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hi how are you??? :)
hmm right well my week i tryed to go on elftown and then to find out that none of my usernames would work, just to find out...some one had changed it to the evil fairy! which is what my sister had previously done as a joke and changed my page and what not!! but....wait theres more!!
the fuker changed my password so i have tried every thing to find out what it is and so i decided to go on find my pass word thingy! so i did that put in the username and all and THEN to find out that the fucker had deleted my email address....URG
THE STUPID FUCKING HACKER!!!!
hmmmm yes and now i have to fucking make up a new account!!! SOME ONE KILL ME AND THE HACKER!!!! ARGH!!
well i thought abut writing in my diary today!! ok here go's...
well for the past week i have had this person on elftown constantly arguing of saying how 'un irginal' i am...well guess what no one is original...whe
ok...if some one writes down a new user name that happens to be the same 2 words that you had written down in a diary 5 months ago, that doesnt that they are coping you and plus the person is FUCKING 20 you would at least think that they would be some what more mature and she fucking started it and wont go off, i mean who gives a fuck..i sure as hell dont, hey i say hello she says hello OMG! she is coping me... see its like that...STUPID in so many ways. it is very very possible for 2 people who live on different sides of the planet to come up with the same 2 words and put em together!! arghhhhhhh fucking wanker bullshit gunty fucker hairy ball sack...gross
right!
more diary speech from the happy and lovely smiley...
ok today i decide hmmm i havent been out in the sun for some time so i think i might go out with my friends and wet each other with the hose considering it 40 degrees fucking HOTT!!! soo i go out play in the sun like in a non fatel way and guess what i got out, (not ,the nice refreashingnes
hahahaha soo that was my past week and it was today when i got sunburned!! fucking sun, ohhhh how i hate it
SMASHING PUMPKINS LYRICS
"The Everlasting Gaze"
You know I'm not dead
Now you know where I've been
As you sleep
Torn I am
Weighted down
Patiently
Born of love
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And thru it all
Into us all you move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough
You know I'm not dead
Found below
The creatures scream
Stranglehold
A god machine
Begging to
Tear us out
Worn as hope
You know I'm not dead I'm just the tears inside your head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And thru it all into us all you move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough
You know I'm not dead
We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze
Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway
But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every c.o.g.
The fickle fascination of an everlasting god
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
Forever waiting on cruel death
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living for myself
Forever waiting
You know I'm not dead
SMASHING PUMPKINS LYRICS
"Zero"
My reflection, dirty mirror
There's no connection to myself
I'm your lover, I'm your zero
I'm the face in your dreams of glass
So save your prayers
For when we're really gonna need'em
Throw out your cares and fly
Wanna go for a ride?
She's the one for me
She's all I really need
Cause she's the one for me
Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting more
She's the one for me
She's all I really need
She's the one for me
She's my one and only
Hell Lyrics
Artist: Squirrel Nut Zippers
Album: Hot
In the afterlife
You could be headed for the serious strife
Now you make the scene all day
But tomorrow there'll be Hell to pay
People listen attentively
I mean about future calamity
I used to think the idea was obsolete
Until I heard the old man stamping his feet.
This is a place where eternally
Fire is applied to the body
Teeth are extruded and bones are ground
Then baked into cakes which are passed around.
Beauty, talent, fame, money, refinement
Top skill and brain
But all the things you try to hide
Will be revealed on the other side.
Now the D and the A and the M
and the N and the A
And the T and the I-O-N
Lose your face, lose your name
Then get fitted for a suit of flame
i just love this song soo much!!
She's blood, flesh and bone
No tucks or silicone
She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound
But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen
'Cause she's so high
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high, high above me
First class a fancy free
She's high society
She's got the best of everything
What could a guy like me ever really offer?
She's perfect as she can be, why should I even bother?
(Chorus)
She calls to speak to me
I freeze immediately
'Cause what she says sounds so unreal
'Cause somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen
(Chorus)
this is for my mother
Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you love things just because
Like the sick and dying
And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them
Played with Kaylee, the sun came out
and I walked on my feet, heard with
my ears...
I hate the bits, the bits that stay
down and I work, I function like I'm
a girl. I hate it because I know
it'll go away, the sun goes dark and
chaos is come again. Bits. Fluids.