About 4 days ago i found a pair of Mourning Doves that fell from the nest. Both had no feathers

I took them in and fed them

about a day later both were pecking at each other doing quite well..... then hte smaller one who had just begun to get feathers in, stopped eating so much

the next day, he died.

His brother who had most all wing feathers stopped eating so much.

today he wont make it

*cries*

LIFE SUCKS!

my bebies didnt make it

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
01 - Roaches
02 – someone I love dying
03 - the future

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
01 - science
02 - Math
03 – people

THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
01 – To cook
02 - express my feelings
03 - ASL

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
01 - orange tank
02 - celtic beltbuckle on spiked belt
03 – no bra

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
01 - Lamp
02 - massive amounts of index cards
03 - phones

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
01 – Finnish up going to the last two continents i need to go to (Asia and Africa)
02 – Have kids
03 – see the future

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
01 - spunky
02 - ADD (random)
03 – creative

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
01 – lash out
02 – uncontrolable
03 – nervesness

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
01 - German
02 - Irish
03 - Native American

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 – my nose
02 - my teeth
03 - my nails

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 – my eyes
02 – the things that are supposed to be growing or have grown in on my chest
03 - birthmark

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
01 – How bad my temper really is.
02 – I have a habit i can not control
03 – I can write some perverted/graphic stuff

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
01 – "uh"
02 – "where did(it,that,they) go?"
03 – "shit"

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO
01 - Ireland
02 – NewYork
03 – Asia

THREE NAMES THAT YOU GO BY
01 - Stevie
02 - Amando Comando
03 - Mindy(or Mandi) Lue(Lue Who)

Today, my mom and I found a turtle.
I kept it in a green plastic kitchenmaid tub/box.
My bf came and picked me up to go jetskiing with him, my cousins, and one of his older friends, Bryan.
It was fun. The lake was a bit chilly, but the sun was out most of the day and inside the houseboat or "The Yacht" as my dad refers to it as. We didnt need to turn the air on. So my cousins Stacy and Jean were out there, Stacy's bf Raman and her friend from Austin Sara. Then my other younger cousins, Morgan and Lauren, and my uncle Pat came. We blew up the tube to ride. Jeff and I didnt ride but it was still fun. My cousin went to Bush's chicken and brought back food. I'd asked for a box of rolls and a couple of Dr. Peppers for Jeff and me.

After we were Jetskiing, we loaded up everything and Jeff drove up to the dock on the other side of the lake to get his truck. I drove the jetski on to the trailer. GOt IT on The FIRST time TOO!

Went home, changed, and went to the movie "A lot Like Love" with Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet. It was really cute. I loved the end where the girl went to what she thought was her true loves wedding, only to have him run out after her. She was like , no no, I'm too late. and he's like "no, I'm not getting married. My sister is" and the sister's always saying "You're such a dick!"... actually really cute movie.

Went home again, Jeff's dad was kinda getting pissed cuz it was almost 10 oclock and he wasn't home. I had to prepare the turtle to go to jeffs place. I painted the turtles shell so that maybe if we saw him again we could Identify him. Jeff had told me earlier that he thought it maybe a Snapping Turtle. He dangled his keys in front of the turltles nose and sure enough, the turtle open his mouth slowly and you can see teeth comming up from his gums. One in the front and one right behind it. and two on the sides. Sharp lil friggers im sayin!

Well mrs siemon wasnt here today. HURRAY!! I worked on my powerpoint and i wasnt late to school today!


on of the girls in my 8th period BCIS class that i hardly ever talk to said she had a dream about me and Jeff
She said I was really sad. But couldnt rememebr what happened. she said maybe jeff died.
Kinda creepy.

Corey Morgan also told me this week he had a dream with me in it. I dont know the details on that one. He has probably forgotten about it by now.

Jeff brought his two kittens to my house for me to meet. We took them to Petsmart. And they wanted to run around and everything. It was so funny. They would crawl on the back of Jeff's seat while he was driving and stick their lil sharp claws int he back of him.

We went to fazoli's for food. Through the drive thru of course. Went by BlueCat Video to rent a movie. We took the kittens inside and Jeff's friend brandon played a lil bit w/ one of the kittens. We rented Flight of the Phoenix and I bought a Symphony candy bar then went back to Jeffs house to watch the movie. 

After the movie i played a lil on Jeffs really nice OVATION Guitar. I love the neck on it. It's smaller than on my guitar! Makes it easy to hold and place my fingers! It's strings havent been tuned in 6 months and were in tune when iplayed it. The sound was great, very whole sounding.



Lovely guitar eh?

something i learned about friends in highschool
they wont be around forever
they care for a moment...but can drop you at a moments notice.
They take you for granted.
they ignore you. and can never be hurt.


match box 20- push

I wanna push you way 'round
well i will, well i will
I wanna push you down
well I will, Well I will
I wanna take you for granted, yeah yeah yeah
I wanna take you, take you
yeah well I will, I will, I will, I will, i will
push you around
yeah well I will

Last night was prom!!
or TONIGHT WAS...

Got picked up in a sea foam green 1957 Chevy Belaire.... restored to next to perfect condition by Jeffy boi wearing his tuxido which he looked really good in... fixed up all nice :-)
went to take pictures at camorn park, Miss Nelies pretty place
went to eat italian food at Vitos
Stole the flower from the table
went to prom w/ Jeff
danced.... like a wyld thang... w/ jeff nearly all the time
wore us out.... i cant really dance.. he tired to teach me to two step... didnt work
i kinda got between everyone booty bounced off everyone.... like amanda... Richard... time and samantha... took pictures of lynn... Robbie wore this old gangster getup... w/ the chain from the pocket and suspenders! Carlton bolder hat. Sean had a complete white tux.... w/ tails... looked good on him... Derrick can do the michael jackson walk... hes a really good dancer too
Danae and i traded ... so i danced w/ her date Cory..... he's actually a really good dancer and i was getting his pattern... didnt step on his feet much at all!
Jeff n i havent got much of a syncopated rythem... we both dance to the beats of different drums... btu thats okay cuz we can bout laugh and sing in each others faces ... like backstreat boys songs.... thriller.... gangsters paradice....save a horse ride a cowboy.... and i will will remember you.. kelly clarkson-since you've been gone... and all the other oldie songs we listned to in the car.... oldies 95.... doo wad diddy diddy dum diddy doo....
sang n Jeffs face.... Took lots of pictures
lots of random pictures
stayed till the end 12 AM. only thought id stay till 10 or so...
went home. changed
went to DANAE's, watched blue comedy tour
Theres yer sign
jeff drove me home
saw UFO's
they were really street lights reflection on my window
the dog was still in the same spot(on the chair in living area) as we left him when we got home to change

I wore the poofy orange dress.. he wore the tuxido w/ yellow vest and long tie...
i need to get richards pic and put britney boobies on him
me and Danae are gunna learn to poll dance this summer

Everytime i had to get back in the car... jeff had to tuck me in because my dress was so massive! it got annoying... but it was really sweet of him to do all that... and be a perfect gentleman allll night long :-D
great night
3 AM i got home
whats on TV... MOOSE.... yet the huge antlered animal woot
its time for bed!!
night

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DAMN i found out my newspaper teacher is leaving. i wont have her for next year.

we'll prolly end up getting some teacher who wont let us go get chicken, or let us goof off... or let us say cuss words...., or wont sit and just talk to us.   sucks huh?

Last night my bf jeff came over. He said he had a suprise for me. He had been hinting at it all week. He said he was going to take me some place and wanting me to guess. I guessed right then he kinda changed it so i never did know what to think.

He came over before 5:30 and brought me a dozen red roses for no reason.

He really didnt take me anyplace for a suprise. The roses were the suprise.
He knows that no guy has ever given me flowers before.
Im looking for a way to preserve them. Hes really sweet like that.

We went out to eat at Fazoli's. then we went by Hastings so i could pick up the new 3 Doors Down CD and then next door to Office Depot to get iron on tshirt transfer paper.

We got home and watched the rest of my moms soap opera One Life to Live(or something like that) while making the rest of my tshirt and setting up his design.

NOW my Boycott Spencers shirt is complete!
YAY

TODAY
we had a quiz i failed in algebra
Im making a 73 in English and i though i had tutorials today but i didnt. So i went to theatre and set up everything to get my letter jacket :-D yay.
I thought i would fall through.
drama teacher had me run all over the school to get stuff. i went to one of hte office workers to give her purchess request sheets and to pick up a couple more. she said, "this woman is going to drive me to drinking" its kinda funny.

yep.... so far thats it
I have a violin lesson later on today and imma spend the night doing absolutly nothing probably, hopefully.

I hope to go to the zoo over the 4 day weekend.

Saturday---

Last night I went to bed at like 12 at night and my mom got me up at 8:15 to get ready for this movie stuff I wanted to do. The paper advertised for a couple weeks that they would need "extra's" to play zombies in the movie The

I called my boyfriend to go with me because no one else would or could go.

We got to the set a little after 10am and got our numbers and waited in a line. I felt sick that morning and hadnt eaten. I felt like I was gunna puke.

We looked around and I saw my friend Morgan( also a symphony belle) chillin with a couple of her friends (Alec and Wes and someone else that i forgot the name of)
We talked awhile and then about an hour and a half later they asked us to get in numerical order.

All sorts of people were there. People that even looked like they wouldnt be interested in that sort of thing. there were also a few scary lookin people. Not scary cuz of the makeup either.

We waited untill about 3 :30 before we actually got to do anything. People had blood ( corn syrup with red food coloring) all over them... gashes in their faces. It was awesome. there were a punked out guy w/ a green mowhawk. he was friendly

Finaly my bf and I got in a shoot where they sprinkeled very little blood on us.( some got more) We were towards the front of the building and they were filming from the back. I doubt that I will be seen but if so, Im a blonde girl in a yellow t-shirt next to a tallish skinny guy and getting pushed by some scary lookin pervert.

We had to yell and scream like zombies for a voice recording.

3 people were arrested for sexual harrassment duing that day. They would not tollarate profanity either. They said they would warn you once and then they would kick you out if you did.

It was interesting to say the least. LONG Tiring day.

Made of steel you hearts not real
As you whisper in my ear
lies of hopes and dreams you think i will forget.
Everlasting regret
keeps me pulling from you
but your selfish buys you time to give you what you want

Its all about you and only you
your lies your likes

WORD ASSOCIATION

Sharp: Knife
Blood: hypnotic
Happy: clam
Sun: moon
Rain: cold
Cat: tiger and fluffy
Giant: nothing
Home: sleep
Yellow: my cousins fav color
Darkness: sleep
Oblivion: where i'm at 24/7
Death: far future
Hope: always
Lies: betrayal
Trip: stress relief
Run: fast
Life: ever evolving
Money: green
Cigarette: asthma
Scar: memories
Pain: sorrow
Heart: ache

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Ive been waiting for these feelings to leave me
Denying what you had done to me.
but I cant stop thinking about that last time together
this type of thing, will stick with me forever.

When I told you No
you didnt even listen
When I felt like crying
you couldnt even tell
I couldnt find the words to speak
I didnt have the nerve to leave.
You held me down, you held me back, you betrayed me and my trust, dont tell

I'm not listening
I'm not feeling
I'm becomming Numb to you

I'm just fearing and
I'm just wishing that
you will never come back again.

You left me a year ago,
Never explained to me so,
why did i take you back after all that.
I knew you'd hurt me again.

My heart is entangled
in shambles
in peices
Have you ever felt it in your heart, the pulling strings just fall apart. unraveling something real.
Well I just thought that I knew, Something that would be so true. I thought that I was in love with you.
But now thats all gone, and now i'm just now moving on. I would always be a alone with you.

When I told you No
you didnt even listen
When I felt like crying
you couldnt even tell
I couldnt find the words to speak
I didnt have the nerve to leave.
You held me down, you held me back, you betrayed me and my trust, dont tell

I'm not listening
I'm not feeling
I'm becomming Numb to you

I'm just fearing and
I'm just wishing that
you will never come back again.

You left me a year ago,
Never explained to me so,
why did i take you back after all that.
I knew you'd hurt me again.

No more No more. I am gone now, No more No more. The numbness takes me in.

I'm a little excentric
but thats okay.
I wouldnt ever change
I like myself this way

I wish I could be like you
Talk so smooth and look good too.
But I'm just a little excentric
and its what im used to.
I wouldnt be someone else
not even for you.
I cant hide who i am.
hideous and recluse
I could be just mute
an unlikely koot

Oh i wish that
i was just like you
loud and obnoxious, wanting and unbound.
Oh i wish that
I could be me too
Im just a little unordinary just under par from extrodinary

Thats me
Just a little excentric
but it's okay
You'll get used to it

Richard- "3 members are quitting 1Act."
Me- "GREAT! maybe i can get in now"
Richard- "yea"
Me-"What kinda parts are they"
Richard-"major characters"
Me-"thats okay, who?"
Richard-"the three leading male roles"
Me- "Damn. I could still do it. Put my hair up or cut it and i'd look like a boy"
Richard- "Yeah all you have to do is wear one of those things that makes you look like you have no boobs."
Me- "I dont have anything."
Richard looks at me
Richard-"yes you do!" "You have theses!" going for my hoodie .Steals the mini wheats from inside the pocket of my hoodie

sometime new i have concluded today

sometimes the best/nicest people get hurt. and you could never understand why.

Sometimes the best/nicest people do the hurting. and you could never understand why either.

what is this madness?

ive been soooo hyper today!!
and i feel really horny
gawd
i need to take my medication
my leg is all bouncing and gawd omg omg i just cant sit still and im skip everwhere
ive had no fun today
i had a final fitting for my Sym belle dress
and talked to the lil ole lady for almost 2 whole hours!
and i wanna find my hanes sheets and bed spread
i got a credit card offer n the mail

Eric now he's an exbf since he hasnt called me n a week or so and tried to force sex on me. if i say knwo why does he keep going on, humping me like im a chair leg. i couldnt tell if it was his fingers or his penis causeing hte pain i felt because he kept humping me like a fucking dog. i dont know what to do. sometimes i wish i could die for this betrayal
Eric need to fuck off
i wish i never see him agian
i wont melt for him
ill ignore him

I have a lot of guy problems now. Common for the teenage girl.

I have a boyfriend (who i dont trust and i hardly see and occasionally talk to)

I have my best guy friend thats in love w/ me, would go to the end of the world and back for me, possibly die for me. I DO NOT want to hurt him. I could actually see him in my future although he's more of a hick and im a city girl. GREEN ACERS. Him: fresh air. Me: town square. But he is the guy i trust the most and i dont care how i am around him. and he likes me anyways. I dont want to think so far in the future tho. It scares me. Im young and i want to know and do everything w/ o hurting anyone. but someone i always will

An Xbf i recently pissed off. after we broke up he decided to go out w/ my best friend. I kinda tried to keep friends w/ him but i always felt weird talking to him. when i finally did i told him what was going on in my life (including that my dad has cancer) and he broke up with my BEST FRIEND saying he still had feelings for me. REcently i msged him and he got all mad saying he'd been trying to contact me. over winterbreak i was gone. he said 2 months before that also....while he was with my best friend!!! HE NEVER CALLED EITHER. Is he insane or what!?

Then there are a couple of new guys i met and would like to get to know better.

My dad has surgery this wednesday. Im not scared or anything, i know everything will be alright. It will be hard when he comes back but with in the next year it will be back to normal i hope. I trust his dr. I do hope i get to see him. tho last time the first thing he said to me when i went to his room was LEAVE right after his surgery. anyhoo.