It's been a bit, well this is only my second entry but still.    I'm still with Dusty I suppose, but only because he's never home for me to break up with. I've found over the past week or so I've fallen in love with Steven Clark. He lives so far away though, and partly that hurts me knowing how much I want him and can't have him now. Right now he's at work, and today seems to only drag by. Yesterday he called me on every break and the day just seemed to fly by like whoa. For now I just wait for him to come home and bring my smile back.

Well it's almost 2 am, and yet I'm not asleep. At least my niece stayed up late so maybe she'll sleep later. Also her dad is suppose to be picking her up tomorrow sometime, which gives me the weekend off again. I haven't heard from Dusty since Sunday morning, which is of course worrying me. Sometimes I think he only comes to see me or I see him just to have sex or whatever and then I have to wait days to see him. That could just be my self conscience part of me too though. My computer is givng me shit, the internet wants to keep cutting off for no reason kinda aggrivating.

Well, where to begin....I joined this site because I always here Stephykins(Stephanie) talking about it so I spend alot of time online so I was like what the hell.

I saw Dusty(boyfriend) today, and he's going to Eden tonight and supposibly we are going to the beach for the weekend, but it's still up in the air. I love him so much it's weird sometimes.