to the world... here i stand
no i am not the one of the type to live by subculture
would it make the difference?
no, i am not the worshpper of your christ but is it wrong for what i did
i know i'll never live it down but beleive me
i know it wasnt wrong
you can call me weak and unstable
probably thats why i did it
my responcibility... i recognize that
but i did the responcible thing so dont hate me
my choice
my choice
no its not yours
if you cant handle it
if you have no ambition
if you think i lack moral
well i cant change you... but you cant change me
so i am your equal
dont deny it
i couldnt give a shit
i am immature
probably thats another reason
and no i'm not prepared... thats why i did it
i dont promote murder... but i promote choice
so its my priority
and if you know me... please i am a wreck
and i'm tired and fed up
you know i could have done better if i knew how
and please dont hate me
i promise i will be better the next time even if i'm not ready if thats what you want
but thats it
what do you want?

to my darling Stepan
though you will never be able to read this
though i'll never be able to see
hear you
feel you
love you
i dont know, but i do
i love you with all my heart, as much as [ally_cat1] and [Death2nat]. we love you
and i am lost because it is you who i can never see again
and yet i am the proudest girl for knowing you, the very few men in this world
yes
stepan is a man, 17 years old but man enough
and i love you
forever and for always
and i bid you farewell