[CRIP 4 LIFE]'s diary

72362  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-06-20
Written: (6536 days ago)

            WRONG?

       Is it so wrong to love you,
         As much as I do?
       Is it so wrong to feel,
         The way I do?
       Is it so wrong to place you above,
         All else that I love?
       Is it so wrong to feel blue,
         When I am not next to you?
       Is it so wrong,
         To have these feelings for you?
       It is the love that lives within
         which I hold dear,

       It is the feeling of you being near!!

70441  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-06-05
Written: (6550 days ago)

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69853  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-06-01
Written: (6555 days ago)

ma ex just called me and here is the kinda shit we get when she calls.......

So Lost

Shattered dreams and torn hearts
lying all around me,
I look around and see
nothing but bloody glass and broken hearts.

Is this what life is?
Is this how it is for me?
Is it going to be like this for a while,
or do I brush it all away?

I've lost so many friends
and gained so many enemies,
and I don't know what to do,
cuz now I've lost you, too.

Can someone tell me what to do?
I feel so lost without you.
How do I make this all go away?
Cuz tomorrow looks like another stormy day.

There's no more sunshine now that you're gone,
and still I dread the morning dawn.
Being with you is without a doubt
one thing I can't live without.


Darkness

I want so much to be adored and loved
the way I should be.
I'm so tired of being
ignored and abused,
and better yet, used
for your own personal pleasure.

I've spent my whole life in pain,
I just want it to end.
Why can't you see that
I've reached my wit's end?

I'm so close to the edge,
a grain of sand could push me over.
I don't know what to do,
or where to turn.

I'm stranded all alone,
with nothing but darkness around me.
I see a faint light in the distance,
but I can't move towards it.

The darkness is so deep,
and growing thicker still.
The light is getting dimmer,
as the darkness slowly starts
to take over my life.

69851  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-06-01
Written: (6555 days ago)

The Hurt

Why did this happen?
Why aren't we together?
Can this be true?

I thought we were true,
I thought you were the one.
I thought you were my one and
only Boo.

But when you said
those words, I knew
we were not meant to be;
i knew we were through.

You have hurt me in more
than one way; you have
hurt me more than anyone would
say or know.

So I am saying goodbye
for the last time and
hoped you would stay
but I figured out I am
better off if you must
GO!

THIS WAS WROT BYE JAY AND BIG-C AKA ME AND MY BRO AS A DEDICATION TO ALL THE BITCHS WHO HAVE HURT US THERE IS MORE TO COME YALL

69850  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-06-01
Written: (6555 days ago)

RAIN LET IT FLOOD LET A CRIP KILL A BLOOD LET IT RAIN LET IT DRIP KILL A SLOB CAUSE I CLAIM CRIP LET IT RAIN LET IT THUNDER BURY A SLOB 6 FEET UNDER WHEN I DIE SHOW NO PITTY BREING MY SOUL TO GANGSTA CITY 6 FLYIN 5 DYIN 6 POPPIN 5 DROPIN CANT STOP WONT STOP BK ALL DAY EVERYDAY TILL MY BLU CASKET DROPS THROW THE C'S UP AND THA B'S DOWN FUCK ALL SLOBS KILL EM WIT MY KNIFE BK ALL DAY EVERYDAY CRIP FOR LIFE
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67223  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-08
Written: (6578 days ago)
Next in thread: 67267

this is what my heart feels like


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66831  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-05-05
Written: (6581 days ago)
Next in thread: 68526


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65632  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-28
Written: (6589 days ago)
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65549  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-27
Written: (6589 days ago)

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65407  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-04-26
Written: (6590 days ago)
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i loved u shayla y did u hurt me like this u had another guy the whole fucking time didnt u i loved u shayla and u hurt me beyond the point of no return so ty for breaking my heart

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[U SAID U LOVED ME THEN U DID THIS Y DID U DO IT]
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[^^^^^WHAT SHE IS GONNA DRIVE ME TO DO]
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[pick wich one ill use]
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[MA FAV ITS ALREADY GOT BLOOD ON IT NOW CAN I PUT MA OWN ON IT]
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[OR MAYBE I SHOULD STICK MA BLADE THRO MA HEART]

65290  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-04-25
Written: (6592 days ago)

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To The Fallen Homies Homies of my Hood...I will carry ur Legacie on till i die homies!

I'll be here to defend ur names when all that pussie try to spit on ur memory...

I'll be the one to defend the Hood no matter wat the cost...

I'll be the last Homie standin in the Hood...

I'll be the one poruin the 40's out fo the HOmies we lost durin the strugle of the war...

I Promise My Life Is Decaited To The Hood And The Fallen Homies...

65143  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-04-24
Written: (6593 days ago)

i did u so wrong i never deserved sombody like you. But i want u and i cant have u it took me time but i realised ma love for u was true and had always been true it just took me time tyo realise it and by the time i realised it it was to late. I geuss its better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all but what happens when that love dosent die no matter how bad u want it too die it wont.

there is this girl

there is this girl i know that i love so much but she cant see it. If she could only see how much i love her then maybe she would realise how serious i am. Can u ever move on from a love like this. Dose a true love ever die? the awnser is no because true love never dies. but to have true love it has to be felt on both parts. i know what i feel is true but did u ever feel it? Did u ever think we would last or was it just one big trip? I know i was the reason for all are problems i am the reason ur not in ma life the reason ur not ma girl my baby anymore. ME I AM THE REASON FOR ALL THE PAIN FOR ALL THE HEART BREAK

P.S. ma love for u will never die because i dont care if its felt on both sides ma love for u is true.....

dedicated to some one very dear to ma heart


sory there is more to come

why must this be so hard y cant are love just die y do we keep faith that we might be us once agin when with all the shit we have done to each other all the pain we have caused each other.. If we did become us agin would it work could we trut one another i hope that i could trust u but would u try and trust me after what i did well here is what i have to say about that....... yes i know i was wrong in what i did i know u may never forgive me for what i did but cant u see i have changed i am not liek i was after all the pain of losing u it changed me for the better it made me wanna become what i was who i used to be before i was screwed over so many times before all the heart break in ma past but can u take ma word I AM NOT LIKE I WAS I AM A CHANGED MAN I AM GOING TO BE TRUE TO WHO I AM WITH AND I WANT U BUT CANT HAVE U "sits alone in the dark corner with ma poetry book and starts to write and cry at the same time"

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[THE ONE I LOVED AND LOST]
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[^^^^^WHAT SHE IS GONNA DRIVE ME TO DO]
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[pick wich one ill use]
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[MA FAV ITS ALREADY GOT BLOOD ON IT NOW CAN I PUT MA OWN ON IT]
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[OR MAYBE I SHOULD STICK MA BLADE THRO MA HEART]

65062  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-04-23
Written: (6593 days ago)

If you had me alone, locked up in your room for 24 hours, and I had to do whatever you wanted me to do, what would you do with me?

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