ok what to say what to say... well i went to bed at about 5 in the morning... and i got up about 3. we were suppose to go to this park thingy... but that got cancled i guess no one talks to me so whatever. i dont know. sometimes i feel like i cant tell people what i really thing because they expect me to think something else. and i dont want to let their thinking go to hell. and with this diary i dont feel like i can say all i want to. i cant just write whats in my head. id ont know if its just the fact that this is so public but then again i could just make it not public anymore. but also i dont feel like being smart and acctualy explaining things like i usualy do when im having a convorastion with someone. its weird
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well today i found out that one of my best friends and her boyfriend broke up... im suppose to be going out to a party or something iwth her but i dont know. you gotta know her to know what may or maynot happen. but the weirdest thing is that her x is calling me to just talk and shit like that. i mean i dont hate him but i never really consitered him a friend or anything. i dont know. things are just kinda weird right now. im talking to him right now. he said earlyer that its so weird being alone so he asked me if i mind that he called me. i was like i really dont care if he does. i mean i dont. hes got alot of party connections and other things like pot and shit like that but i dont know. things are weird. hummmmm ill write what happens tonight.
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As usual... i cant sleep. but dont worry about me thats nothing different. just get to stay up and annoyingly not talk to anyone important but myself. im watching daria. mels playing on the other computer. we havent said a word to eachother in about a hr. and when we did talk before the hr i asked her if she wanted to watch a movie with me. she said she would watch some with me but she never did. mel just went to bed and she didnt say a word to me. i dont know some things are more important to me then other people. i think i may read into things more then other people. but maybe its just that im a girl. do all girls think like i do??? i dont know.
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well its my first time having a house. i like it. i think this site will be my number one site from now on. well im gunna go now
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