[plethora of dreams]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2007-01-19
Written: (6279 days ago)

Sometimes I feel that you are laughing at me
Sometimes I fear you laugh sadly
Is every breath you draw for me?
Master or slave, which would you be?

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Written about Friday 2007-01-19
Written: (6279 days ago)

I think the time is coming...that I shall slowly detach myself from the internet. I don't know that I belong here anymore, or that I'm even wanted. Now if only I could find the courage...

91971  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-01-09
Written: (6288 days ago)

Don't ask of me
What you do not know
Don't ask of me
So unaware
To reveal my secrets
one by one
til you're finished and
I've come undone
Don't ask of me
and well beware
You don't know my darkness
Or what's hidden there

91970  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-01-09
Written: (6288 days ago)

I'll never meet my match, a mirror to mirror reflection.
My heart is there but it beats so slow it gives off no detection.
Fine, then dig in your hands as deep as you please
But don't blame me when you finally learn that I'm naught but dust upon the breeze

49141  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6656 days ago)

Alice Cooper
This House Is Haunted


I was sitting in my room, dark and gray and crying
Someone in my life I fear was at the point of dying
A cold wind blew right up my spine, it was the break of dawn
A little voice went deep inside told me she was gone

Oh...This house is haunted
Oh...That's how I want it to be
Oh...This house is haunted
You can always stay here with me...

No more singing, no more laughing, no more sunny days
She left and took the colors with her, buried in her grave
This is where we climbed the tower, this is where she fell
Then when her young heart stopped beating, I went to hell

Oh...This house is haunted
Oh...Ha....
Oh...This house is haunted
Ho...Oh...

You float through the living room, I watch my TV
I feel you sit down on the couch right here next to me
Then I feel your lips touch mine just like we used to do
I'm so happy all alone being here with you...



49140  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6656 days ago)

I love my family. One day me and my younger brother and sisters were sitting around just giggling about how the bubbles woul pop on the sofa and how pretty they looked in the sunlight, like glittering explosions and for some reason we all found it funny when my dad walks in, sees us, shakes his head smiling and heads to his room. My sister follows him and comes back saying "Daddy says we're all fat special children." And I automatically say "No, we're especially fat children" and we all laugh at that. Then I go into his room and he's about to leave and I say "Where you going" and he says "I'm running away from you guys" and so I say "Fine, but we're coming with you." and then we laughed at that. The afternoon proceeded like that all through getting into the car (we had to go around to get Jenna) the car dealership, and then me getting two teeth pulled out. A family that can keep you laughing through all that is surely worth something, no?

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Written about Wednesday 2005-12-14
Written: (6680 days ago)

"Dance, Dance"

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse
Barely stuttered out
"A joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue
Weighed down with words too over-dramatic
Tonight it's "it can't get much worse"
Vs. "no one should ever feel like.."

I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I'll write them
So you need them just to get by

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me

You always fold just before you're found out
Drink up its last call
Last resort
But only the first mistake and I...

I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I'll write them
So you need them just to get by

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine
You've been saving for his mattress, love

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine
You've been saving for his mattress (mattress, mattress)
I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)
Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)
Dance this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me

Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance

42791  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-11-19
Written: (6704 days ago)

With the venemous kiss you gave me I'm killing loneliness

Napolean XIV they're coming to take me away haha
http://www.gaiaonline.com/gaia/redirect.php?r=http://blogfiles.wfmu.org%2FKF%2F0509%2Fnap%2F01_-_Napoleon_XIV_-_Theyre_coming_to_take_me_away_ha-haaa.mp3

41109  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-11-05
Written: (6718 days ago)

Your Master is everything, he is your life, your dream, what you need and want. You obey him, and ONLY him, unless told otherwise. When you are spoken to, look to your Master, when questioned, look to your Master, when addressed in any way, verbal or otherwise, look to your Master. When going into public with your Master, keep your eyes on him at all times, noone is more important than your Master, not even yourself. Never resist your Master, or immediate punishment will ensue. Never protest or question your Master, trust that he will take care of you. He knows best.


A slave does not think. A slave lives only to please her master, should he be displeased in any way he has the right to dispose of her. A slave should only be seen if her Master wishes her for that purpose. A slave should never speak, unless commanded to by her Master. She shall not complain, and will appreciate how well her Master takes care of her. The actions of the slave reflect upon the Master, and so punishment for any embarassments a slave may have caused her Master is appropriate.


A slave is made when a powerful vampire, werewolf, or witch gains possession of a mortal, shape shifter, elf, or low level vampire, witch, or werewolf. They must be defeated first in combat, and kept free of as much permanent damage as possible, otherwise value decreases. Creatures within high power of their society are forbidden, human or otherwise, go against this rule and you will have the Clans after you.


Trainers are for those who can't quite manage their slaves. If a master has an unruly slave he can send her to a trainer for a fee, decided by the trainer. Trainers are mind readers and also skilled in the arts of torture. Pay will be deducted for any permanent mental or physical damage caused while under the Trainer's care. When a slave is with a Trainer then the Trainer is her new master. She is to obey all his commands once her contract of enthrallment has been drawn and signed by her Master. Not much is known about their techniques, but they are known to be effective and quick.


Now that you have read these descriptions, welcome to Thorn Heart Manor, where the ties of ownership are lost in our knots of thorns...do as you will, but beware, we are not liable for your safety. Take what you can handle, and leave it at that.


37173  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-09-27
Written: (6757 days ago)

im tired but im sick of sleeping, if i go to bed ill hurt instead of the way i do while thinking so if you give me one pill i ask for 69 more, cause thats what it takes for the kind of rest im looking for

34766  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-08-31
Written: (6785 days ago)

"ohana means family, and family means nobody gets left behind but if you want, you can go. i'll remember you though, i remember everyone that leaves."

"god made all of us, and he doesnt make mistakes."
from the movie door to door

33707  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-20
Written: (6795 days ago)

shadows flitting screening covering im found lost and scared and often in tears and thats when the doors banged wide open leaving me in pure destruction momentary pleasure ceases ever lasting lover pieces keeping me from faint reality keeping me in dim cordiality bury me just one foot deeper write me a kerchief keeper and shed it gently that shimmering tear above my grave cause ill wait for you here

33704  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-20
Written: (6795 days ago)

if i died right here right now could you bury me please
would you bury me please
if i got lost and found my way back somehow
still bury me please
i need to be buried...

33020  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-08-13
Written: (6802 days ago)
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Written about Wednesday 2005-08-03
Written: (6813 days ago)

recall that long lost memory
hold to heart that lesson you forgot
remember with me, my dearest reminiscence
and ill keep you breathing my little lying harlot

28239  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-07-12
Written: (6834 days ago)
28235  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-07-12
Written: (6834 days ago)

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

(Chorus)
We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
I've been here so long I think that its time to move
        -rise against

28108  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-07-11
Written: (6835 days ago)

lol someone put up a challenge, i answered!

death by the friendly clone

i called an old friend
who was really quite young
new built, but still an old model
i called up the newspeople
and said i had a story
something they all could ogle
so i stepped to the podium
pulled off the sheet
and revealed a very large head
that exclaimed aloud
that in five seconds
i would be very much dead
no i didnt panic
no nor did i stall
i calmly took my ground
and said please my dear audience
forgive me this prank
and my lookalike friend shot me down

28094  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-07-11
Written: (6835 days ago)

Self Pity Whore

oh what the heart would do just for refuse
from the jaded and violent world
where demands are made so sick so twisted
that even purity is curled

with eyes of fear she gazes upwards
hoping for some soft savior
but all that comes is the harshest whip
brought down for her bad behavior

her lover holds an encrusted knife
so craving for her blood
he'll make her crawl the deepest trench
and rape her in the mud

but still she mews for his pleasure
soaking in his satisfaction
this primal whore of long years past
deserves no helpful action 

27523  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-07-08
Written: (6838 days ago)

theres a someone waiting
in the shadows of an empty hall
her heart thuds slowly, just barely alive
she made a mistake again
someone come and save me please
you know who you are, someone
im missing you already, and its been but minutes
im worried, and sick, and sick again
please let there be good reason for this
why? friendship should have been enough
wasnt it you that i warned?
keep your reaches for love far away
and ill keep my ashes in this jar

27519  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-07-08
Written: (6838 days ago)

Romance of the Savage Beast

im so tired of holding you...this close
i just want to let you go, you know
can you hear it in my voice
my desperation calls for you
can you hear it in my voice
the deed that i want to do
can not do....no no

she speaks a lonely cry
moving through the black white
each time you hear her sigh
notice how she calms the night

somewhere in the darkest room
hes there killing her
a puppetmaster for her doom
she knows hes hiding over there...

he keeps her in a cage
locked up for his disposal
dressed up my dolly rage
all set for his proposal

chained up to their bed
the prisoner of his love nest
shes in over her head
and her bodys crying out for some rest

when will this torture end
i need to get over this now
thats too far for my heart to bend
i hope i'll be able to break free somehow

and now as i stare at you....once more
i feel my heart begin to break away, again
but theres nothing for you but my soul
empty and i know you want it still
but theres nothing for you but my soul
the rest of me you had to go and kill
you never really got your fill...no no

so now this fairy tale should end
and though she knew shed suffer for sure
she went back to him again
his pleasure was just too god damn pure 

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