[COOTERxx]'s diary

61663  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-03-29
Written: (5209 days ago)

Sometimes I wish I was just some fucking whore.
Fucking everybody I've ever met.


Maybe, then, I wouldn't get upset when guys played me,
And maybe people wouldn't think I'm just being "dramatic"..



And maybe I wouldn't feel like a fucking pile of shit like I do right now..

61645  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-03-29
Written: (5209 days ago)

Yes, call me immature.
Jealous.


Whatever you want.
But calling how I FEEL "stupid shit"..
That doesn't fly with me.





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I was ALWAYS fucking there for her when she was upset,
And for the few days I was upset, it became stupid?



What the fuck.
She acts like I'm not over it.
I AM OVER IT.
I DO NOT CARE ABOUT TRAVIS.
HE IS A BULLSHITTER, A LIAR, AND A FUCKING LOSER.


But he's a cool kid.
You see? Yes. o_o

61278  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-03-27
Written: (5211 days ago)

I talked to Alex for four hours, from midnight until 4am.
It was great.
We talked a lotlotlotlotlotlot.
I have his hat, and he's so happy. He misses it. :]

I might see him friday at a swimmeet at my school.
I'll tell you whattt; I'm pretty excited about it.
Haven't seen that fuck in foreverrr.




It was great catching up with him though. ^-^

60651  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-03-22
Written: (5215 days ago)

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LMAO WTF.

60542  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-03-22
Written: (5216 days ago)
Next in thread: 60594

Ill admit it;
It scares me when she doesnt get online to just say hi.

60528  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-03-22
Written: (5216 days ago)

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Random bursts of creativity.

60467  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-03-21
Written: (5216 days ago)

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I hate you for making me feel this way.

60386  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-03-21
Written: (5217 days ago)

It's been the worst day since yesterday.
:[

60307  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-03-20
Written: (5217 days ago)

Does your new whore,
Have a face much like mine,
After drowning yourself in your liquor?
Does she treat you so well,
As she drags you to hell,
While you're spun out in such ecstacy?
Does she tell you she loves you,
And act like it's true,
Though she stabs you straight in the back?
I want you to know,
That I've cared for so long,
And what did you fear?
I could do you no wrong.
So go marry that whore,
Go choke on that bottle.
Go act like you've done it before...

I WROTE THIS TOO. MINE.

60181  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-03-20
Written: (5218 days ago)

Basically, this is how it goes.
I'm trying to tell myself that I don't care about Travis at all.
But the truth is, I always have.
Always.
And although I'm not in love with him, I love him a lot, and this shit hurts me so bad.
After what happened, he's now hooking up again with Sam, and I don't understand it. I could treat him so great.


Brianas helping me out a lot though.
Without her, I'd be lost.


Same with [._]. He's helping me too.

60130  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-03-19
Written: (5218 days ago)

I'm at the point where I might just break...
I just need to know what's going on..
And this hurts so bad.
:/



I don't know if I'll make it.

59963  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-03-18
Written: (5219 days ago)

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Pretty much how I feel.
I need to talk to someone.
I need to tell him how I feel.
But I can't,
And I don't know what to do.
:/

58072  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-03-08
Written: (5230 days ago)
Next in thread: 58082

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright

refrain:
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

refrain

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