I dont know what has suddenly changed about me. I'm starting to get sick of the people I've onced loved, and they, in return, don't care either. I've just become so distant, so unaware of my surroundings, so unaware of what's been going on this whole time. Has it slowly been changing, right in front of my eyes? Am I really so blind to believe that I once thought this day would never come? For the longest time I've felt like everyone has hated me, that this whole time they would never give me a chance...now that I've gotten a chance to meet those out of my "group", I realize that Jimmy says it best. "Everybody at highschool will worship the fucking ground I walk on." I mean, it's not to say that I don't miss the days I could actually sit with the Stonetastik Six and not feel like we were drifting apart, because I do. I still look back at the photographs of the partiest and all of that, and yeah, I wish I could go back. However, that's not going to happen, and I realize that. Everything that's happened before has to be forgotten eventually, because lingering gets you nowhere.



Guess what, girlfriend
You have got nothing on me, whore
You won't be missed
So get the whole fucking thing over with

This weekend was pretty good.
'cept that I'm sick.
So was Chez and Danielle.

Andddd we went to Higher Grounds. It was okay.
<3

Then the Double Clutch. Yeahyeah.
"SOoooo, how cool ARE you?".

Excessive lolzing!

Its going to be hard to never talk to those who have hurt me again.
...
But I have to try.


Until she realizes how much of a piece of shit he is...
I can't be in her life..


I've tried it before, and each time I saw her, I'd go home and just fucking cry. She made me feel like shit.
And honestly...
I dont want to do it again.

Sometimes I hate myself.
She makes me do it.

Im so pissed, so, yes. I dont know. Shit happens I guess.
It seems to follow me though.
I wish I didnt exist,
Or that I could start over,
Or something.
....

Yeah.