Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Cause I can't breathe
No I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swollow me then spit me out
For hating you I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No I don't cry on the outside
ANYMORE!

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

By Kelly Clarkson - Behind these Hazel Eyes!

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

By Kelly Clarkson - Because of you! :'(

Both of them is how I feel About Eryn, I still love her... I dont want her to be in pain no more... she deserves so much better in her life....

www.darrenshan.com

*Drools* WOW!

EMO4
LIFE!!
ALL EMOS
R IN IT
2GETHA!!

Do you still love me?
Do you even care?
Would you care if i disappeared?
Would you know if i weren't there?
I love you.
You don't care.
You don't believe me.
You still aren't there.

*Stares at the eye, dazed* I WANT EYES LIKE THAT!!! *Goes to by HIM contacts*.

hmmmm....meh!

woohoo! Ville Valo from HIM! with one of my most fav drinks, red bull! it gives you wings!

You gotta love all of them lovely ladies! :P
Arwen is so beautiful... ♥.♥

So true... This goes to Eryn [Wolfe In Chef's Clothing] love sucks...why bother...

*Sighs*

Hmmmmmmmm.......... Right then... Who would wanna be the king of pumpkins though... *thinks* ME!

XxX[In The Land Of Make Believe, They Don't Believe In Me]XxX

I don't believe in love but I do believe in hate...

This is [Wolfe In Chef's Clothing]s Wonderfull story! Well the first part of it *Grins* Read on....

 
Prolauge


As the first rays of sun shone over the harizon, Eryn was just putting her head down on her pullow. her alwarmvclock blared in her ears and she sat upright with a grunt. Her father had cept her up all night and today she had school. She changed from her night clothing and into her black sabbath shirt, black jeans and convers. She slowly walked down the stairs, grabbed her schoolbag and her skateboard. She walked out the door, ignoring her father. She then slung her bag over her shoulder and tossed her board down onto the ground. She jumpped on it and began using her foot to take it faster. On the way to school, she saw many of the other kids in cars, talking to their loving parents. She sighed and continued on.
When she got to school, she kicked her board up and grabbed it. When she walked in, her face instantly brightened. Standing at her locker was one of the people that made her smile. Max. With his dark hair that was covered by a hat, his dark eyes full of love, he was her dream boy. Eryn walked to him and hugged him tight, her green eyes shinning in the lighting of the halls.
"I missed you, Max" She said, smiling sweetly at him
"I missed you too, Eryn." He said, puttign his arm around her waist. Eryn smiled and leaned onto him, letting her bag drop to the ground. Some wlaked by and snickered. This made Eryn glare at them. "Cheerleaders..." She hissed after they were past. Max nodded and watched the girls walk off, glaring. Eryn opened her locker and shoved some of her things in before picking her bag back up. She attacked her skateboard to it with little straps she had put on it. They begna to wlak to clas, hand in hand.
About halfway through class, a person from the office came in and walked to Eryn's desk. She mummbled somthing into her ear and Eryn stood, grabbing her bag. Max stared at her, eyes full of worry. Eryn looked at him and her eyes showed nothing but sadness. She wlaked from the room and headed for the front doors of the school where a poliece car was waiting. She got into the front seat and the car took off. A little ways down the road, there was a horrid wreak. There were ambulences and fire trucks. The poliece car stopped and Eryn got out, ducking under the yellow tape that blocked the way of people. There was a streacher with a figure on it. There was blood on the white sheet covering the figure. Eryn stopped them and pulled the sheet back. She gasped and stepped back, covering her mouth with her hand, green eyes tearing up. There lay her mother. She saw her father sitting on the curb, head bleeding. She also saw another man that was getting stiched up. Her father had gotten hit for running a red light and her mother had died...a shard of glass in the heart. Eryn, tears sliding down her face, walked to her father and pucned him hard across the face. A poliece officer walked to her and walked her away fro mher father.


Later that night, Max wanted to see what was wrong with Eryn, so he snuck out and went to her house. He opened her window and climbed into her dark room "Eryn?" he asked the darkness. Eryn turned on her lamp, face tear streaked. "I'm sorry..." She whispered. She pulled a gun from under her pillow, and aimed it at her heart. Max dove for her. Eryn pulled the tigger, but max had hit her arms, making her aim change. The bullet entered her chest and she gasped, falling back onto her bed, blood already seeping fro mthe wound. "NO!" Max cried. He held her in his arms. Eryn's father burst through the door and stared at his doughter wide eyed "CALL AN AMBULANCE DAMN IT!" Max shouted. Eryn's father nodded and ran out of the room to call and ambulence. "I'm.....sorry...." came the whisper from Eryn's lips. "Shh...Its....goign to be ok...You will be fine..." Max whispered to her, kissing her forehead gnelty. He continued to hold her, her blood seeping onto his arms. Eryn's eyes closed "Dont leave me!" Max whispered. He could hear the ambulence now....


AWSOME AINT IT?!?!? HUH?!?! :D

The Distillers
....

Murder murder a ripe blood stain
Pulled the fucking trigger cause I'm sick of it all
[Murder murder a ripe fucking hate]
Pulled the fucking trigger cause

I'm sick of it all

I went to school today with an Uzi
There's this kid,he teased me
So I shot him in the face
All the world's light won't ease my pain
It won't cease,I'm diseased
Will you hang me please?
I'm a nihilist
Raised on violence
What do I do?
I'm American youth
All my life I've lived in silence


gonna snap,I'll get you back shit

I'm a boy
I'm only 14


[my body ROTS]

Cause I
won't fucking eat

I'm a silent star on the b-roll
[I'm a
mirror fucking image
of no control]
Give me an award
I conquered food again
What else is better in life than to purge my pain?
[If I cut,I won't look like that]
If I cut,If I cut,

I won't feel like this shit



We are kids
We think life is a scam
[we come from wasted land]
We are kids we play punk rock and roll
If we didn't we got no soul

We are [different fucking kids with the same heartbeat]
We got one pulse running through the streets
They are our arteries
We are different fucking kids with the same heartbeat
We got one pulse running through the streets


I am a part of this



we are kids
We think life is a scam
We come from a wasted land
We are kids we play[punk rock and roll]
If we didn't we got no soul

lets just end it now..

It was a cold day, the wind blew at a painfull speed, Sasuke and Sakura where sitting on a bench near the Ninja school, Waiting for Kakashi to show up, he was always late, Naruto was dancing around being the fool he was born to be. Sakura gasped as a circle of sand started to appear out of nowhere, it made a cone shape and then Gaara appeared out of it, his face was blank and lonely as usual, Sasuke grunted and closed his eyes, Sakura jumped to her feet "Hi, Gaara!" she beamed waving, Gaara just nodded at her and stared hatefully at Sasuke, Naruto frozz when he saw Gaara and walked over to him "H- Hi..." he said, turning pale, Naruto liked Gaara in a weird way, Ever since they had that deadly fight a few months back, Naruto now felt sorry for him and treated him as a friend but Gaara was the opposite, Because Naruto had beat him, Gaara hated losing and so he took that hatered out on Naruto, Gaara bent down and spat in between Narutos feet and glared coldly at him for a secand before walking silently off. Ino appeared, her face was dreamy "Oh, Sasuke!" she beamed in her girly tone, She skipped over to him, she was holding a new light pink dress that had roses on it "Like it?!" she asked pushing it right in Sasuke's face, Sasuke nodded quickly and pushed the dress aside "Oh my god! he likes it!" She grinned and stuck her tongue out at a shocked and jelous Sakura, Ino looked at Naruto and then at Sasuke "So, Who are you two going to the school ball with?" she asked, Naruto grinned "Sakura of course!" he beamed, Sakura rolled her eyes "In your dreams!" Ino turned to Sasuke "How about you?" Sasuke looked sideways at her "I am not going..." He grumbled, Sakura and Ino's jaws dropped and Naruto laughed quietly to himself, he was happy that Sasuke wasn't going know he would have Sakura all to himself, Ino pouted "You must go!" she yelled "Everyone is!" Sakura added, Sasuke just shook his stubborn head. Naruto walked over to Sakura and sat next to her and leaned on her "Looks like you will have to go with me..." he said smiling, Sakura jumped to her feet "If Sasuke does not go, then neither do I!" she snapped "Yeah, Me to!" Ino agreed, Sakura stormed off, Ino stared at Sasuke "Please, Come with me" she pleaded standing infront of him "Please..." she said again, Sasuke looked at her, with cold eyes "I said no" he said calmly "Its a foolish thing we are in school to learn to be good ninjas not to be fools and have fun" he got up and put his hands in his pockets and walked quietly away, Ino had tears in her eyes "I cant beleive him!" she roared, Naruto flinched "Eh, Calm down..." he muttered, Ino turned to him and punched him in the face hard, Naruto yelped and went flying back and into a tree, he sat up and rubbed his face "Ow!" he moaned "That hurt!" Ino grinned "Good, I hope it did!" she turned and sighed "I'll go ask Neji then..." she said and walked off aswell.

A couple of minutes later Kakashi appeared, Naruto was sitting back on the bench talking to himself "Naruto!" Kakashi called looking around "Where are Sasuke and Sakura?" he asked, Naruto shrugged "Sasuke is dead, I hope..." He grumbled, Kakashi half laughed "What has he done to you now?" he asked, Naruto looked at the floor "Sakura chose him over me....again" Kakashi rolled his eyes "Naruto how many times! You are at this school to learn to be a good ninja not get girlfriends!" Naruto cursed Kakashi rudely and Kakashi shot over to him and grabbed Narutos ears and pulled them hard, Naruto yelped "Dont be so rude to your Sensai, Naruto!" Kakashi yelled "Sorry! Sorry!" Naruto cried, Kakashi let go and pushed him away "Well, I dont think we will have a lesson today we will have to do extra tommorow!" he sighed "You kids are pains!" Naruto rubbed his ears and grinned "Well I am here..." Kakashi ruffled Narutos hair "Yeah, you are here...sulking.." Naruto narrowed his eyes at Kakashi, Kakashi laughed "Go get some Ramen Naruto" he said throwing Naruto some money and walked away quickly.

Naruto was sat on a stool in the Ramen bar a bowl of Ramen in front of him, he was eating it slowly to make it last, Neji walked into the bar and sat down next to him, Naruto looked sideways at him, Ramen hanging out his mouth "Hey!" he mumbled, Neji looked at him "Hello" he replied and sighed, Neji was cut badly across his forehead blood dripped into his left eye making him blink rapidly, Neji's clothes where ripped and could not be fixed for more use, "Been training?" Naruto asked, Neji nodded "With Tenten and Lee" Neji ordered some ramen and started eating it "So, who are you going to the ball with?" Naruto asked, Neji was silent for a while then he shrugged "I haven't really thought about it" Naruto grinned "What about Tenten? I think she likes you..." Neji glared at him "Shut up you lier!" he snapped, Naruto flinched and nodded slowly and went back to eating his Ramen, After a while Neji sighed "Look, I'm sorry I snapped at you Naruto, But Tenten does not like me in that way she is on my team and is my allie thats all she will ever be..." Neji got up "Goodbye" he walked out of the Ramen bar quickly.

Well, I feel awfull, It's hard to Speak to Eryn now because she has school and has different time zones to me and I really need her at times like this, I miss her, I aint got school yet, luckily, My little sister who died of cancer is getting buried tommorow and I am aloud to go but dont know weather I want to, its all to sad for me, even if she is my sister, Its hard and I love her, but I dunno we will have to see....*cries*

star wars fans will like this.....its funny

Yo! Everyone! I forgot about this thing called a
Diary well, I am veeeery bored and I feel sad for
some reason and I want to be happy, I need my mates around me *sobs*