[COOTERxx]'s diary

67533  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5137 days ago)

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Alex drew me a kitty cat :D!!!

67499  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5137 days ago)

Aww.
Look at meeee.

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Like, two years ago. How cute.

67497  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5137 days ago)

I wish I could really smile right now.
I really, really do.

67442  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5138 days ago)

When I die,
I'll go out with IV:XX carved into my throat.

That way, you'll never forget what I stood for.

67430  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5138 days ago)

I saw a shooting star one night, and he told me to make a wish. I wished that one day, some day soon, we'd be together and happy again. He told me that wishes upon stars always come true, he swore to it.

...He doesn't know I wished for him.

Please, oh please, please come true.

67285  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-09
Written: (5139 days ago)
Next in thread: 67286

God damn.
I don't know what I want in life anymore.


Alex
Travis
Patrick


Fuck
I dont know what to do.
I'm so in love with Alex,
And yet, He confesses nothing towards me.
We talk a lot, about relationships, having a kid, blahblahblah,
BUT NOTHINGGGG.
Patrick likes me
Travis says he loves me
But I truly do not know what I want.

67118  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-08
Written: (5140 days ago)

I hooked up with Travis,
But I really like Patrick.



I hope he understands.

66846  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-05-05
Written: (5142 days ago)

God damnit.

66300  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-03
Written: (5145 days ago)

The past two days, I've gotten 7 hours sleep total.
And why?
Because I'm up until 3am talking to him.
God.


..
Yeah.

Staying home this weekend so I can hang out with him next.
I'm bored.
Still sick.
Ughhh.



Yeah.

66084  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-01
Written: (5146 days ago)

Am I having an emotional struggle,
Or are these the best days I've had in such a long time?
It's been such a while since I've felt true happiness,
That I forget what it feels like,
To feel this rush,
This excitement,
This wanting of more each day..
And yet, at the same time,
It makes me want to cry,
Over him,
Over us,
Over our past that was lost so long ago..
That is now returning to the surface?
Can it be?
Can this be true?

Please tell me it is.

65732  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-28
Written: (5149 days ago)

Alex probably can't come tonight
:/

65492  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-27
Written: (5151 days ago)

I always dream of what I'll never really have.
It makes me so fucking sick.




...I fell in love, in the first place...

EDIT:
However, I fucking love the fact that Bree and I can smile again. Honestly, it's DISGUSTING how in love we both are. And yet, at the same time, it's good to know we're feeling it again, even if it's for others. <3

65391  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-04-26
Written: (5152 days ago)

Lololol.
It sucks.
It's hard not calling him for one day.
But I don't want to call too much or whatever.
Meeep.
Can't wait to see him this weekend.
He says he's going to buy me a slurpee.
<3
Huzzah.


Went shopping today.
Got a new ICP hat and four shirts, plus a black light.
Neato.
I have $28 to spend this weekend, $20 saved for 6.6.06 (will eventually add more there), and a whole bunch for myself. I don't know.
It should be Friday already.
I get my permit Thursday or Friday.
And uhhh.
I have no school tomorrow. Yes.

65287  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-04-25
Written: (5153 days ago)

I love how we can talk for 6+ hours a day, and yet we never run out of things to say.
Talking until the phones both die,
Until there's nothing more we could do.
<3

65263  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-04-25
Written: (5153 days ago)

If this is love,
I never want to lose him again.


I love talking to him.
It's amazing.

65126  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-04-24
Written: (5154 days ago)

Now I'm reallyreallyreally sick. And I have a sprained ankle. And I want a cigarette, but my throat hurts.

I just got off the phone with Alex. Mm. He called me earlier, at like 5:30, and we've been on the phone on and off since then. He kept making fun of my sneezes. He is..so cute. :] He says that next time we party, he'll buy me a slurpee and cookies because I want themmm. He kind of hinted somewhat of a possible "us" in the future..
I went upstairs, and my mom asked who I was on the phone with earlier. I said Alex, and she was like, "Are you guys together again?" and I told her no, and she said that I could tell her if we were. I told him about it, and he was like, "Does your mom still hate me or whattt?" And I said I thought she was just probably scared. He was like, "There's no reason to be scared." I don't know. I like this boy more than anything in the world. He makes me so damn happy. It's horrible, but it's so true. Sometimes he scares me, sometimes I wish he would just leave all of us in the past and fix his life, but at the same time I'm so in love with him that I don't think I could make it without him in my life.

He wants me to call him tomorrow morning. I don't know what time to, because I don't want to wake him up. He says he hates sleeping anyways, lawlz.

Anywaysss.
This whole "sickness" thing sucks hardcore. Chez's mom and stepdad are both really sick, and that's probably where I got it, too. Her mom can't even talk, and I'm starting to lose my voice. Perhaps talking too much on the phone, AND being sick. Lawlz.


Staying home from school tomorrow, gonna wake up, call Alex, smoke a cigarette, and be a lazy bum. Tuesday I'm going to Greeley, I have an ortho appointment at 2:15 on Wednesday, and going home at 5:30-6 that night. Then the weekend comes, and Alex is going to party with me at Patrick's if they're all down with it.


Life is good.
:]

64766  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-21
Written: (5157 days ago)

Uhmmm.
Tomorrow I go to see Ashley.
After I ((hopefully)) pick up Alex from his house in Fort Collins.
Then we party like it's 1969.

Huzzah.

64661  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-20
Written: (5158 days ago)

I always want what I can't have,
But I've got to try.


:[

64467  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-04-18
Written: (5160 days ago)

IwantAlexrightnowplzandthankyou.


I can't wait for the weekend.

64188  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-04-15
Written: (5162 days ago)

I'm sitting next to an open window.
It's not as exciting as you probably think.


Going up to the mountains today..
Hopefully the weather will calm down or something.
I miss my friends.
I can't smoke for a month.
I'm getting a job at Sonic.
I might go see Shaggy 2 Dope on the 29th.

Yeah.

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