i hate meyself. i am not as i should be. jess wants to break up untill i bring my grades up so that i can talk with her everyday. why am i so stupid? why cant i bring my grades up? i have to. i will.

I have NEVER felt so sad....so ANGRY....I'm so angry I could just....I want to do something, I HAVE...to do something...I can't let this go on. I won't let it...I will do something even if it kills me...

i love you jess with all my heart and being, i will never betray you never lie to you never make you feel bad. i will forever be there to help you or hold you when ever you need me. just please dont leave me. i love you and i forever will

me:im sad
friends:why?
me:cause the girl i love lives away from me
friends:so
me:so what?
friend:love know no distance
me:thanks
friend:anytime

I am one and the other is me,
I am forever twice in the same place



If what we can't see doesn't exist,
what if somethign can't see us? do we still exist?

this is a journal NOT a diary. just makeing sure you know that

i'm such a dork. i have to know everything. it pisses me off sometimes, but i guess thats the way i am. mister "i have to know McDumbass" *sigh*


P.S.(this is not a diary)

by the way this is a journal...not a diary

i like her but does she like me? does she hate me? could she care less? i have to know. i already asked but...i dont know...*sigh* im hopeless

ok also i want to establish the fact that this is a journal and not a diary. good glad to get that cleared up

kool. im going to start a diary now. but since im a guy i am going to be very pissy if you call it a diary...its a JOURNAL. J-O-U-R-N-A-L JOURNAL not a diary