[COOTERxx]'s diary

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Written about Monday 2006-07-03
Written: (4883 days ago)

I hate crying.
I hate it so much.




...I wish I could hate him.

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Written about Wednesday 2006-06-28
Written: (4887 days ago)

I've been in such an amazingly good mood lately. I know it's because of Alex, but still...it's weird.
On Monday night I stayed the night with him, Kike, and Freddy. I slept on the floor with Alex, and we watched The Nightmare Before Christmas. I fell asleep halfway through it. At about 3 I woke up again, and he was still awake. We kinda like, smiled at eachother, and held hands and shit. I don't know. He's just so cute.
Kike woke us up at 8:45 and we smoked a few cigarettes and shit beore he had to go to work. He took the three of us to Freddys, and we went to the mall and stuff. Alex stole some green hairdye, so I ended up dying Freddys hair and Alex did his own. I got attacked by the hose, and was soaking wet for like two hours. It was neat?

I can't believe I'm actually this happy for once. I mean, I know Alex and I aren't together...but I do want to be, and when we're together, he acts like he does too. I don't know what to do about it, but right now I'm perfectly fine doing what I'm doing now. Tonight I'm probably going back down to Greeley because Chez is coming back, which makes me so fucking happy you have no idea, and then we're all going to get drunk. Not sure what'll happen, but I'm sure it'll be fun.

73106  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-06-26
Written: (4890 days ago)
Next in thread: 73319

What I've recently realized?
That when Alex kisses me...
Everything is all right.
And.... it's a feeling that I so rarely get to feel.
But Friday..
I felt it.
And it feels so good.



I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair,
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
And the way you read my mind,
I hate you so much that it makes me sick,
It even makes me ryhme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate the way you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close,
Not even a little bit,
Not even at all.



72715  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-06-22
Written: (4893 days ago)

I made a picture. Hehe.


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72198  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-06-19
Written: (4897 days ago)

HECALLED.

:]

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Written about Sunday 2006-06-18
Written: (4897 days ago)

I want him to call me.
That's all I want.


Atleast give me a clue?

Narff.

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Written about Tuesday 2006-06-13
Written: (4902 days ago)

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I have a butt.

71125  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-06-09
Written: (4907 days ago)

Alex might come camping with me from tomorrow until Sunday.

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Written about Thursday 2006-06-08
Written: (4907 days ago)

Kelly and Cody had their baby.
Her name is Brooklyn.
Aww.

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Written about Thursday 2006-06-08
Written: (4907 days ago)

Too many people in this world have become inconversable. Your feeble minds have become warped, and you have all conformed into what has been asked of you. Brainwashed; taken over by society, the government, the entire fucking world around you. Daily life is that of a slaughterhouse, and I am your butcher, I am the God that you have looked for, the Satanic figure you have feared. I am life; I am death. Irate, spiteful, sarcastic, grim, bitter, malicious, authentic, delirious, intense, cynical, indignant...I am the things you will never understand, that which is uncomprehendable.
I was placed here to please no one being.

70975  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-06-08
Written: (4908 days ago)

He treats me so good.
He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy.
He's there for me, he cares for me.

So why do I question him?
Why do I worry about what he's doing when I'm not around?
Why do I cry like this?

He hasn't done anything wrong. He's done everything right. Heartbreaks from my past are quickly catching up, and I'm beginning to realize that my scars will never completely fade out. I'm so afraid that he's going to hurt me, and why? Because of the mistakes the others have made with me. I want to be with him. I want to be with him so fucking bad, so why do I do this?



I just want to be happy again.

69864  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-06-01
Written: (4914 days ago)

Me: Hey, I'm going to be going to Ashley's Friday because she's not allowed to leave her house for a month..you can come if you want, if not I'll see you Monday.
Patrick: Are you sure it's okay if I go?
Me: Yeah, we'll just be all like, sober watching movies and stuff..might be kinda boring.
Patrick: I don't need alcohol to be with you.
Me: Alright. Gah, I miss you.
Patrick: I miss you too, but Friday isn't that far away.


fksjdfkj GAHHHHH.
He makes me feel amazing. And wanted.




I don't think I've been this happy in a long time.

69543  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-29
Written: (4917 days ago)

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It was a good night.

69147  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (4921 days ago)

I swear..
My heart's just going to quit beating pretty soon.

69045  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (4922 days ago)

The lunatic is in my head.
You raise the blade,
You make the change,
You rearrange me 'till I'm sane.
You lock the door,
And throw away the key,
There's someone in my head..
But it's not me.

68922  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-23
Written: (4923 days ago)

She was divinity's creature
That kissed in cold mirrors
A Queen of Snos
Far beyond compare
Lips attuned to symmetry
Sought Her everywhere
Dark liqoured eyes
An Arabian nightmare...



I want to cry.

68562  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-05-20
Written: (4927 days ago)

I know you hate it.
The fact that I'm slowly trying to move on with my life.
But the truth is,
No matter where we are,
Who we're with,
Or what we're doing with our lives..

I will ALWAYS love you.
And you will always be my first love.
Don't think otherwise.



I wish you wanted me,
But if you don't,
I'm not waiting around for something..
That will never happen...

68217  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-17
Written: (4930 days ago)

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I don't want Chez to leave..
Not now..

68014  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-15
Written: (4932 days ago)

Overwhelming level of confusion.

I hate myself when I do this to people..

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