It's ok I know what you mean THANKS a lot for listening.
TTYL
BBye
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From: __Mr.A__
Date: Jul 12, 2006 8:21 PM
Hey, yeah i sorta saw that tonight and i didnt know how to addrress it. I'm sorry if I helped in any part of the her not talking to you thing. But yeah, she knows I'm here for her and that i care about her so much. But yeah, don't worry about it next time, know that u can talk to me. Laterrs
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From: xXEvil_DuckyXx
Date: Jul 12, 2006 10:14 PM
Um ok sorry if you don't understand what I say but I'm sorta confused on how to say it.
Um Ever since Autumn has been bf gf with you. She won't listen. You guys talk and then when I try to talk to her, she'll listen for about 5 seconds then turn to you and start talking with you again.
(oh and I'm not trying to pull you guys apart or anything)
Anyways, when I do get to talk to her when you're not around, I understand her having problems, but she keeps going on about it, I can't help her, I really want to but I can't, and when she's not talking about problems and Dying and stuff like that, She talks about you and never stops.
I tell her that if she wants someone to talk to that she should talk to you because that's hat bf's and gf's are for. Right??? But she complains about that she never sees you. I tell her to call you but she said she can't and for me not to ask why.
All of this I don't want you to tell her I said this, but all I ask of you is if you talk to her, tell her you're always there and if she wants to talk to just messege you on here or where ever else. You know??? First comes family, then comes the ones their in love with, last comes friends.
Since she can't go to her family she has to go to you.
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From: __Mr.A__
Date: Jul 12, 2006 8:05 PM
Yeah, u can talk to me
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From: xXEvil_DuckyXx
Date: Jul 12, 2006 10:03 PM
I need to talk to you about something about Autumn
it's nothing bad about her it's just she sorta changed.
I want to know if I can talk to you about it without telling her
Eyes of hatred,
Staring at you from behind the darkness.
People with minds alike,
Minds like the Devil.
Events that happen over and over,
Just to be meant as jokes.
Using my weaknesses against me,
Just to hurt me and make me cry.
A pain that throbs inside,
Impatiently waiting to be let out.
In my room,
I light the candles and the incense,
Turn the lights off and close the shutters,
Play soft music and sit with a bowl and razor.
Slowly inhaling the scented fumes,
Listening to the soft music,
Thinking of what is not to live for,
Cutting and slowly letting the pain out.
Letting the blood flow and turn into drips,
Letting it drip into the bowl,
Watching the flames dance,
And drifting into a long sleep,
Never to be awaken.
Beautiful
How can I show you
that you are beautiful
when you always look the other way
Finding imperfections
with every living breath
feeding yourself deceit
every night as you lie in bed
How can I show you
that you are beautiful
when you see only flaws in the diamond
and not the sparkle that it holds
You judge yourself with consequence
tearing down what nature built
and turning it into darkness cold
How can I show you
that you are beautiful
when you don't look into the mirror
save with tear-streaked eyes
How can you see yourself as I do
when you're peering through a looking glass
warped by doubt and loathing
brewed within your mind
How can I show you
that you are beautiful
when your beauty is just too much
and leaves me lost for words
choking on every thought
while trying to explain something so clear
that it is written all over your face
How can I show you
that you're beautiful
when the world is not enough
and a million voices
fail to change your song
unable to silence
the doubt that beats away
No I can't show you
that you're beautiful
No matter how hard I try
But I'll whisper it to you every night
as you drift off to sleep
and hope that one morning
you'll wake up with eyes wide open
and see yourself as I do
A perfect diamond
A stunning reflection
and a ray of sun
piercing my own darkness
taking the clouds away
This really happened
If you can understnd
(Bloody Tears)
A night alone,
As I walk the streets.
Wondering, About . . .Him
A friend for a day,
And I start to feel for him.
His eyes, so deep and black.
His lips, so soft against mine.
His soul, with me when he's not here.
A tear down my face that
He would happily wipe away,
And tell me that's it's going to be alright.
I love him . . .But does he love me???
No. He does not.
Eleven months of happiness
Almost A Year
Falls to the ground, month by month.
May, June, July, August, September, October, November, December, January, February, all the way to march 21st.
When he said he was in love with another.
Night by night from now on,
In my dreams I will be drowned by the tears he made me cry.
And I will cry so long and hard that I will make it possible to cry tears of blood.
Cry tears of blood for the rest of my life and remember that he was the one that made it possible.
I'm really starting to get sick
a lot of things have happened
I have no more friends at school but I have a lot more enemies
I'm not eating enough and I've lost 23 pounds
My grandma and uncle died and everyone thinks I'm a suck-up for attention and that i don't deserve anything and that I'm a waist of air
and everytime I try to talk to someone about it
they end up saying that I made all this up and that I AM a suck-up for attention
and now things is just getting worse and wosre by the day
*KISSES TO MY BITCHES
HUGS TO MY THUGS*
and if you are not one of my bitches or one of my thugs then
*HUGS AND KISSES TO EVERYONE LEFT OVER*
[If you REALLY LIKE SOMEONE right now AND MISS THEM and can't get them out of your head then re-post this within 1 mintute and whoever you are missing will surprise you.]
uh GRRRRRR
i'm bored
well actually i'm high
but that doesn't matter