now what does that mean if I do? Its a long thought process but takes little time. But Im taking a long time. See I think soemtimes its stupid to fall for a gurl whos over this computer screen, no gurl to touch, no gurl to hold, but shes still there right? well Im not sure how this whole thing works but Im gonna lay this down Alright and you can make of it what you will...
Okay when I first ever started getting good at RP I fell for this Asian gurl, her name is not important for you to know but regardless i fell for her, and she and I ended up losing contact til i moved to OH for the first time. i was ina three month relationship at the time, but this gurl had a promising future so I felt, so I ended my three month relationship and pursued a quiet tragedy witht his asian gurl. Well she told me she was getting married to someone and it was right before I went to Michigan with my best buddy Dan. So when we went I thought the whole ordeal out and I had alot of time and I concluded I wanted her so bad I would marry her to have her. Well approximately 3 seconds later a car wrecked right infront of me in dan RIGHT INFRONT OF US! That was a bad omen for sure...so I did not marry the gurl. We lost contact and she got married, we lost contact purely of her choice and since then its been two years. Int hat tiem I moved to florida for seven months and came back here.
Well now Im here and I had decided since that ordeal no relationships over the net. Good choice and it held true, held so true. I have tlkaed to the Asian gurl a few times but really not much. Well Im Rping and sticking to my rule of no net realtionships until. Ally. Yes the very same. She hit me like a f'in shark attack people. it was like blinsiding me with something special and cute...I sit and I think how I feel every second of everyday of every week of every month. Slowly but surely Im concluding things and Im finding that I want to be with her very much, and Id almost do anything to make that possibility a reality. Thats what sacres me so much, its almost liek the situation with the Asian gurl and that means, maybe I'm starting to fall in...*gulps*..
Now as some of you might know or dont I've only truly loved a few people in my life, and love is on all levels but true love for soemone more than friends the three cases were...Audra, A gurl I gace alot too and dated for a while, The asian gurl I already went on about, and the third was Victoria, yes victoria i havent tlaked about her, but she was possibly the greatest love in my life. But those three are the only one I have ever said i lvoe you and meant it so deep i would have gave up enternity for them. Maybe Ally will be the ofurth and final love. People never understand how I can love more than one person, htey dont udnerstand I lvoed them all on different levels...even those three I lvoed on different levels but i would have gave anything to lvoe them that way. Im not sure how I feel about Alex and I probably wont know for awhile but Im hoping Ill figure it out and when I do she'll be the first to know, whether I love her or something else is yet to be discovered, but no matter what i hope we stay freinds til she decided shes ready to love me or not...If I believe anything is possible right?
-BD
So Ally went to Florida today...*sighs
For those of you who dont know Ally is a gurl I really like and met through RP. Kind of wierd the way I met her, even more peculiar is the fact that I think Im falling for her. I never have seen her and dont even know too much except what we talk about every night. I mean sheesh I was lookin out the window on the way home and say this backyard with swings and stuff and said, "awww I used to swing on swings like that when I was little, I wish I could be little again, but then I wouldnt have found Ally yet. When I'm older I need to have kids to get swings liek that...Kids with Ally someday maybe." And I just got warm tingles, what do those mean, is that the tingly feeling people tell you about when yer in...the four letter word. I refuse to say that word 'til i know I really, you know...Ally. Well maybe one day, one day soon, Ill see you, Ill see you soon. Come back from Florida, by the way my dad lives in OP in Jacksonville, FL. Coincidence her mom lives there? Oh I think not, maybe its written in the stars, but then again I am a believer, and have a serious Peter Pan complex...lol
-BD
So I guess I'm joined up the rightful way eh? I feel like Im initiated into soem secret organization *grins* like that show what was it...on Nickolodeon a long time ago, after dark or whatever...man this is cool stuff..so I suppose you guys would liek to know about me maybe alittle? Well My name is there so you knwo that but my friends call me BD...lol...Im int he AF just havent gone to basic training yet awaiting my recruiter grrrr...thing is hes lazy lol...sad huh? lol...anyways Thats about it oh and I play bass in a band...or I would if I could gte me a new bass...The band is Intentionally left blank and we are unofficialy not a band hahaha...and unofficialy are a band...wierd that way huh? anywyas..thats msotly about me just waiting to go the airforce..int he mentime Ill be RPing in Ayenee (yahoo)...so maybe see ya then...