For the next week Im alone! Sucks but whatever...
I have a set future!
There is no doubt anymore!
There is no more fear!
This is how it will end!
Sitting...
thinking...
Bored...
I am really bored...
I only wish to be happy
could it be that
I cant let my self be happy
because im scared that once
I get happy something
will happen and i wont be happy
ANY more... :
Bored
Been here Since 4:45
gots a full tank of gas
just waiting to get home
Missing my own couch
wanting my Pajamas
Im a Complete Mess..
Dont Look at me!!!
Just a little cut
and I will be just fine
Just a little cut
and it will clear my mind
Just a little cut
and my worries fade away
Just a little cut
and I'll make it through the day.
Just a tiny little cut
the pain will all subside
The smallest little cut
Pain and life coenside.
got it from [weallgloforever]
Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before
the guy i was CRAZY about... is moving away. i thought i was gonna get to hang out w/ him first. but then he got a g/f that hates me. she freaks if im even around him. so theres no chance in that. then the guy i was head over heels for i left cuz i was b-n a retard and i thought i liked this other guy but he turnd out 2 b an ass that just wanted sum ass. i think im still with him. but i havnt talked 2 him for almost a week now. then my x is practically stalkin me and all my friends. i love him but i never got to see him.
my mom doesnt see what her "boyfriend" is doin. he keeps goin back and fourth between her and his ex. i told her the next time she took him back i wasnt coming home. this moring i woke up and he was here in her bed. so im not talking to her. i cant believe she did that.
my brother wont stop freaking out on me. he saw me walking to my friends house and got really pissed at me. i cant stand it when he's mad at me. it makes me feel like a faluire. he told me not to walk the streets cuz he doesnt want me getting "hurt" and he wont let me talk to alot of the guyz that i do. its bullshit. but i kno he loves me. hes in denial that his babysister is growing up.
i cant take all the responsiblity i have to take on. i have to keep the house together. i gotta take care of my mom and brother and i feel like im the only adult type person in this house. its like ill never be able to be a kid. im spending all my time working. i dont have any friend time.
I cant believe he's really moving!!!
I love him to extremes he may never kno.
I really hope i get to talk to him still after he's gone.
he's really been the only guy there for me no matter what.
in a weird way i actually am glad things turned out the way they did but it all still sucks.
my stupidity got ahold of me and i dumped him.
i guess he's back with jessie though.....
i might as well move on.. he has
i think.
I'll still miss him and love him no matter what.
and i highly doubt any1 will guess who im talking about unless i actually talk to u on a reagualr basis and even then it will b hard.
yet another worthless thought from sissy♥
PEACE.
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-Instead, they just get the rotten apples--
---from the ground that aren't as good, --
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-something is wrong with them, when in--
----reality, they're amazing. They just----
-----have to wait for the right boy to------
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Im The Apple At the Very Tip Top of the tree R u brave enough?
Im Sorry!!
I'm sorry
if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs.
I'm sorry
if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs.
I'm sorry
if I'm not tan enough for you
I'm sorry
if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you.
I'm sorry
If i don't have a dream body that turns you on.
I'm sorry
if im not tall enough.
I'm sorry
If I can't look "hott" every minute
I'm sorry
if my hair is not long enough.
But most of all...
I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.
roses are red
viloets are bule
u make me cry inside
when i look at u
u know my i luv u
u know my plea
and just for a second i thought u luved me
i wished and i prayed
for the day u would come around
but im still waitin
here on the ground
4 u to say u luv me
and to say u that want me
but just for a second
i thought u luved me
this was written by Brandi!
but i like it!
I want to drink away the pain!
I want to feel it no more!
i want u to kill me!
Stab me
shot me
gouge out my eyes
rip out my heart
and stomp on it!
do the torture
dont skip out on any!
cuz that pain will be
NOTHING
compared to the pain
I feel from u!!!
i kno it sux but urthe dummy that read it!
I seriusly feel lyke im dyin!
ive been REALLLLLLY sick 4 a wile now!
ive puked everyday 4 the last month!
...dont let my mom find that out!
i dont want her or any1 2 worry!
i feel lykeim gonna puke right now....
oh crap....
i gotta stop writin this b-4 i
damn it!..I puked agian!
(good thing i had a garbage next 2 me!)
this is not the best winter break!!!
o well
i deserve it!
~♥~Sissy~♥~
p.s. i doubt u wanted 2 kno that but o well!
the dirty looks,
[the jealous stares,]
the best part is,
[YOU THINK I CARE]
catch ur breath,
[pinch ur wrists,]
baby its true,
[I DO EXSIST]
i'm the person i wanna be so
[DONT FUCKIN LABEL ME]
im a rude Ass bitch when i need to be,
[but im cool as fuck when ur real with me]
Hey Guys!
This Is Gonna B The LAst Tyme Im ON Till MOnday!
Im GOin 2 SOUTH CAROLINA!
2 c my AWEOSME bubbby! AKA [the_new_me2]
YAY!
He said hes really Buff now!
were gonna b takin TONZ of pics
when we go!
so ill update u on how sexifull
he is when i get back! lol
what sux is we are leavin tomarow mornin at fricken
1 in the morning!
I guess its worth it 4 my bubby!
well i X-pect tonz of messages tellin me
how much u guyz miss me when i get back!
lol
SO WRITE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love YA ALL!
Lyke HARDxCORE FrEaKz!
-♥Sissy♥-