[COOTERxx]'s diary

69045  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (5065 days ago)

The lunatic is in my head.
You raise the blade,
You make the change,
You rearrange me 'till I'm sane.
You lock the door,
And throw away the key,
There's someone in my head..
But it's not me.

68922  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-23
Written: (5066 days ago)

She was divinity's creature
That kissed in cold mirrors
A Queen of Snos
Far beyond compare
Lips attuned to symmetry
Sought Her everywhere
Dark liqoured eyes
An Arabian nightmare...



I want to cry.

68562  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-05-20
Written: (5070 days ago)

I know you hate it.
The fact that I'm slowly trying to move on with my life.
But the truth is,
No matter where we are,
Who we're with,
Or what we're doing with our lives..

I will ALWAYS love you.
And you will always be my first love.
Don't think otherwise.



I wish you wanted me,
But if you don't,
I'm not waiting around for something..
That will never happen...

68217  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-17
Written: (5073 days ago)

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I don't want Chez to leave..
Not now..

68014  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-15
Written: (5075 days ago)

Overwhelming level of confusion.

I hate myself when I do this to people..

67800  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-05-13
Written: (5077 days ago)

Aww.
Patricks such a cutie.

He was like, "Kike is my hero." And I asked why, and he was like, "Because if it weren't for him I might not see you tonight." AwwwwwwawaWWWw. K.

Anyways.
Kike is gonna come pick me up at 7:30 or so.
Huzzah.

67533  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5079 days ago)

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Alex drew me a kitty cat :D!!!

67499  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5079 days ago)

Aww.
Look at meeee.

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Like, two years ago. How cute.

67497  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5079 days ago)

I wish I could really smile right now.
I really, really do.

67442  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5079 days ago)

When I die,
I'll go out with IV:XX carved into my throat.

That way, you'll never forget what I stood for.

67430  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-10
Written: (5080 days ago)

I saw a shooting star one night, and he told me to make a wish. I wished that one day, some day soon, we'd be together and happy again. He told me that wishes upon stars always come true, he swore to it.

...He doesn't know I wished for him.

Please, oh please, please come true.

67285  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-09
Written: (5081 days ago)
Next in thread: 67286

God damn.
I don't know what I want in life anymore.


Alex
Travis
Patrick


Fuck
I dont know what to do.
I'm so in love with Alex,
And yet, He confesses nothing towards me.
We talk a lot, about relationships, having a kid, blahblahblah,
BUT NOTHINGGGG.
Patrick likes me
Travis says he loves me
But I truly do not know what I want.

67118  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-08
Written: (5082 days ago)

I hooked up with Travis,
But I really like Patrick.



I hope he understands.

66846  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-05-05
Written: (5084 days ago)

God damnit.

66300  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-03
Written: (5087 days ago)

The past two days, I've gotten 7 hours sleep total.
And why?
Because I'm up until 3am talking to him.
God.


..
Yeah.

Staying home this weekend so I can hang out with him next.
I'm bored.
Still sick.
Ughhh.



Yeah.

66084  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-01
Written: (5088 days ago)

Am I having an emotional struggle,
Or are these the best days I've had in such a long time?
It's been such a while since I've felt true happiness,
That I forget what it feels like,
To feel this rush,
This excitement,
This wanting of more each day..
And yet, at the same time,
It makes me want to cry,
Over him,
Over us,
Over our past that was lost so long ago..
That is now returning to the surface?
Can it be?
Can this be true?

Please tell me it is.

65732  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-28
Written: (5091 days ago)

Alex probably can't come tonight
:/

65492  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-04-27
Written: (5092 days ago)

I always dream of what I'll never really have.
It makes me so fucking sick.




...I fell in love, in the first place...

EDIT:
However, I fucking love the fact that Bree and I can smile again. Honestly, it's DISGUSTING how in love we both are. And yet, at the same time, it's good to know we're feeling it again, even if it's for others. <3

65391  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-04-26
Written: (5093 days ago)

Lololol.
It sucks.
It's hard not calling him for one day.
But I don't want to call too much or whatever.
Meeep.
Can't wait to see him this weekend.
He says he's going to buy me a slurpee.
<3
Huzzah.


Went shopping today.
Got a new ICP hat and four shirts, plus a black light.
Neato.
I have $28 to spend this weekend, $20 saved for 6.6.06 (will eventually add more there), and a whole bunch for myself. I don't know.
It should be Friday already.
I get my permit Thursday or Friday.
And uhhh.
I have no school tomorrow. Yes.

65287  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-04-25
Written: (5094 days ago)

I love how we can talk for 6+ hours a day, and yet we never run out of things to say.
Talking until the phones both die,
Until there's nothing more we could do.
<3

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