I AM LEAVEING SOON SAYING MY GOODBYES TO EVERYONE TONIGHT I WILL NOT BE BACK GOT NUTTING TO LIVE FOR NOW

yes i self harm i have since i was 9 years old when i got with someone tho when i was 14 thats when i started to self harm more and then i was with him till i was 16 he is dustins dad and i used to get insecure about him not comeing home and everythin so i used to cut myself deep to see myself bleed to make sure i was still alive... i still do cut myself now but not as much maybe once every 2 weeks or somethin now when i get really really down and i do still get down but i dont cut as much and that is cuz i have someone that stops me from doing it and i care so much for him that i try not to cut but i cant help it sometimes sometimes its the pain that gives me the relife that i need and it works and i will sit in the dark on my own for ages just thinking about live and how shit its been for me and still is in alot of ways

some rules for you fools to follow if not stop talking to me

1) dont dis me or my son
2)dont dis my boyfriend
3) start talking shit about me and i find out you die
4) dont talk about me behind my back i will find out
5) if you dont like me say so and have done with it
6) say shit about my son that i dont like and be ready for a fight or a bitch out what ever one you pussys can take cuz i am full blood irish gypsy so its not a good thin to pick on me cuz you will have the hole lot of them on you as we are all family and i have over 300 of them liveing on my land and they are all from the same lot as me the old irsh ones that are about only 600 left
7) really dont start on me
8) NO i am not single i am with someone so stop asking
9) i dont care how big your cock is and how much you like looking at my pics i will not cyber with you
10) YOU HAVE TO ASK TO SEE MY WIKI AND LEAVE ME COMMENTS IN THERE AND IF I DONT LIKE YOU I TAKE YOU OUT OF MY WIKI


(there thats all i have to say for my rules right now)

i just want to say to all you people that are ment to be my friends if you dont stop dissing me i will take you out and i mean OUT in a bad way not a good way my son is my life and if you dont like it fuck off i know i said i was not wanting or lookin for a relationship that was true but sorry people i am took now i gave in and let my bars down for one guy and i am glad i did.....but if you keep slagin me and my son off you will find i might look sweet but hell am i deadly when you piss me off the dont call me dragon for nuttin you know

you wish to see my wiki you have to ask me now and i will be happy to add you to let you on to it

i feel lost and i need to be found and no one can find me i look inside myself to find somethin i have been looking for all my life and i cant find anythin but pain and hurt on the outside i hide how i feel cuz people do not understand me the only one that might understand me is my MAN and he ent been thr what i have but he still knows more about me than most people do he is the one that holds the key to my heart and he always will i love him more than anythin he found me now he just needs to set me free and when i am in his arms i will be free i just need to be with him befor its to l8 and that day will come for me i have my fate to fill i am the last of my real blood line i am full irish and i cant wait to get hold of my life and get it on the right road

lets see what can i say well i dont know guss i cant wait to go home and never come back i may never be back online again when i move cuz i am moveing to forget so there

maybe i was wrong again maybe me and him are sooo not right i really dont know what to do i know that no one can love someone like me tho i really know that no one loves me and everyone just lies to me

i dont want to say it but maybe me and him are not ment to be no more maybe we are to wrong sooo wrong we cant be right..


but then i really think and me and him are right we have ups and downs but he is everythin to me and we are right i was sooo wrong to think that me and him was wrong

i love my guy sooo much i really cant wait to be with him and i really do need him and i know this cuz he has helped me out alot with alot of things he is always ther when i need him and he always will be (so he tells me) we can sometimes be mean but then at the end of the day we is in love and thats all that matters to me. he is the one guy that i love and the 1st guy that i have said i love you to so that has to mean somethin dont it?????some times i do wake up and think why me why does he love me and then i stop and think i dont give a shit why he loves me all i know is that he loves me YAY....



omg i cant think i am soooo sleepy lol ahhh i need to sleep but cant... this sucks by the cash is good so i guess it ent that bad really is it????? lol.