feel stupid for what i did sunday night.don't want to dod it agine.i felt sick the next day.didn't call krystin for like 3 days.she siad she talk to me that night but i know i must of blacked out cuz i only rember saying i was gonna go to bed and that what i did i went to bed.can't remember talking to her it kinda scary in a fucked up way.o.d is not cool:( man what relly fucking wierd is krystin didn'd even sound mad.when i called she was like oh waz up.i was like ummm nothing i thought she might of been mad.it was wierd.she sounded all normal.i kinda believe her that she talked to me but not relly.she siad cuz your mom waz drinking.i was just thinking and i notice how she know my mom was drinking she was oh i talked to u last night.i was what??mybe she herd my mom drinking or either my mom sounded diffent on the phone.i don't know.lol
i talked to ex and ended up fighting.(arguing)she shouldn't of start telling me shit and i wouldn't of got mad.i don't feel bad doe.it seems like the only time i rellly like relly feel bad is when i get into fights with krystin.crazy, yeah. ummm.nothing else to say that i want to say right now
feel guilty
got a singul silver bullet shot right throw my heart, to prove i can't live with out u.at least u have my heart.
plan didn't work out i guess.i didn't die
god i'm relly sorry for what i done and going to do.sorry forgive me plz.good bye the world
ummm nothing to say
allways will stay in my heart no matter what i say and what i do,can't change the way i feel for nothing.doesen
too much to say to even start with my problems and how i feel and what going on and enything eles.too confused with everything.it just life
man i argue alot with this girl.she drives me nuts in the good and bad way
lost agine
hate ?
i need ansers god
who relly cares in the world as much as i care
all i got is me and thats all i need
why life so hard
if the person truley cared and loved me how much they say why would they cheat?
why so many times?
why olny after a couple of beers?
the question is why
i been cheated on so many times it sucks
what is me is who i am
what i been is who i become
what i saw hates what see
the new me hates the old me
2 sides of me
does cutting yourself feel good and does watching your blood run out of your vians on to the floor feel good?
does it?does seeing your life pass befor your eyes give you something to live for or something to die for?