So I finally found the words I wanted to say to her...
I love her. I finally gathered my courage to tell her...
And I'm happy. I wish I could say certain things to her, instead of going back and forth, "should I, or should I not? what she going to say if i do this, or what is she thinking if i'm whatever??"
i worry too much. i know. i know... *hits head* it's in my nature.