well it relfextion time.well this time i relly did think it was going to be better.thats life for me.now dammit i have to wrindevery thing back to normal with my family and on goers.lol,dam how csn i be so stupid over and over,should of gave up long time ago.would of made my life easier.i thought she wanted this to work out doe.end of chapter and new book now

well i'm still with kelly,i havent tslk to het for like a week.i wonder if she knows what going on.she won't give me shit doe,she to scart that i'll leave.i'm sorry kelly for screwing u over i relly am.love between me and u are just not what i intended to be.u nice but i have to say i can't see years of us being together.i'm trying to make things better with krystin.i know she can be better.if not i guess thats life 4 u.krystin my friend,lover and the only person i want to be with.yeah she not the best person in this world but i don't care about her rep,money,mistakes,nesgetives or positves,all care about is her and i want her to be a better person.i love her and thats all that counts.u hoyts are cool as friends but friens and relationships don't match up.

i'm in ffa,,speech soi,drama,NHS,ffa,i give speechs for every one of them.i rock.i been packed with trips.there so fun.
life,i been going out with kelly for 3 1/2 weeks.we get along good.yeah she not the best looking but now when i come around she more lets say dressed up.we don't get to see each othere every day but we talk on the phone at nights and hand on weekends and enytime i'm in CB.i cheated on her 3x's with cole,krystin and john and i feel so bad.i know it wasnt worth it.i used to love kelly back in the day.not deep but know i'm fillaily gettin them back.john is this cool guy i'm also going out with,he not rocker,but he all into that stupid gangtershit.he was rised up in dacoma,WA.it my friend summers brother.he relly cool.he asked me out like 2 weeked ago.we kick while i'm in browning.hes relly nice.i'm not looking to go enywhere with him.lol.yeah 

bye

i'm sick and it relly sucks,i feel like shit.at least its not bad as missing krystin

your lying in ur own blood and no on can't lift you except your self.u dug ur self a hole so deep that there no way to get out.i thought of u higher.i thought of u as perfect but now i know ur way beyond dead.nothing can't help u know.i can't let go but to go on i have to.i see u go down kills me inside.to leave u dead kills me even more inside.to not have eny power with words.to show so deep of love and to walk away is wierd.

i'll move on krystin,just give me some time

i'm finally moved on,poor krystin doesent know how she fucking up her life.can't change eny one i guess.too bad.i got other people in mind.gurls,guys doesnt matter relly.i got my back ups.my family is going good and friends are fun.hang all day with friends and with options open.yeah it better this way.

board,broke up with ? agine,never get old does it.fuck what to do?what to do?should i just say fuck it or what?i need help

relly sick still off of soboxons.i didn't even want to take the sick things.ewww i can puke right now.it been hours scin i took it and still feel sick

i feel relly bad:(
i hate to see tears on her face.its my fault.what kind of person would do that?me thats who.i love her so much.i wish somehow all her past would diaper from my head.in the first place it shouldn't eevn bug me.i think im way more joulouse then her.i just don't adimte to it or say enything.i hate being this way.when i say sorry it seems like it not good enough.ummm wonder what is better then sorry.man i'm abad person.im mean to her.i don't want to be mean because mybe one day she might just get tiers of my shit and leave me.i don't want her to leave me.i want her forever and ever.i never want to cheat on her agine.
i need to be nicer.like relly nice like super nice.give her love so wickedly good.do sweet things.make her smile and make this relationship happy.yep i'm gonna do that

man i failing anotamy and phicology and we won't let me play,so i work hard today to play aginst cutbank and go to french town tourny.every team u can think of in montana is there except class AA.but A,B,C.now krystin saying i'm gonna go back when my day nis packed with grades,paking,and softball cuz my mom post to come to my game and all she gets to do is see me on the bech.no other gurl can catch either.my team needs me.i wish she can understand.she is my number 1 but i can't blow off everything like my life just to spend a day.we got our whole life

am i just a fool or what?am i?i love this gurl so fucking much.the word love cany explian it.it means way more.i can go on and on about this gurl.but i gave up my mom,my family my trust,my everything for her.is it worth my mom.probily.mybe.my mom can't stop us doe.i love krystin way to much.she gonna just have to accept it

well last night i got beat agine.it hurted so bad.it ent like it gonna change me.she can beat me everyday i'm still not gonna let krystin go.i love that gurl so fucking much.she is so sexy.i want to merry that gurl one day.my mom can trip all she wants but she ent gonna ever stop me from what i'm doing.i never want us to end

i'm so high on my pills right now.feels wierd.i like it but i gotta go to practice and i'm gonna be all chilled.

well today is a better day then yesterday i almost commited sueisiade.everything went down.it was all fucked up.lucky i have friends to cheer me up.i didn't go to school

there this crazy rocker here,wierd but cool,his gurl friens a fresh men and he keeps hitting on me.he cool as a friend but it be wierd to have him as boy friend.lol.vary sweet.not for me doe.i forgot his name.that sad.hottest person at momment is probly bobie,cheyann y,r,c,mandy,coy, and thats all

ummm nothing to say nothing matters

ummm mom found out about me and probly in troulble,hope krystin don't say it over.i love her and it gonna relly coast us on talking

ummm good and bad,me and my cousent are fighting agine,fuck he pisses me off.we rarly ever fight but we never fought like this.we never relly was mad at each other.this sucks.fuck he acts like he knows everything and to go behind my back,with out asking me and doing shit pisses me off.it could cause trouble between not just between me and him but other people too.he stupid.he stupid cuase he a follower too.follows his freinds and now he all fucked up in school.he thinks he cool.dumb ass fuck head.stupid,stupid ,stupid.

well i got help and it relly helping

i never felt that normal feeling in along time.it been a while.like 3 months stright.i was breaking me apart.now thatn i feel normal it feel like i'm fucking high

high on life i guess but it feels good

well my horscope siad my life will get better on the 29 and yester day everything in my life felt better and me and krystin back togther so its all good