"Jess really just doesn't seem to care about anyone but herself right now. *sighs* She was asking me to stay tied to her to be her backup relationship, not seeing anyone just so I could be her plan-b. She's obviously messed up."

~Me to [Miya] when she asked me to tell her honestly if jess was still tied to her, after jess had told me that, and that she honestly didn't know if she'd even be staying with her. And wow, dejavu. Kat will most definitly agree with me on that.

I was tempted to write another few lines of my "drama whore" poem but I decided not to.

Well, it was a break from the boredom. Too bad flashbacks are the only thing that emotionally hurt me anymore. That was a Charley and the Chocolate Factory reference to those who haven't seen it.

Ah smoof.
First I miss kara having to leave cuz of dinner, and now I find out tonight is movie night, so I'll be forced to watch either Marx Bros or Disney T_x as if my bro and his girlfriend werent having me sit through enough, and that also means its unlikely I'll be left alone to do what I want namely on the gamecube and laptop. Ah smoof indeed.

T_T I tried leaving then coming back to get her to show up and it worked, but now it looks like she didn't wait around long enough to see me come back X.x Can't I ever win?

I just fell asleap for an hour x.x now I need breakfast and teh gawdess will probably come on now. If you stay on kara, I'll give you a... a waffle! o_O *huggles* also time to take my medication so hopefully I won't be too loopy.

Dah... I need to find something to keep me awake... I can feel myself going sleepy... x.x *sigh* just a dozen or so sets of 20 minutes left x_x

*Yaaaaaawn*

Merf... 'Tis 5 AM here, but I'm still up. Watching Case Closed makes me wish I did it more often. Anyhow, I'm also staying up to make sure I get to talk to teh gawdess since both of us are really getting ticked that we don't get to talk anymore. So if I go quiet and/or pass out randomly, thats why. Hopefully I'll come to in 3-6 hours x.o

damn, today just like yesterday is boring as heck. Its almost enough to make me appreciate the drama.

Yeah right :P

Is it just me or does everyone have a thorn in their ass when it comes to Kara? Why must you all hate her? I've had as much (if not more) reason as anyone else to be upset with her, but I'm not. Or maybe thats just because you're all sick of the two of us? Ahh, thats what it is.

We're the healers and fixers, but when everything's going fine for you, we get shoved to the side. Like I told Kara last night when she was ready to break from all the drama shot towards her:

  We're the ones who fix their hearts. They just keep breaking them the same way, again and again and again. Then they come to us and we fix their hearts breaking our own in the process. We heal their hearts with pieces of our own.

[12:20:51 AM] <WesFoxx> Why? cuz I want that target? ;) :P
[12:21:50 AM] <WesFoxx> i want kusu's bullzeye :P
[12:22:02 AM] <WesFoxx> arrow and all.
[12:22:10 AM] <WesFoxx> that tiny little arrow :0

But I do >> << >> :P

Ah, I love being the guy for teh laughter. I'm teh gawd of self-deprecating humor around here.

For example. A quote from school I'm still harangued about.

"Why would you want to let loose a bunch of animals in the school, while you were still stuck inside it? Especially when they're all, like, snakes and crap like that. How is it funny when you're suffering from your own prank? Its like... prank suicide or something."

Ah. good ol' prank suicide. Every single freakin' day I got someone from that stupid chemistry class making fun of me for wording things that way.

I think I shall compose a poem on our lives now, totally improvising.

Chaos, heartbreak, have some more
threaten suicide, drama whore.

I love you, you love me
and yet its never ment to be.

You love him, she loves her,
Crashing down in painful blur.

Kusu, Kara, Jess, Hayden
Andy, Mia, Wes, Kitten

Anna, Zero, Kori, Kodo
People come and people go

Every day another twist
Another backstab, another tryst.

We've lived our lives
Some lived by knives
Some lived a lie
Some smile, some cry.

And still...
We're all alive.

Kusu + Kara. Hell, heartbreak and high-water drama. Just lovely >< my two bestest friends, Zac aka puddles and Kara aka teh gawdess are both having their emotions tossed around with ragdoll physics >< damnit, if only I could help...

*sigh* Another revelation.

I don't really belong anymore. I'm just there, to the side, helping people. I'm not truly necisary. I'm just there to be the go-to guy.

The go-to guy is a lonely job. The only time you see people is when they have a problem. Which then becomes your problem as well.

All I can do is sit here, hoping and praying that one day

The go to guy

can have someone come to them...

Holy Shitake mushrooms, Batman!

I just realized how we can all be a bit happier. We just have to phone up a network, one who will whore out a persons soul for ratings and money. You know, Fox.

We all turn our lives into a reality tv show/soap opera. We're all stuck with as much drama, bullshit, lies and deception, but now we have cameras capturing every moment of it, and we make billions of dollars.

...Please dont hurt me x.x I'm just trying to help cheer us all up. You can take a joke, right? ^^;

... TO THE SHELTER! *hides in a snowbank*

Dah. Between the spiderbite thing, being put back to sleep for several hours due to Benedril which I took just in case the bite turned out to be that bad, to our ISP's server going wonky and keeping me offline for a few more hours, lotsa stuff has made today suck. Now to go on B.Net and see what chaos has gone down without this kitsune's guidance.

"hi av u got msn and a web cam"

[SpunkBucket] gets todays diary note award for being a looser!

*responds* AAAAH LOOSER!
(And no, not for you. ;\)

"y not 4 me"

*responds in heavy leet* (because i hate loosers who talk like this)

apparently he STILL doesnt get it.

"who talk like what?"

*responds* who r 2 lazy 2 type out words =X
Plus, you identified yourself as a looser when you just walked up to me asking for messenger and webcam.

Dah, everyones posting diary entries again x.o

Last night took a huge chunk outta me, kara and kusu. And...

STUPID SPIDER! x.x itching painfulness... dah... it took a little chunk outta me too x.x And I'm sooo tempted to try and cut off this stupid blister thing like my dad suggested.

Aaaand, Jess is being rather psyco about people so much as looking at via o.o;

>_< I woke up today with a freaking HUGE mark on my right forearm >< it feels like a nasty spider bite, but the mark is so swolen that it looks like a blister x_x myuu...