i don't know how i am anymore. it might be for the best, after what if heard. last week i scared my teachers. now they're planning of taking me off 60% of all my lessons, meaning i've only got 3 subjects left. i don't mind, but i'm a bit afraid it won't happen after all. and i'm much of a mess inside too, they tell me. i don't know. i'm not there. this morning i dreamt i was to marry Thomas (an ex, and the biggest jerk i've ever met), and i almost agreed, because of the most amazing dress ever, that i'd get to wear in the wedding. as soon as i realized i was about to agree (in the dream), i started to wonder if i really am that shallow. of coruse i didn't agree. i hit the guy instead, so yeah... when i woke up i couldn't get the dress out of my head (hehe it was soooooooooo amazing! red and all). i'm so tired now a days i hardly know how to do anything, and i want to do nothing at all. just sleep (without dreaming!!!) for a very long time. i wish i wasn't the way i am. and i wish it'd all go away.
on top of everything else i can't get D out of my head. didn't know it was posible to miss someone this much.
*sighs* help?
this is just painful. they've got to give me that medicine as soon as posible now, or i'm gonna break down again. i can't do this! i don't wanna go back to that hospital, and i don't wanna be embarest of who i am right now. i wish it didn't hav to be like this. three weeks is more than i can take right now. four would be even worse. i can't do anything. and i don't wanna cry. but it happens all the time. one day of sleeping isn't enough rest. one night with no nightmores isn't enough. one message every month won't do it. right now love and hate is too close to each other. it can't keep on like this. so why do i know i'll fogive him at once if he send me one before it's too late? when is too late? this friday? next month? after th summer? i don't know anymore. all i know is how much it hurts. i wish it would go away.
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some days i'm glad i'm alive
some days i couldn't care less if i were living or dead
some days i wish i was dead
some days i wish i could live forever
some days i may be both alive and dead
some days i'd give anything to die
some days i'm happy when i wake up in the morning
some days i want to sleep all day
some days i wish i didn't wake up
I haven't had any good days for a very long time
I feel like i don't care at least once a week
the rest of the time i wish the world would stop bothering me
and let me die
so that i could be done with it all
no more pain
hysj, du lille
ingen grunn til å være redd
jeg kommer alltid til å være her
for å passe på deg
du er trygg hos meg
vi kan få til alt sammen
hysj, du lille
du trnger ikke gråte mer
jeg skal holde øye med deg
og hjelpe deg
sammen kan vi få til alt
du er aldri alene
A boy and a girl,
the best of friends.
From elementary to high school
from beginning to end.
Through all those years
their friendship grew.
They both felt the same,
but neither knew.
Each waking moment
since the day they met.
They both loved each other
sunrise to sunset.
He was all she had
in her terrible life.
He was the one
who kept her from her knife.
She was his angel,
she made him smile.
Though life threw him curves,
she made it all worth while.
Then one day
things went terribly wrong.
The next few weeks
were like a very sad song.
He made her jealous
on purpose he tried.
When the girl asked, "Do you love her?"
on purpose he lied.
He played with jealousy
like it was a game.
Little did he know
Things would never be the same.
His plan was working
but he had no clue.
How wrong things would go,
the damage he would do.
One night she broke down,
feeling very alone.
Just her and the blade,
no one else home.
She dialed his number,
he answered, "Hello"
She told him she loved him
and hung up the phone.
He raced to her house
just a minute too late.
Found her lying in blood,
her heart had no rate.
Beside her was a note,
in it her confession.
Her love for this boy,
her only obsession.
As he read the note,
he knelt down and cried.
Grabbed her knife,
that night they both died.
She was found in his arms,
both of them dead.
Under her note
his handwriting said:
"I loved her so,
she never knew.
All this time
I loved her too."
if you love someone very much put this on your house
28 Ways To Make A Gurl Smile
1. Tell her you think she’s beautiful, not hot or fine or sexy.
2. Hold her hand at any moment, even if its just for a second.
3. Kiss her on the forehead.
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Always tell her you love her, at any and all times.
6. When she’s upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
7. Recognize the small things, they usually mean the most.
8. Call her sweetie and baby.
9. Sing to her, no matter how horrible your voice is.
10. Pick her over your guy friends, and especially girl friends.
11. Write her notes, she loves them.
12. Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.
13. Play with her hair.
14. Pick her up, tickle her, play-wrestle with her.
15. Sit in the park and talk to her.
16. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.
17. Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night, just because you missed her.
18. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
19. Carve your names into a tree (but then plant a new one together for the damaged you caused).
20. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
21. Give her piggy back rides.
22. Buy her ice cream.
23. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
24. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
25. Look her in the eyes.
26. Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
27. Kiss her in the rain.
28. If you're in love with her, tell her
~! 10 Ways to a gurls heart! ~
1. Hug her from behind.
2. Grab her hand when you walk next to her.
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. Don't force her to do anything.
6. Write little notes for her.
7. Compliment her.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
9. Say "I love you!" and mean it.
10. Tell all your friends how lucky you are to have her.
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~*~What a BoyFriend Needz to Do~*~
Put your arms around her waist and whisper in her ears.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kiss her every chance you get.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hold her close when she's cold.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kiss her on the tip of her nose, it will give her the hint
that
you want to kiss.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she
will
automatically put her head on your shoulder
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When she complains that her neck/shoulders hurt, massage
it/them for her.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When people diss her stand up for her.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her(only if you really mean it
cause if you do than she wants to hear it)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so
she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your
fingers
together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and
listens
to you.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
when holding her hand interlace your fingers and use the other hand to
stroke her arm
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
kiss her on the forehead it shows her you adore her
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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[GIVE ME A NUMBER!!
You can pick more than one..
1= I like you
2= I love you
3= You're funny
4= You're cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I wanna be on you!
7= You're sexy
8= You have a nice body
9= I hate you
10= You're boring
11= your gay and your just a waist of air
12= You have an awesome personality
13= I want to kiss every part of your body
14= I wanna do you 'til you scream my name
15= I want to go out with you
16= I'm looking for a relationship with you
17= be wit me
18= you're cute
19= i dont know you?
20= i want you in my life
You may ask me four questions.
Any four, no matter how private or how random.
I have to answer them honestly,and I have to answer them ALL!
In turn you post this message in your own journal, wikki, or profile and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you!
~18 tips about girls~
[1. If you like Her .. ASK HER OUT already.]
2. when you hug her, put YOUR ARMS around her WAIST and hold her close.
[3. when you WALK next to her, get as CLOSE as you can to her.]
4. if she's the only one in your life, TELL HER.
[5. ALWAYS let her know how much you like her, love her, or think about
her.]
6. give her presents and cards for no reason, SHE WILL RETURN THE
FAVOR... ALWAYS.
[7. if she hangs up on you, call her right back.]
8. always offer to pay, if she says NO twice, then let her pay but
make a deal that you get to pay next time (date offer too!).
[9. kiss her lightly every chance you get.]
10. look in her eyes and kiss her on the lips, forehead, or nose.
[11. if she says she's cold, don't be an idiot and say "me too" and
stand there, give her your jacket or just simply hold her in your arms.]
12. don't force her to do anything she's not comfortable with
[13. invite her to dinner or somewhere where you can talk, instead of
the movies.]
14. try not to ask her if she's mad at you EVERY TIME you speak to her.
[15. Always tell her you LOVE her only if you really mean it.]
16. DON'T pressure her to do anything she isnt READY to do. When she is
ready, she will let you know. She just wants everything to be more SPECIAL
and PERFECT. So appreciate what she does do with you.
[17. DON'T' go and tell your friends anything that happens between you
two, cause it will hurt her and make her mad...and it will NEVER happen
again.]
18. Call her .. girls love to be called or just send little text messages to them, this will make them think about you all day !!!
I've been left with many things.
A thousand tears and broken wings.
I will be sad forever, or so it seems.
I suppose I'll only be happy in my dreams.
So close your eyes,
And cover your ears.
So you can't hear my cries.
Or see my tears.
So hold me tight, tell me it'll be okay.
It will be alright. It will be one day.
If you REALLY LIKE SOMEONE right now AND MISS THEM and can't get them out of your head then re-post this within 1 mintute and whoever you are missing will surprise you.]
./) /)..
.(^.^).
.C(")(") <- cuddle bunny
I never thought someone could stop me from doing it
But you did
I never thought it would last with so many miles between us
But you made sure it did
I never thought that it would be so true
But you show me that it is
I think I am dreaming
But you tell me its really happening
I never thought that someone could keep me from my knife
But you did and I feel that my life is forever yours
To do what ever you want with
I always thought that my life was meaningless
But you showed me the meaning in my life
All along my lifes meaning was you
If you were to slit my throat and my wrists, in my dying words, i would apologize for bleeding on your shirt
1. Where would we go on dates?
2. Who are three (or more) of your favorite bands/artists?
3. Do you drink or smoke??
4. Do you like the rain?
5. If so...would you play in it with me?
6. Do you like movies?
7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night?
8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together?
9. Would you kiss my forhead?
10. Do you play an instrument?
11. If so...what?
12. Would you call me right after we saw eachother to make sure I made it home alright?
14. Favorite body part on a gIRL?
15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself?
16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, slut)?
17. Would you give me kisses just because?
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i'll tell u how i feel
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
wenever i look at u
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
wenever i think of u
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
wenever i talk 2 u
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
i get .butterflies.
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
in the pit of mii stomach
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
i get so happy
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
n i smile so wide
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
even if i'm crying
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
just the thought of u
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
brings a smile 2 mii face
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
n wipez tha tears
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
from mii eyez
-|-.·'`·»|«·´'
What a Girlfriend SHOULD know and a boyfriend SHOULD do.
Guys:Put your hands around her waist firmly
girls: lay your headback on his shoulder and put your arms on his.
Guys:whisper in her ear
Girls: giggle
Girls:whenever he tries to kiss you, don't just let him, kiss him back.
Girls: When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold
Guys: automatically move closer to her. (if your stupid then you'll either say" me too " or you'll give her your jacket... don't)
Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys: lift her chin up and kiss her.
Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... and mean it.
Girls:When you're both laying under the stars, put yourhead on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys: whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.
1. KISS ON THE HAND .. I ADORE YOU
2. KISS ON THE CHEEK .. LETS JUST BE FRIENDS
3. KISS ON THE NECK .. I WANT YOU
4. KISS ON THE LIPS .. I LOVE YOU
5. KISS ON THE EARS .. I AM JUST PLAYING
6. KISS ANYWHERE ELSE .. LETS NOT GET CARRIED AWAY
7. LOOK IN YOUR EYES .. KISS ME NOW
8. PLAYING WITH YOUR HAIR .. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU
9. HAND ON YOUR WAIST .. I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TOO LET YOU GO !!!!!
What I Love About You
I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine
Your name is...[faingnaert15]
Your kiss is... erotic
Your hugs are... warm
Your eyes... burn into my heart
Your touch is... the only thing I desire
Your smell is... beautiful
Your smile is... hypnotising
Your love is... unique
a peach is a peach
a plum is a plum
a kiss aint a kiss without some tongue
so open your mouth and close your eyes give your tongue some exercise
lille engelen min
hvorfor er du så kald?
hvorfor er huden din så hvit?
er du død?
lille engelen min
hvorfor svarer du ikke?
hvorfor beveger du deg ikke?
er du død?
lille engelen min
hva har skjedd med deg?
hvorfor er du helt stiv?
er du død?
lille engelen min
hvorfor er kjortelen din revet i stykker?
kan engler virkelig blø?
er du død?
lille engelen min
hvem gjorde dette mot deg?
hvem var ansvarlig for din smerte?
er du død?
lille engelen min
hva prøvde du å si meg tidligere?
hva hadde du sagt hvis du kunne si noe nå?
er du død?
lille engelen min
hva skal jeg gjøre nå?
hvem skal lede meg nå når jeg er uten deg?
du får ikke lov til å være død
lille engelen min
snakk til meg!
beveg deg
lev igjen!
LAYER 1:
Name- Kristin
Nickname- Angel
birthdate- march 6, 1990
birthplace- skien
current location- siljan
eye color- guess that would be green
height- 166 cm
righty or lefty- righty
LAYER 2:
most overused phrase- huh??!
thoughts first waking up- don't tell me i woke up again today too?! ><
best physical feature- :S
bedtime- whenever i'm tired
most missed memory- don't want to think about it. I MISS MY FRIEND!!! (R.I.P. Geir)
LAYER 4
soda- anything really...
fast food joint- nope
single or group dates- both
adidas or nike- nike
chocolate or vanilla- CHOCOLATE! XD
cappuccino or coffee- neither
LAYER 5:
smoke- no
cuss- no
sing- no
take a shower every day- yes
have a crush(es)- call it whatever you want
do ya think you've been in love- I know i have (are)
want to go to collage- yes
want to get marreid- yeah, but doubt it'll ever happen
believe in yourself- no
get motion sickness- depends (sort of changes alot)
think your atractive- no
get along with your parents- not my mum
like thunderstorms- ahuh
play an instrument- played piano once (for 6 years)
LAYER 6
In the Past Month:
drank alcohol- no
smoked- no
done a drug- no
had sex- no
made out- no
gone on a date- not really, but...
gone to the mall- yes
eaten a box of oreos- no
eaten sushi- no
been on stage- no
gone skating- no
made homemade cookies- yes
gone skinny-dipping
dyed your hair- no
stolen anything- no
LAYER 7
played a game that required stripping- no
been trashed or extremely intoxcicated- sort of
been caught doing something- not really
been called a tease- no
gotten beaten up- no
shoplifted- no
changed who you are to fit in- yes
LAYER 8
age hope to be married- whenever the guy want to
numbers of kids- not more than 2
how do you want to die- drowning
where do you want to go to collage- duno anywhere really
what do you want to be when you grow up- writer
who is your mosted loved person- Geir/Billy
LAYER 9
In a guy:
best eye color: doesn't matter
best hair color: any really
short or long hair: both
height: taller than me
best articles of clothing- whatever they like
LAYER 10
number of drugs taken illegally- none
number of ppl i can trust with my life- none really
number of CD's i own- i would guess around 20, but some of them are really old
number of peircings- my ears
number of tattoos- none
number of times my name has been in the newspaper- don't know
number of scares i have on my body- can't count them, too many
number of in the past i regret- too many really
I can't do this. i can't pretend i don't care. even if that's what i'm doing. i need help. all my memories are killing me. i don't know how long i'll hold it together anymore. they're hitting me a place i can't protect, and my tears are getting colder and colder. I don't want to be cold, but that's how i'm turning. howe can suhuting out the world make you stronger?
she didn't come. she didn't even call me back, like she said she would.
last night when i left i thought i was handeling it all. didn't take much more to tip me over again.
3 sorrows always come together, isn't that what they say?
does that mean that this was the last for now? or will they put even more to it?
i've got to get help. there's nothing more i can do. i'm not holding on anymore.
Billy, if you don't want anything more to do with me, i want you to just tell me.
Geir, i'll miss you
Grandpa, i don't know what to do.
me? i don't know what's left anymore.