i dont know what to think any more...

its been a while from the last time i wrote in here..man i think im going crazy..i dont know what to do any more i ran away twice...now my bf is so pissed off at me he wont even talk to me i think he wants to break up and i dont want that cuz i love him with all my heart i would die for him...i dont know what to do...

i dont know what to do any more it seems like one of my really good friends think that i dont trust him but who knows i like this one guy but i dont know if i should ask him out or not im sick of getting my heart broken and im sick of breaking the guys hearts...if you know what i mean....i went to the lake today got sun burn that sucks ass...i just dont know any more what to do i dont want to know what to do either so yeah

im sick of all the bitching just leave me alone

the pain


no one understands me,
they dont know how it makes me feel,
they always criticise me,
they make me feel like im not real,



some times i wonder why im here,
most days i wish i would just drop down dead,
and put everyone out of their miseery,
so i lie here on my bed,
wiht a knife in my hand,
do i dare?
to kill my self,
if i did its not like theyd care,
i push the blade through my brain,
i feel the blood rund down my face,
im going to go to hell now,
its a far better place,



im leaving all my troubles be hind,
and all the people who made me sad,
im leaving the world were i once lived,
and all the things that made me mad,
all the times i felt that i,
just could not go on,



all the times i felt that i,
was being stranded upon,
but now those times are over,
because i have ended my life,
and all of this was possible,
with the sharp edge of a knife.