[AlexanderMills]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2010-02-16
Written: (3792 days ago)

im gay

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Written about Thursday 2006-08-31
Written: (5058 days ago)

Body: Boy: baby we need to talk

Girl: ricardo, wat do u mean?

Boy: sumthin has come up...

Girl: wat? Wuts wrong? Is it bad?

Boy: i dont want to hurt u baby

Girl: *thinks* omg i hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much

Boy: baby are you there??

Girl: yea im here wut is so important??

Boy: im not sure if i should say

Girl: well u already brought it up, so please just tell me.

Boy: im leaving....

Girl: baby wut are u talking about?? I dont want u to leave me, i love you

Boy: not like that, i mean im moving far away

Girl: why? All of ur famliy lives over here.

Boy: well my father is sending me away to a boarding skool far away.

Girl: i cant believe this.

[FATHER: (picks up tha other fone, interrupts & yells furiously) ERiKA, wat did i tell you about talking to boys?!!!!!....Get off the damn fone!! (And hangs up)]

Boy: wow ur father sounds really mad

Girl: u know how he gets, but anywayz i dont want you to go

Boy: would you run away with me?

Girl: baby, u know i would, i would do anything for u, but i cant... U dont know wut would happen if i did. My dad would kill me !!

Boy: *sad* its ok i understand i guess..

Girl: *thinking* i cant believe wuts going on

Boy: i need to give u sumthing 2nite b/c i am leaving on flight 1-80 in tha morning, so i need to see you now.

Girl: ok i will sneak out & meet u at tha park

Boy: ok ill meet u there in 20min

[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives her a note.]

Boy: here u go, this is for you i gotta go.

Girl: ****tear (begins to cry)

Boy: baby dont cry, u know i love you...but i have 2 go

Girl: ok (begins to walk away)

[They both go back home. And erika begins to read tha letter he gave her]

It says.....

U probably already know that im leaving, i knew this would be better if i wrote a letter explaining tha truth about how much i care about you. The truth is, is that i never loved you, i hated you so much, u are my bitch and dont u ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, n be around u. U really have no clue how much i hate you. Now that im leaving i thought u should know that i hate you bitch, u never did tha right thing, and u were never there. I didnt think i could hate someone as much as i hate you. And i never want to see you, for the rest of my life, i will never miss kissing you like before, i never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and thats a promise. U never had my love, and i want you to remember that. Bitch u keep this letter bcuz this may be tha last thing u have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. i will not talk to you soon bitch.... Goodbye
- Ricardo

[ erika begins to cry, she throws tha paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]

....A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely.... Then she gets a fone call....

Friend: how are u feeling?

Girl: i just cant believe this happend i thought he loved me.

Friend: o, about that. Ricardo left me a msg. A few days ago. He told me to tell u to look in ur jacket pocket or something...

Girl: ummm ok

[She finds a piece of paper in tha jacket,

It says.

Baby i hope u find this before u read my letter. I knew ur dad might read it, so i switched a few words...

Hate = Love

Never = Alwayz

Bitch = Baby

Will not= will

........ I hope u didnt take that seriously because i love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats y i wanted u to run away with me...


Girl: omg its a letter, Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I cant believe how stupid I am!!

Friend: lol ok but i g2g... Call me later

Girl: *happy*ok bye, i'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me !!

...... Erika turns tha T.V. on......

[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for Survivors...This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80...it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." Reporter says.

[ she turns off the tv....3 days later, she kills herself, because of tha fact that Ricardo wa dead & she had nothing to Live for... ]

....A day after that the fone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a msg. "Its Ricardo, i guess ur not home so, I called 2 let u know that im alive, i missed my flight b/c i had 2 see u one last time. So i hope ur not worried. I am staying for good. Sorry if u got scared, i promise 2 make it up 2 ueverything will be a be ok i love you so much...call me asap bye!!

Boy- hey, Hun
Girl- hey
Boy- I missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there?
Girl- yeah, I had to go to the doctor.
Boy- oh really? Why?
Girl- oh nothing, annual shots that’s all.
Boy- oh
Girl- so what did we do in math 2day?
Boy- u didn’t miss anything that great.......just lots of notes
Girl- ok good
Boy- yeah
Girl- hey I have a question......
Boy- ok, ask away
Girl-........How much do u love me?
Boy- u know I love u more than anything
Girl- yeah.....
Boy- y did u ask?
Boy- is something wrong?
Girl- no nothing at all
Boy- good.
Girl- .........How much do u care about me?
Boy- I would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.
Girl- u would?
Boy- yeah.........of course I would >sounding worried< is there something wrong??
Girl- no, everything’s fine......
Boy- are u sure?
Girl- yeah.
Boy- ok.......I hope so.
Girl- ..............Would u die for me?
Boy- I would take a bullet for u anyday, Hun
Girl- really?
Boy- anyday. Now seriously, is there something wrong???
Girl- no I’m fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyone’s fine.
Boy- ............ok
Girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school.
Boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.
girl- yeah, I love u 2, bye.
Boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?
Friend- no
Boy- oh.
Friend- she wasn’t here yesterday either.
Boy- I know, she was acting all weird on the phone last night.
Friend- well dude u know how gurls are sumtimes
Boy- yeah........But not her.
Friend- idk what else 2 say, man.
Boy- k well I gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.
Friend- yeah I gotta get to science, ttyl.
>>THAT NIGHT: > >> > > >> >
Girl- hello?
boy- hey
Girl- oh, hi.
Boy- y weren't u at school 2day?
Girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.
Boy- are u sick?
Girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line.
Boy- ill wait.
Girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.
Boy-........Alright, I love u Hun.
very long pause
Girl- (with tear in her eye) look, I think we should break up.
Boy- what???
Girl- it’s the best thing for us right now.
Boy- y????
Girl- I love u.
> >click< > >> > > >> >
boy- hey dude
friend- hey
boy- what’s up
Friend- nothing, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?
boy- no
Friend- so u didn’t hear?
Boy- hear what?
Friend- um idk if I should be the one to tell u......
boy- dude, wtf tell me
friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468
Boy- ok............
Voice- county hospital this is nurse beckam.
Boy- uh.......I must have the wrong number, I’m looking for my friend.
Voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info)
Voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.
Boy- really? y? What happened??? How is she???
Voice- her room number its ..666, in Bldg. A, suite 3.
Voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.
Boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*
Boy- omg are u ok??
Girl- ..................
Boy- sweetie!! Talk to me!!
Girl- I..........
Boy- u what?? U WHT???
girl- I have cancer and I’m on life support
Boy- ......Breaks into tears......
girl- they're taking me off 2night
Boy- y??
girl- I wanted 2 tell u but I couldn’t
Boy- y didn’t u tell me????
girl- I didn’t want 2 hurt u.
boy- u could never hurt me
girl- I just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.
Boy- ?
Girl- I love u more than anything, I would give u the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and take a bullet for you.
Boy- ...........
girl- don’t be sad, I love u n ill always be here w/u
Boy- then y'd u break up w/me?
Nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.
BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES. But what the boy didn't know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
The boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other...
THE NOTE SAID:I told her I would take a bullet for her.... Just like she said she would die for me...
NoThiN iS mOrE pAiNfuL Then ReALiZiN He MenT eVeRyThiN 2 u,& u MenT nOtHiN 2 HiM

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Written about Monday 2006-08-28
Written: (5061 days ago)

ive neva eva written in here so here it goes im at work today its monday i need my bed

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