depression makes it worst... but inspiring at the same time.

just wrote another song and maybe after teaching tonight i'll just hop by the studio to do some recordings.

yes! i'll make it another song for the homogoblins.
gotta see if all of them can attend to the jam session.

right now, i'm preapring all the music notes and the drum beat so that we can finish it as soon as possible.
let's hope it will not take long like the You Are My Bliss song.

let's hope for a good result.

i'm not feeling well.

it's been about a week that i have this frickin head-ache.
the medication (i HATE meds) taht my doctor gave doesn't work anymore.

i need an axe to open up this skull to figure out what's wrong...or cutting it should be the best idea.

*hits head on the keyboard* there it goes again. >.<

i can't stand it. gotta kill the pain!

is it unfair
would you be aware
if i might
catch you in a stare

now tell me if it's okay
if i walk past your door today
i'm runnin out of happy things to say

but i don't need a funny line
'coz nobody laughs at a castle
that's crawling down
with ev'ry word you
ev'ry game you
ev'ry hate

come on now tell me
would it be a better day for you
if you bring me down?

you got your coat and tie
and you're lookin so cool
in front of the tv camera
all that just to tell us we'll be gone

now tell me is it all okay
if i tell you you're fuckin gay
don't anyone have a happy thing to say

but i don't need a funny line
'coz nobody laughs at a castle
that's crumbling down
with ev'ry word you
ev'ry game you
ev'ry hate

come on now tell me
would it be a better day for you
if you bring me down?

kill me a little
kill me a little every day
is it unfair (is it unfair)
to be aware (come on kill me)
if i might ever catch you in a stare

but i don't need a funny line
'coz nobody laughs at my castle
that crumbles down
with ev'ry word you
ev'ry game you
ev'ry hate

come on now tell me
would it be a better day for you
if you bring me down

why don't you tell me
would it be a better day for you
if you bring me down

A fatal attraction in ravenous pursuit
With unlimited and boundless goals


Passionately luring to gravely imprison
Trusting and virtuous souls


Seeking gullible, needy and reckless desire
Rebounding oblivious love


Promising to cherish, hold close and take care of
True love, it will surely be void of


Defiled distortions and witting betrayal
Intentions designed for misleading


It seeks not your looks but a beauty within
It’s your soul that it craves for the feeding


It bleeds your life fluids it thrives a slow death
A bloodcurdling sick Valentine


Just before taking your very last breath
A voice softly whispers “Be Mine”

A house in the back of a deep eerie shallow
Is distilling a horror on the eve of the Hallow

A place in which a death warrant is born
Sent to all and to all they will mourn

An annual messenger of tormenting pain
The young and the old it entertains

Their helpless souls are forever taken
And their bodies will be left, cold and vacant

For all who succumb to Its bloody arrest
A power grows from within Its nest

A sight so gruesome and beyond belief
The moon will darken and reflect its grief

Inevitably the terror returns to its source
It takes all the souls and shows no remorse

When it closes its doors it’s said to be known
A faint, eerie voice whispers,
“Home Sweet Home”

today....
is one hell of a shit and stressful day.
i just ....
i just want to be with her. i can feel peace. calm. quite. serene. everytime i'm with her. my one and only. the one i gave my heart for. *sigh* yeah, there will be a lot of sighs whenever i'm alone.
right now. what is right now? EMPTY! that is it. it is EMPTY

E-M-P-T-Y!!!

i've been wondering through the darkness seeking for my guiding light. i was all alone. thoughts passings in and out of my head without leaving any messages. million sighs i have made but in all those things, nothing can calm me down.

i miss you.

la notte fonda e la luna piena 
ci offrivano da dono solo l’atmosfera 
ma l’amavo e l’amo ancora 
ogni dettaglio è aria che mi manca 
e se sto così..sarà la primavera.. 
ma non regge più la scusa...

after all the fuck ups and the hassles of the long ride i had to hike for more than a mile. looking for a place where i could avoid rents and just pitch tents near the shore. build fire at night and sand castles at daylight. choose our booze from wine, tequila, beer, or vodka..... even gin and juice. but hey! it would be better to have a mix of everything that there is until we loose our cruise. but knowing that the more we loose our cruise..... and knowing the fact the more fucked up we'd get is the best road that we're all headed. 'cause that's why i'm here. so i asked myself:
"Why are you not here?"
"where you at?"
"where you've been?"
i kissed the sun and held the moon by my hand.


they swam like there was tomorrow and gazed the stars with their shadows as their burrows. we never slept. we got sleepy because we got drunk, and dizzy, and nauseous... and maybe just too spaced out in a state so dreamy. i was then with my friend, MaryJane, and it it would be underrated to say that she just took my pain away. while Captain Kirk along with his crew, and Superman didn't show up just like you. but that's okay. ^.^ i got hit in the brain anyway by a few lightnings while watching the sunset. then i bumped into J while lining up waiting for the concert. so i just asked myself this a lot of times:
"Why are you not here?"
"where you at?"
"where you've been?"
i kissed the sun and held the moon by my hand.


faced the ocean
closed my eyes
stood against the sun

i gotta do something that's what they say because time is ticking away.
i gotta get a job and work 8 hours a day because time is ticking away.
i gotta quit my school and become a famous DJ(?!) because time is ticking away.
i gotta travel the world and learn spanish someday because time is ticking away.

time is ticking away
and there are too many things I wanna say
like "i love you", "thanks for being there"
"seize the day", "enjoy the moment"
because time is ticking away.

99 red ballons

.....and so, i'm home, i had a flu, been coughing for three days now.... finally, the sun found its way out of the clouds. YAY! it's sunny outside. maybee, i'll just go out with Spike! and Slimer by the lake shore and "meditate" to look for some peace and relaxation. call my boss this morning. he said i can take my vacation that i miss due to my stay in the hospital. so tomorrow, i'll leave for a week vacation at Liguria Region. i might stay either in Livorno or Genoa. i'm not sure yet.

i just need to be alone for a while.

home at last! actually, i arrived last wednesday but there was a thunderstorms that lasted 'til friday. caught a flu and... guess what?! in bed again for two days with 38.5°C to 39°C of fever!!! i was blabbering all the time (according to my bro). it always happens when i'm ill.
i just dropped by to look for news and mails but my head was turning and, literally, don't understand a thing of what i'm doing.
the storm was over and it's hot again (it's supposed to be autumn already) but i was frezzing. never been that bad since i was 13 years old..... decades ago!
now, i feel better... uhm... mostly. aside from the car accident remembrance, the sore throat due to excessive coughing (i can immitate The Godfather's voice! ^_^), and slight cold, the rest is going so-so.


i'll take my vacation on Monday. let's hope for a good weather this week. maybe i'll be out of town. but this time, i'll gonna take the train to go there. my "BEAST" is a total wreck and can be repaired but will cost like a brand new one... so *sigh* i'm looking forward for another 206.


and.....
Slimer kicks ass! Spike! cannot stand a chance when their playing. the Sunshine, the kitten loves playing with Spike!'s tail. i must capture them in video next time. and Buster, the cottontail dwarf rabbit, is the same lemme-eat-and-leave-me-alone mood. he's kinda boring for a pet anyway. he's just cute.

good thing the doctor say that i can use the computer if there's nothing to do at the hospital's reception.
they caught me yesterday while using the internet. but they didn't say a thing. i just said: "i'm just reading [get-well-soon cards]!" lol