[Faith.Hope.Love]'s diary
"The Shadowed Heart"
You hide in the shadows,
But I always know you're there.
You play pretend, an imposter,
Because you do not dare
To show your true face,
The real that's in you.
You play your silly games
That I can see right through.
But even in your fake,
I can see your real,
Despite all your efforts,
Your pretend cannot steal.
Because I clearly see you
Not through or with my eyes,
But with my loving heart,
From which you can't disguise.
I do not understand why
You feel this need to hide,
When there's so much beauty
Within you deep inside.
Why do you insist upon
The dimming of your Light,
When it really wants to shine,
Luminously and bright.
I wish that you could see
Your heart from my perspective,
You would know then your beauty.
You'd change your whole objective.
I get angry and so frustrated
From all the things you do,
Because you insist on hiding
The real and best of you.
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-03-16 13:07:00 (EST)
"Bonded By Love"
| What works for you, may not for me. What works for me, may not for you. For you are you and I am me, There are differences we can see. But in our hearts there is Light Derived from Love, burning bright, Our common bond of no shame, We are One and Love's the Name. |
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly
©2014-03-15 15:18:00 (EST)
“Shine your Light and the darkness can't consume...
Fill your heart with Love and for hate there'll be no room!”
~ #ArtsieladieQu
| Anonymous Hackers Groups: "We are Anonymous. We are Legion. We do not forgive. We do not forget. Expect us. We are Anonymous. They should have expected us." |
From Rich: "What's your opinion.. true or false?"
| To ask, or beg as it states here, requires letting go of the ego fed pride, and applying humility in its stead. As much as we like to think we don't need any help from anyone, this simply is not true. We all are who we are because of others and their help, their influence in our lives. We are the summary of. We all need something from others from time to time. But on the flip side of this, others will also need us for help in some way from time to time. It is then up to us to be reciprocative. We can't really go through life without trusting at all. But to be trusting, one has to be trustworthy themselves. Otherwise, if they aren't trustworthy themselves, they won't be able to trust anyone else either because they will see others "as themselves". However, trust needs to be earned. A person needs to prove they ARE trustworthy before they can expect others to trust them. ..And a big part of prov- ing one's trustworthines Never expect anything of others that you wouldn't be willing to do or give yourself. Expect more of yourself than of others. Set your own expectation level high of yourself, but "reasonable", and what you expect from others low and you will live a life with less disappointment <3 |
Image from Anonymous.
Don't I KNOW this!!!
"I'd rather be hated for telling and standing by the truth, than loved for feeding and telling lies." ~ #ArtsieladieQu
| When you tell the truth, AND even WITH supporting data to back it up, you will be received with all sorts of goodies, such as: called all sorts of derogatory names like paranoid, lunatic, crazy, drama queen, psychobitch 3, faceless, troublemaker, worth- less, making up conspiracy theories, lying, etc., etc., etc.. Why, you will even be threatened that if you continue to tell the truth, you'll be thrown off the Internet and yes, even banned! You WILL become the object of an organised witch hunt, be labeled as a whistleblower, and used as a scapegoat. Not to mention you will be stonewalled every way possible when trying to seek the truth being covered up. ..And you will be called an idiot for collecting and saving data and you will be told to drop it so the REAL wrongdoers and liars can then get away scott free from having to be held accountable. It's no wonder why most people take the 'easy way out' and just go along with and participate in/with the lying and deceit. It takes a backbone and guts to stand up for, seek and speak the truth. The trouble is, these spineless, gutless cowards know they haven't got what it takes, so the only way they think they can feel better about themselves is to put down one or ones who actually DO have the guts to stand up for what's right. |
I thought of this contest and I spent a LOT of time building this contest, putting it together. In fact most of the work I did was on my contest workpage: http://elftown
http://elftown
See page versions 1 through 34. I am the author, except versions 17 and 23 for which Hedda was the author, because Hedda was busy enjoying making me regret I ever told him and the crew about MY contest. In fact, one of the things he used to get on my case about was, he told me that there are not supposed to be ANY links at the bottom of ANY entries' pages, but yet, if you visit ANY official contest entries' page, you will see links AT THE BOTTOM. 'Course not only did Hedda make me feel like I had done the worst possible job with the contest, but he had just received from me $175.00 for him and Lilo for Christmas. He was just trying to tell me how much he appreciated his Christmas gift! How big of him! Sending someone a generous gift after all, warrants treating their generosity with humiliation. I'll never forget how Hedda treated me over MY contest. ..And then just having sent him a nice gift for Christmas, he had me in tears!! I was so upset but who the hell cares, right?
So, since Hedda had made it so damn crystal clear that my contest was such a horrible idea, I decided to put it on hold, while I tried to get over the way I was so thoroughly filleted by Hedda and later I had decided to offer to run it with the wiki, I Believe In Elftown. But when Hedda banned me from Elftown on sunrose's birthday 2009-04-08 because I had written to him an email telling him I was thinking that leaving Elftown was the best, because I was tired and fed up with the horrible treatment I was constantly trying to deal with from some crew members in particular, past and present, and the last straw was Lothuriel accusing me of playing games because I was putting the titles of the official wiki-pages at the top of them AS Hedda HAD ASKED a number of times be done. In fact on the MC page, one can see in the comments where Hedda tells them again this is what he wants but did he say that I was just doing as HE ASKED? Hell no! ..And I wrote to him because I respected him! I didn't think it was the right thing to do to just up and leave without telling him at least and it was the professional way to be. He even told me that he didn't ban me because I did something wrong. He told ME that I didn't do anything wrong! He used the bloody excuse saying that I was going to run amok and delete/destroy all of my stuff.
Yet, he KNEW I could do NO SUCH THING! THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN DELETE ANYTHING FROM HIS SERVER IS HE, the owner/operator of the server. Yet, the crew bought his whole made up, concocted story! I could not delete wiki-pages either because I had a priv of 49, which btw, he gave me! ..And when he addressed the crew, he instigated the crew to steal away from me MY contest, when I couldn't even defend what WAS MINE! Underhanded! Sneaky! ..And all the while he was lying through his teeth! Instead of Hedda telling the crew the TRUTH, that he, Hedda, was bloody pissed off at me because I was contemplating leaving the site, he fed the crew a whole line of BS!
He put in my badge slot that infamous little red heart on Valentine's Day weekend and to show me just how pissed off he was at me for thinking about leaving the site, he removed the exact SAME heart he had put in there when he banned me because he knew it meant the world to me because I TOLD HIM! ..And then he knew he'd gain brownie points besides if he did it on her birthday.. like "Happy Birthday! I got rid of Artsie like you have wanted me to for ions now." (sunrose stated about 3 years ago PUBLICLY that she's been after Hedda for years to get rid of me from Elftown.)
Then because I complained about the crew and guards stealing MY contest and when I couldn't even defend what was mine, I was then again ostracised for objecting! I thought the guards are to keep others from stealing what doesn't belong to them. It's pretty damn good when it's the guards who are guilty of stealing the work of others, not to mention harassing members on their own wiki-pages!
I was banned from Elftown by [Hedda] on 2009-04-08 for doing nothing wrong, as he stated, but because he "assumed" (or so he told the crew) I was going to run amok and destroy/delete MY stuff, when, as I've pointed out previously, I could do no such thing because "I" do not operate HIS server nor did I have a low enough priv (49) to be able to delete any wiki-pages either. However, on another of his sites, AFTER HE TOLD ME in an email (that I have still) that I could run Elf12 the way I liked, as I saw fit, and that he had nothing to do with Elf12, he publicly humiliated me on Elf12, removed me as the mod because he was hoping to destroy my Christmas with Hans (2009-12-20), but he didn't tell me this when he sent a threatening PM to me on Elftown 2009-12-20. It was when I went to Elf12 on the 23rd was I greeted with this:
But you all want to know the real kicker? He banned me saying I was going to delete my work on Elftown. Yet, on Elf12, he had NO problem with the crew there deleting all of my work. Hedda tried to get me to believe that he was "concerned" about me and "my Easter" and "my work". Awwww.... If he was so concerned, then why wasn't he concerned about others deleting my work? What, it's perfectly alright for "others" to destroy my work, but yet, I, its creator, have no say??? Oh, but he calls ME crazy!!! Apparently, since now he has STOLEN about 10,000 pieces of my artwork, about 400 written works, and other stuff too, my contest, for one, Hedda is justifying in his mind that THIS is perfectly okay too! ..And he mocks Easter, so he was concerned about 'my' Easter? pfffffft
All Hedda was doing was caving in to appease two Elf12ers who decided to get even with me. What started it was, a crew member wasn't doing her job as a Jokes' boss. She was logging in, but she wasn't taking care of her job. The vice mog and I had discussed many times that bosses who weren't doing their assigned tasks needed to be retired. I put it off because I really didn't like retiring someone but eventually it had to be done and I being the mod had to be the one to do it.
There were several bosses that I needed to retire. So I retired each one that needed to be, but I always did it telling them their contributions were much appreciated and that if at a later time they felt they would be able to carry out the tasks, they were more than welcome to come back. It just so happened that "one" of those I retired was this Jokes' boss and when I retired her, she took it personally and sent me a very nasty private message and of course, ended our relation. Well, this Jokes' boss was a close friend to the vice mog.
After this incident, the vice mog then decided to pull a stunt knowing I would have no choice about having to address it. She wrote in her house on this CHILDREN'S site under a piece of nude art she had done, "arrogant prick *giggles*". There were other members both crew and not who were not pleased with her behaviour both of the nude art and writing such under it. A report was filed against it/her which "I" had to handle. It was not a pleasant situation by any means. At the time I thought the vice mog was a friend. So when I dealt with the report I tried to find some middle ground.
Here's her Elf12 house with the "questionable content" as described:
Here's the report and my handling of the report:
Well, then she got progressively condescending and belligerent with me, in the forums and PMs. At some point and with the constant encouragement of another crew member who I worked closely with (whose name I shall keep undisclosed at this time), I finally decided to retire the vice mog. But I didn't do so with any animosity towards her. In fact I commended her for her efforts and I asked everyone to respect her, her efforts, with reverence and honour. This is the screen grab of my retiring of her:
THIS is some different from how Hedda berated and slammed me to the Elftown crew (which I also have a copy of). It's pretty damn good too, that someone can pull such a devious stunt as yuriona did and then I'm the one who got kicked to the curb and she, the one who did the wrong was rewarded! THIS is completely rational and logical thinking, right!? Oh, but I'm the one who's irrational and crazy. pffffft Sorry, but when you have such incompetent asshats running things, success isn't likely!
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#Love We tend to imagine, picture, assume, etc. in our minds who we will fall in Love with and so because someone doesn't meet these preconceived ideals, preset standards, we aren't open to the possibility that the one we are overlooking could in fact be the one our heart is looking for. Meanwhile we keep looking for our "ideal Love" when Love could be staring us right in the face; when Love could have already found us. Love isn't as "we make it or decide it to be". Love is Love as it is. We just have to open our hearts to be able to recognise it, as it IS, instead of how we think it 'should be'. <3
~ The Lotus Flower ~
| - A symbol of purity as it rises from muddy waters in all it's beauty. - It essentially represents the clarity of heart as well as the mind. - It also represents strength, long life as well as honour and respect. - It has been used to indicate different meanings in different circumstances. - In a relationship, it is normally used to mean being totally in love with someone and being forgetful of all that has happened in the past between you. - It is also used in Asian religions especially in India to represent awakening to the spiritual reality of life. |
“Love the heart, Love the soul, without judgment should be the goal.” ~ #ArtsieladieQu
“The seed of hatred can't take root and grow in a Garden of Love.” ~ #ArtsieladieQu
"My Stubborn Heart"
| Why can't my stubborn heart see That you really are the one for me? You're always caring, you never judge, You never hold against me any grudge. You stand by me through thick and thin, Even when not as nice as I could've been. You're always patient, always kind, Even though my heart is blind. My mind does see, my mind does know, But it's my heart running the show. It's not that I don't Love you, Because in fact I truly do. But there's one still in my heart, It will not let him to depart. I can only hope one day he'll be gone, So my heart can see a brand new dawn, In which the place that you should be Is in my heart, instead of he. |
By Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-03-10 10:56:00 (EST)
"When we count our blessin's, include the lessons, for we will then live a life full of gratitude, nurturing an attitude for Love, peace, and harmony to thrive within us." ~ Quotes-By-Artsieladie
Truth Vs Spinners
When lies you have told and the Truth covered up,
Don't expect peace to be served in your cup,
Nor on your dinner plate, main course or dessert,
Lies are tempting but ultimately hurt
Not just those who are lied to, deceived,
But worse, the ones who, the lies, have conceived.
Truth will be whispering just softly at first
Easily dismissed, as the lies are rehearsed,
But with each rehearsal, a hole is discovered,
Another lie's needed to keep lies covered.
The web's been started, the web's begun,
A log must be kept as the lies are spun,
For even one tiny miss, one slight overlook
And the weave will unravel in the log keeping book.
The more spinners involved, the more lacy lies
Need to be spun to keep the disguise.
For the Truth ever lurking, so closely watching,
Is grinning triumphantly, noting the botching.
Each missed logging, each one out of place,
And the Truth gains ground with a smiling face.
While the spinners waste energy on keeping track,
The Truth saves energy for a strategic attack.
At some point the spinners begin to awaken,
Realise the Truth won't accept being taken.
As the Truth circles, psyched and ready,
Bullets of guilt, released markedly steady,
Relentless, continually, shot after shot,
The spinners are targeted, not forgot.
The Truth won't recede nor will it retreat,
Until all the lies spun are met with defeat.
The consciences of guilt, flushed out each one,
Taunted and tormented til the deed is done.
The Truth won't stop its deployed brigade,
Until for the lies all the dues've been paid.
The guilty conscience that turns inside
In an attempt to escape, to cower, to hide,
Will not beat the Truth or the war win,
Because guilt will devour the host from within.
So all of you spinners of lies take heed,
Truth has your number even before you proceed.
It just enjoys watching as you foolishly plunder,
And spend all your energy while yet you wonder
How your lies surfaced, became revealed,
Signed and delivered and by Truth unsealed.
Spinners of lies wonder no more
When the Flames of Truth are at your door.
Remember this, for lies you've spun,
Truth'll shoot you with your own lying gun.
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-03-09 03:56:00 (EST)