your lying in ur own blood and no on can't lift you except your self.u dug ur self a hole so deep that there no way to get out.i thought of u higher.i thought of u as perfect but now i know ur way beyond dead.nothing can't help u know.i can't let go but to go on i have to.i see u go down kills me inside.to leave u dead kills me even more inside.to not have eny power with words.to show so deep of love and to walk away is wierd.

i'll move on krystin,just give me some time

i'm finally moved on,poor krystin doesent know how she fucking up her life.can't change eny one i guess.too bad.i got other people in mind.gurls,guys doesnt matter relly.i got my back ups.my family is going good and friends are fun.hang all day with friends and with options open.yeah it better this way.

board,broke up with ? agine,never get old does it.fuck what to do?what to do?should i just say fuck it or what?i need help

relly sick still off of soboxons.i didn't even want to take the sick things.ewww i can puke right now.it been hours scin i took it and still feel sick

i feel relly bad:(
i hate to see tears on her face.its my fault.what kind of person would do that?me thats who.i love her so much.i wish somehow all her past would diaper from my head.in the first place it shouldn't eevn bug me.i think im way more joulouse then her.i just don't adimte to it or say enything.i hate being this way.when i say sorry it seems like it not good enough.ummm wonder what is better then sorry.man i'm abad person.im mean to her.i don't want to be mean because mybe one day she might just get tiers of my shit and leave me.i don't want her to leave me.i want her forever and ever.i never want to cheat on her agine.
i need to be nicer.like relly nice like super nice.give her love so wickedly good.do sweet things.make her smile and make this relationship happy.yep i'm gonna do that

man i failing anotamy and phicology and we won't let me play,so i work hard today to play aginst cutbank and go to french town tourny.every team u can think of in montana is there except class AA.but A,B,C.now krystin saying i'm gonna go back when my day nis packed with grades,paking,and softball cuz my mom post to come to my game and all she gets to do is see me on the bech.no other gurl can catch either.my team needs me.i wish she can understand.she is my number 1 but i can't blow off everything like my life just to spend a day.we got our whole life

am i just a fool or what?am i?i love this gurl so fucking much.the word love cany explian it.it means way more.i can go on and on about this gurl.but i gave up my mom,my family my trust,my everything for her.is it worth my mom.probily.mybe.my mom can't stop us doe.i love krystin way to much.she gonna just have to accept it

well last night i got beat agine.it hurted so bad.it ent like it gonna change me.she can beat me everyday i'm still not gonna let krystin go.i love that gurl so fucking much.she is so sexy.i want to merry that gurl one day.my mom can trip all she wants but she ent gonna ever stop me from what i'm doing.i never want us to end

i'm so high on my pills right now.feels wierd.i like it but i gotta go to practice and i'm gonna be all chilled.

well today is a better day then yesterday i almost commited sueisiade.everything went down.it was all fucked up.lucky i have friends to cheer me up.i didn't go to school

there this crazy rocker here,wierd but cool,his gurl friens a fresh men and he keeps hitting on me.he cool as a friend but it be wierd to have him as boy friend.lol.vary sweet.not for me doe.i forgot his name.that sad.hottest person at momment is probly bobie,cheyann y,r,c,mandy,coy, and thats all

ummm nothing to say nothing matters

ummm mom found out about me and probly in troulble,hope krystin don't say it over.i love her and it gonna relly coast us on talking

ummm good and bad,me and my cousent are fighting agine,fuck he pisses me off.we rarly ever fight but we never fought like this.we never relly was mad at each other.this sucks.fuck he acts like he knows everything and to go behind my back,with out asking me and doing shit pisses me off.it could cause trouble between not just between me and him but other people too.he stupid.he stupid cuase he a follower too.follows his freinds and now he all fucked up in school.he thinks he cool.dumb ass fuck head.stupid,stupid ,stupid.

well i got help and it relly helping

i never felt that normal feeling in along time.it been a while.like 3 months stright.i was breaking me apart.now thatn i feel normal it feel like i'm fucking high

high on life i guess but it feels good

well my horscope siad my life will get better on the 29 and yester day everything in my life felt better and me and krystin back togther so its all good

ex's are some lil hoes and bitchs.there cool at heart the people i once knew but seems like there diffent,like they lost all morale of life.i know i didn't go out with them for who they are now.i like the older person inside them.they got nothing i see that is cool.wonder what got into them or is it just me.have i changed.is it me to blam.is it me to wonder.is it me to say how things like myself will devolope.i chose my own paths but they just wondered off into the woods.i'll try to see whats up.i can see something.only my soul can see what changed.i can see just by looking twice.if nothing wronge w/them then its me who change.have my heart turned to something else.has it transformed to a diffent person.

well i had a lond relaxed weekend.great weekend!!!had some troble w/some peopl in cutbank.it was a lil diffacult.i'll get over it soon enough.it be hard but i did it once befor.ent like it was that hard.mybe at first.i know if i did it with the person i'm with right now it be way way more harder.i guess shit happens.i did it in friendly way.how hard and why does it hurt.it only lil pitty shit doe.no biggy.i'll servive.i don't need that kind of shit enyways.its all good.

wierd,somthing taking me over

well to day finalls but i couldn't relly care less because ent goning on my transscript.thats why i'm on ep right now

fuck she mad at me agine,fuck,fuck.she has no reason to be mad.i didn't do enything.went and checked her out at her house while her family was there.we didn't do nothing but chill.i headed out after her mom got home.fuck we didn't do shit.yeah i know she called me up for what she wanted but i keep it on the down low with her.i didn't cheat on that gurl.yeah,i sruged away.yeah i avoided everthing that had to do with me and her.man i wouldn't mess around that gurl enymore,my cousent and ex and my homeboy had her after i did.she just gross now.she to nasty.i wouldn't fuck with her.man my gurl has no reason to be mad i was just being honest.she told me that justina did shit so i told her that i went to check out an old friend.man i wouldn't fuck with that slut.by the way i wasn't in the mood so i headed out on her.i just felt guilty so i told my gurl. i need to if not then i would of felt guilty.i just wish my gurl wouldn't get mad.i love her to much to cheat on her.i would go crazy with out her.i miss all the time even as i right this entry.i gwet to talk to her tonight.if i could give her the world then i would