1.face-eye color:hazel
2.hair length:LONG
3.hair color:Red
4.makeup: dark blackeyeliner!
1.body- Athetic!
2.BOOBS- I GOT HUGE KNOCKERS!!
3. BOOTY- I gotz a fat ass!
1.attiudes- IM ight
2.but dont mess with me cuz the bicth in me comes out.
3.i got in several fights and won all.
My own profile
1. name: Sissy
2. sex: female
3. religion: Im not really sure!
4. age: ask
5. fav music: HardxCore Shit!
6. fav rap artist: eminem!
7. fav old skool rapper: ??????
8. fav band: ICP BIZOTCH!
heritage: caucasain
Your fears: I'lllose mybaby!
Your perfect pizza: EXTRA cheese!
Goal you'd like to achieve: keep love!
Your most overused phrase: butter my butt and call me a bizkit!
Your first thought when you wake up:Ugh...anoth
Your best physical feature: BOOBS!
Your bedtime: when i want to
Your most missed memory: my dad
Soda:ugh...im alergic!
Best fast food joint:SPEEDS!
Single or group dates: both
Adidas or Nike:Adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla!
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino
Smoke: sometimes
Cuss: i fuckin do
Sing: I suck but ya...
Take a shower every day: yes i may forget on weekends
Have a crush(es): mayyyyybe
Do you think you've been in love: FUCK YA!
Want to go to college: yes
Want to get married:yes
Believe in yourself:HA HA HA!
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're a health freak: no
Get along with your parents: YA!
Like thunderstorms: yes
Play an instrument: yes
In the past month...
Drank alcohol: yea
Smoked: yes
Done a drug: no
Had sex:no
Made out:yes
Gone on a date:Yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yes
Eaten sushi: no
Been on stage: no
Gone skating:yes
Made homemade cookies:yes
Gone skinny-dipping
Dyed your hair: yes
Stolen anything: ugh...mayybe
Ever...
Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: wos asking?
Been caught doing something that you shouldn't be: DUH!
Been called a tease: yes
Gotten beaten up: FUCK NO!
Shoplifted: Whos asking?
Changed who you were to fit in: NOPE IM ME DEAL W/ IT!
Age you hope to be married:when ever i getproposed to by my love!
Numbers and names of children:ugh..
Describe your dream wedding: IDK!
How do you want to die?: I DONT CARE!
Where do you want to go to college:Harver
What do you want to be when you grow up:Lawyer
What country would you most like to visit: Jamica
In a boy...
Best eye color: Brown
Best hair color: dark
Short or long hair: Long
Height: dont matter
Best weight: dont matter
Best articles of clothing: dont really care
Best first date location: Theatre
Best first kiss location: couch
Number of drugs taken: ugh...?
Number of people I could trust with my life: 2
Number of CDs that I own: to many
Number of piercing: 2
Number of tattoos: 0, but i want one
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper:1, cuz if my fathers death
Number of scars on my body: to many 2 count!
Number of things in my past that I regret: none!
Fav Tv show:South Park!
HAvE yOu eVeR...
1) Dated one of your best friends -yes
2) Loved/Liked - Yes.
3) Cried - Yes.
4) Drank alcohol - Yes.
5) Done drugs - Yes.
6) Broken the law - Yes.
7) Broken a bone - No
8) Cheated on a test - Yes.
9) Skinny dipped - Yes.
10) Played Truth or Dare - Yes.
11) Ridden in a fire truck - Yes.
12) Come close to dying - A few times.
13) Burned yourself - Yes.
14) Given someone a piggy back/shoulder ride - Yes.
15) Eaten a worm/mud pie - No.
16) Stayed up till four on the phone - Yes (maybe l8r.)
17) Tipped over a port-a-potty - Yes
18) Fell asleep while eating - No.
19) Met someone famous - Yes.
20) Been in a school play - No.
21) Cried in public - Yes.
22) Seen someone die - Yes.
23) Been in a fist fight - Yes.
24) Given someone a bruise - Yes.
25) Gotten a bruise - Yes.
26) Knocked somone out - Yes.
27) Been knocked out - No.
28) Flipped any vehicles - No.
29) Cut someone - Yes.
30) Been cut - Yes by me and others.
31) Burnt any buildings down - No.
32) Sex in public - No.
33) Mooned someone - Yes.
34) Acted kidnapped in a car - No.
35) Flashed someone - Yes.
36) Kicked an ass - Yes.
37) Blew something up - Yes.
38) Caught your yard on fire - almost...
39) Threw a firecracker at someone - Yes.
40) Been in any wars - No.
41) Stayed up all night - Yes.
42) Slept all day - Yes.
43) Watched the sunrise - Yes.
44) Rode a motorcycle - on the back of one.
45) Driven a car - Yes.
46) Wrecked a car - Yes.
47) Gotten a tity twister - Yes.
48) Given a tity twister - Yes.
49) Posed for a nude pic- No.
50) Been suspended - Yes.
51) Been expelled - So so close!.
52) Been arrested - No.
53) Been in jail - No.
54) Given someone a bath - Yes.
55) Smoked - Yes.
56) Bungee jumped - No.
57) Made yourself throw-up - Yes.
58) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? - Yes.
I see: Dead People.
I need: to stop eating.
I find: a half smoke ciggarete
I want: You.
I have: CHEETOS!YAY!.
I wish: It would rain.
I love: Pain.
I hate: love.
I miss: My Jackie,and Mikey!.
I fear: I wont c them 4ever!.
I feel: Sadness.
I hear: Silence.
I smell: tears.
I crave: a razor.
I search: pointlessly.
I wonder: To much.
I regret: Nothin!.
1) name- Sum1 .
(2) piercings- Ears.
(3) tattoos- None.
(4) height- 5'0, methinks.
(5) shoe size- 7.5or 8
(6) hair color- Red.
(7) length- Middle of muh back.
(8) siblings- 7
LAST...
(9) movie you rented- uh...idk
(10) movie you bought- me4got
(11) song you listened to- ICP tilt-A-Wirl
(12) song that was stuck in your head- ICP Homies
(13) CD you bought – Korn.
(14) CD you listened to- A mix.
(15) person you've called- Ashley.
(16) person that's called you – Jake.
(17) TV show you've watched- uh...i4 got.
(18) person you were thinking of- Mikey
DO...
(19) you have a bf or gf- Yes.
(20) you have a crush on someone- I do.
(21) you wish you could live somewhere else- Kind of.
(22) you think about suicide- I do.
(23) you believe in online dating- used 2.
(24) others find you attractive- I guess.
(25) you want more piercings- Yes.
(26) you drink- once in a while.
(27) you do drugs- whos askin?.
(28) you smoke- Used 2 but had 2 quit.
(29) you like cleaning- Only when I'm extremly happy which is rarley.
(30) you like roller coasters-I LOVE roller coasters.
(31) you write in cursive or print- Print.
(32) you carry a donor card- Nah.
FOR OR AGAINST...
(33) long distance relationships- Iffy.
(34) using someone- Against!
(35) killing people- Some people deserve to die.
(36) teenage smoking- For.
(37) premarital sex- For, I s'pose.
(38) driving drunk- against.
(39) gay/lesbian relationship- FOR!!!!!
(40) soap operas- Agains!who needs moredrama?
FAVORITE...
(41) food- none
(42) song- Tilt-A-wirl ICP
(43) thing to do- Walk in the rain
(44) thing to talk about- idk
(45) sport- Sk8boardin!
(46) drink- Pina Colda
(47) clothes- uh...whatever.
(48) movie- The exercist
(49) band/singer- ICP ALL THE WAY!
(50) holiday- Halloween.
HAVE YOU...
(51) ever cried over a guy/girl- Oh yeah.
(52) ever lied to someone- Sure have.
(53) ever been in a fist fight- Yup.
(54) ever been arrested- Nah. Not yet.
NUMBER...
(55) of times I have been in love? Im not sure
(56) of times I have had my heart broken? Alot.
(57) of hearts I have broken? Oh geez. I haven't any idea.
(61) of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life? A few.
(62) of people I consider my enemies? Alot
(63) of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? No clue
(64) of scars on my body? WAY TO MANY TOCOUNT!
(65) of things in my past that I regret? none.
FAVORITE...
(66) Disney movie- Fox andthe hound
(67) scent- Mikey.
(68) word (s)- Who cares?
(69) nickname- Sissy I guess!
(70) eye color- Hazel.
(71) flower- Black Rose
(72) piercing- Tounge
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
(73) pretty- NO WAY!.
(74) funny- I guess.
(75) hot- NOPE!! that’s my opinion.
(76) friendly- kinda
(77) amusing- Sure!
(78) ugly- In a way.
(79) loveable- Not really.
(80) pessimistic- Very much so.
(81) optimistic- Every once in a while.
(82) caring- To an extent.
(83) sweet- alil
(84) asshole- Yeah. Hah.
RANDOM...
(85) Spell your first name back wards- Ardnassac
(86) The story behind your user name- its my "goth" name! lol
(87) Are you straight? No!Im very much Crooked!
(88) Where do you live? A box!lol
(89) 4 words that sum you up- Unique, Odd, Crazy, Juggalette and pathetic!
DESCRIBE YOUR...
(90) Wallet- Black leather/ freaky design
(91) Hairbrush- light purple w/ agooey handle!
(92) Toothbrush- Acheap blue one! <333
(93) Jewelry worn daily- My beautiful Jelly Braclets, Darrlys Chain, hoop earrings, wrist band,broken heart chain, and rings!!!
(94) Shoes- Black Gazzlas or sum thing with black and pink werid designed shoelaces with a C on the tounge of each shoe made of needles! im hoping to get Converses soon!
(95) Handbag- My pockets!
(96) Favorite band shirt- My ICP Shirt!
(97) CD in stereo right now- Mix.
(98) What you are wearing now- Red shirt w/ writing all over and zipper pants!
(99) Hair- Dark Red with light red roots!
(100) Make up- Loads of black eyeliner and mascara!
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)-
(101) In my mouth- a CHEETO!
(102) In my head- Way to much to tell.
(103) Wishing- Nothing, really.
(104) After this- uh No clue!
(105) Talking to- IDK!.
(106) Eating- CHEETOS
(107) Fetish- Eyes.
(108) Person you wish you were with- Mikey, Ash, or Jackie!
(109) Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month- IDK!.
(110) Something that you are deathly afraid of- Gainign more weight!
(111) Do you like candles- I ADORE candles.
(112) Do you like the taste of blood- I do. Mm.
(113) Do you believe in love- I sure do.
(114) Do you believe in soul mates- Not really.
(115) Do you believe in love at first sight- Nah.
(116) Do you believe in God- IDK
TO PLAY I NEVER.
PUT AN (x) IN FRONT OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE
AND A (_) ON THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE DONE AT LEAST ONCE. ADD AN "I NEVER" OF YOUR OWN.
I NEVER…
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
(_) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
( ) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(X) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN
(X) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI
(X) I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(_) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(_) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(X) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(_) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(X) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(X) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(_) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(_) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
(_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(X) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(X) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(X) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(X) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(x) I NEVER BEEN SKYDIVING
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPSTER DIVING
(_) I NEVER PUT MY PANTS ON MY HEAD RANDOMLY
(_) I NEVER WALKED IN ON FRIENDS HAVING SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN CAUGHT HAVING SEX
(_) I NEVER RECIVED ORAL SEX
(_) I NEVER MASTURBATED
(_) I NEVER HAVE RECIEVED BJ/LICKED OUT
(_) I NEVER HIT ON MY FRIENDS BOYFRIEND/GIRL
(_) I NEVER GAVE BJ/LICK OUT
I finally got 2 c him! After so many dayz! i got to touch him i got 2 hug him i got 2 kiss him i got 2 kno hes still there!!!!! Yesterday I saw him!!!!
[In a guy]
1.Older or younger? Older
2.Tall or short? Doesnt really matter
3.Thin or fat? Thin, but muscular
4.Long hair or short hair? long or Shaggy
5.Preferred hair colour? Darkish
6.Preferred eye colour? Hazel or Brown
7.Lips... what should they be like? plumpish and tasty
8.Good boy look or bad boy look? Bad boy
9.A serious look or a funny look? more funny! and playful!
10.Tattoo? Tatoos are sesxi so ya!
11.Accent or no accent? dont matter
12.With or without muscle? With!
13.Uses hair dye? dont matter
14.Wears sunglasses? dont care
15.With or without piercing? With
16.Wears caps? id care
17.Mind or body? either! or neither dont matter
18.Wears t-shirts or polo shirts? t-shirt!!!
19.Wears loose shorts or body fit shorts? Shorts? I DONT CARE!!!!
20.Quiet or talkative? Talkative.
why am I alwayz sad? everyoen else is happy but yet my smile never comes its alwayz a frown! when I see others walk by as happy as can be it sickens me 2 kno i may never feel the same! when I get happy which is very rare! something happens and back comes the sadness! y does this keep happining?
001: Name: Sissy
002: Nickname: Sedated
003: Country of living: U.S.A.
004: Birthdate: 28th May
005: heigth: 5'1
006: Eye colour: Hazel
007: Shoesize: 7 1/2
008: School/work: SKOOL SUX!
009: Do you smoke: used 2 but I quit!
010: Hobbies: Skatebaording, buggin ppl, hangin!
011: Brothers/Siste
012: Relationship: Madly in love w/ sum1!
013: Piercing(s): ears
014: Tattoo(s): nope
015: Country you want to go to: um.....idk!
017: Nicest person you met this year: idk!
018: Person you rather not have met this year: noone!
019: Who would you like to meet: the one im supposed 2 b w/ 4 eva (I think I might have met him but just in case)lol
020: Who do you admire most: Mario! hehe
021: Most sexy persons: Mario & Jackie!! mwa haha
022: Favorite Pyama: WTF!!
023: Favorite Car: big black trucks!
024: Favorite Movie: IDK!
025: Favorite music: anythign that catches my intrest!
026: Favorite City(s): idk!
027: Favorite Plush: huh?
028: Favorite Perfume: um...urm...WTF
029: Favorite Magazine: IDK
030: Favorite sound: Sum1 (not tellin who) talkin in the voice that reashures me everythings ok!
031: Favorite TV-series: um...IDK
032: Favorite Writer(s): have alot!
033: Favorite Nickname: Sissy!
034: What is on your mousepad: a bunch of my doodles from when I get bored!
035: What all is under your bed: nothin but drawers!
036: Favorite color: Black
037: Favorite Song ever: Stab My Back (All american Rejects)
038: Favorite song at this moment: ^^^ that one!
039: Favorite food: dont got one food makes me get fat so it should die!
040: Favorite class in school: um...lunch i get 2 c my fav person then!
041: Favorite drink: Pina colda!!!
042: Lucky number: luck is 2....fruity!
043: What do you think is greatest about yourself: nothin!
044: What deodorant do you use: Y would anyone want 2 know?
045: Favorite shoes: Converse (wish I had sum)
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: when ever I get tierd!
047: What word do you use most: Why...
048: Most romantic moment in your life: Last day of skool! (only sum would know)
049: Most embarrassing moment in your life: Never I dont get emarassed easy!
050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: any where as long as ive got my love w/ me!
051: What do you do on the weekends: sit at home wishing I had a lifE!
052: What class in school do/did you dislike most: any class w/ a creepy teacher!
053: Your Breakfast: nothin!
054: What do you really really dislike to eat: anything!
055: Pets: 3 dogs
056: Laugh or dream: Laugh! dreams lead to disapointment!
057: Serious or funny: funny
058: Fast or slow: fast
059: You prefer being alone or have relation: relation ;)
060: Simple or complicated?: simple
061: Cremated or buried: buried! let my corpse rot!
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: depends on my mood!
064: Light or dark?: dark!
065: Speak or Silence: anything that brings me close!
066: Tall or small man/woman: medium! or a lil taller then me!
067: News paper: huh?
068: Hug or kiss: Kiss
069: Happy or Sad: Happy
070: Life or Death: Death
071: Gig or Disco: GIg
072: Left or Right: right
073: Sausages on top, or on the side: top
074: Dark/ red/ Blonde: Red
075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: Why am I stil alive?
076: You believe in reincarnation: nope
077: You believe in Aliens: sumtimes!
078: When you die, what will be your last words?: I love u and alwayz will!
079: Does true love exist: Yes
080: How many kids would you like to have: 2 maybe 3
081: What is the one thing you can't stand: Ppl who think they r better then everyone and brag about ir or ppl who are so fricken happy u wanna puke!
082: Best feeling: being held!
083: Worst feeling in the world: broken hearted!
084: What are you afraid of: beign hurt again!
085: Are you an emotional person: Yup
086: Do you ever cry during a movie: umm...idk dont watch much!
087: Your goal in life: find myself!
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve: I will not rest till everyone else is happy!
089: Favorite art-artist: no idea
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: Monkey! u can throw shit at ppl!
091: What is the most beautiful part on the female body: IDK!
092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: sittin in a darkish room with a few candles lite!
094: Is there something you miss about elfpack: uh...?
095: Where did you get this question list: I took it! MWA HAHA!
095: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC: Talk 2 Mario, Jak Jak and mess around!
096: Is there a question you missed in this all: dont think so
As I lay here in bed,
I dream about the day
When you will be next to me
Holding me close and kissing me softly
Then cuddling up and holding me till I fall asleep
Then waking up the next morning to you laying next to me
Looking like an angel sleeping
And when I dream,
Its always about you
I dream of us walking through a field of flowers
Us stopping to kiss and hug
Then sitting and watching the sunset
Then softly kissing your lips when the only light is the moon
Saying I love you
Then walking home and watching a movie
Your arms holding me close
Then slowly falling asleep in your arms
Listening to your heart beat
Thinking how much I love being with you
And how much you mean to me
soso sweet...
LAYER ONE:]
-- [Name:]Sissy
-- [Nickname:] Sissy
-- [Birthdate:] 5/28/93
-- [Birthplace:] Tennesse
-- [Hair color:] redish, orangeish, blondish
-- [Height:] 5'0 (IM SHORT)
-- [Righty or lefty:] Righty
[LAYER TWO]
-- [Your heritage:] urm...?
-- [The shoes you wore today:] SLIPPERS
-- [Your weakness:] my tickleness
-- [Your fears:] Losing u..
-- [Your perfect pizza:] Xtra Cheesy!
-- [Goal you'd like to achieve:] PLZ EVERYONE!!!
[LAYER THREE]
-- [Your most overused phrase:] HOLY SHIT!!!
-- [Your thoughts first waking up:] UGH......Y???
-- [Your best physical feature:] BOOBS
-- [Your bedtime:] When i fall asleep
-- [Your most missed memory:] When I was Sane!!
[LAYER FOUR]
-- [Soda:] urm.... Mountain Dew
-- [Fast food joint:] McDonalds! (gotta love those fries!)
-- [Single or group dates:] Single.
-- [Adidas or Nike:] urm...?
-- [Chocolate or vanilla:] Vanilla
-- [Cappuccino or coffee:] Cappuccino :P
-- [Favourite football club] urm....?
[LAYER FIVE]
-- [Smoke:] used to
-- [Sing:] Only when Im alone!!
-- [Take a shower every day:] if I dont pass out first!
-- [Have a crush(es):] urm....
-- [Do you think you've been in love:] Ya
-- [Want to go to college:] Yea
-- [Like school:] FUCK NOO!!
-- [Want to get married:] Yes
-- [Believe in yourself:] sum times
-- [Get motion sickness:] urm...sum times
-- [Think you're attractive:] NOPE
-- [Think you're a health freak:] NOPE JUNK FOOD!!!!! ROX MY SOX!!
-- [Get along with your parents:] Yes!
-- [Like thunderstorms:] LOVE EM'
-- [Play an instrument:] Keyboard, & Drums!
[LAYER SIX]
In the past 6 months...
-- [Drank alcohol:] Yes!
-- [Smoked:] Yes
-- [Done a drug:] Yep
-- [Made out:] Yep
-- [Gone on a date:] yep
-- [Gone to the mall:] Yes
-- [Eaten an entire box of Oreos]: DUH!!!
-- [Eaten sushi:] ..urm..no
-- [Been on stage:] Yep! BAND!!!
-- [Gone skating:] Yep Sk8boarding...
-- [Made homemade cookies:] YUPPY!!
-- [Gone skinny-dipping:] urm...*nervous look* who told u??
-- [Dyed your hair:] kinda it didnt work!!!
-- [Stolen anything:] Yeah...so....
[LAYER SEVEN]
Ever...
--[Played a game that required removal of clothing:] TONS OF TIMES!!
-- [Been trashed or extremely intoxicated:] yup
-- [Been caught doing something:] ...maybe...
-- [Been called a tease:] Yeah lmao
-- [Gotten beaten up:] Nope...
-- [Shoplifted:] YA!!
-- [Changed who you were to fit in:] HELL NO Im me and if u dont like it KISS MY ASS!!!
[LAYER EIGHT]
-- [Numbers and names of children:] urm...3 kids ...dont know names...
-- [Describe your dream wedding:] BIg ..Dark..and kool
-- [How you want to die:] In my sleep.
-- [Where do you want to go to college:] ...urm...idk
-- [What do you want to be when you grow up:] ME!!
-- [What country would you most like to visit:] Japan..
[LAYER NINE]
In the preferred sex...
-- [Best eye color:] Blue or Brown!
-- [Best hair color:] Darkish
-- [Short or long hair:] Long...
-- [Best height:] 5'?
-- [Best weight:] middle
-- [Best articles of clothing:] Hoody!!
-- [Best first date location:] sum where nice
-- [Best first kiss location:] In darkness..
[LAYER TEN]
-- [Number of drugs taken illegally:] urm...lotz
-- [Number of people I could trust with my life:] sum 1...im not tellin..lol
-- [Number of CDs that I own:] alot
-- [Number of piercings:] 2 (ears)
-- [Number of tattoes:] none :(
-- [Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper:] urm...idk
--[Number of scars on my body:] ALOT
--[Number of things in my past that I regret:] 3
Your...
:x: birthday = May 28 1993
:x: age = ALMOST 13
:x: city = Battle Creek
:x: height = 5'0
:x: shoe size = 7 1/2 Women 5 1/2 Men
:x: hair color = Reddish Orangeish, Blondish
:x: school = urm...skool
Number...
:x: of siblings = 8
:x: of pets = 3
:x: of shoes = 1 (that I wear)
:x: of piercings = Ears
:x: of exboyfriends = urm.. who knows?
:x: of times I have been in love? = 2
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = to many to count
:x: of hearts I have broken? = urm... 2 that i kno of
:x: of boys I have kissed? = urm....?
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 3
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = 2 many 2 count
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = 1 that i kno of anyway
:x: of scars on my body? = LOTZ
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = 2 things
I thought I could take it! I thought I could do alot! like I said no matter WHAT i DO IT WILL BE THE WRONG THING!!!!!!!!!
Im stuck in the middle....*tea
Another fav song!!
[Welcome to my life] [♥]Simple Plan[♥]
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
another one of my FAV songs!!!!!!!
[shut up♥] [♥]Simple Plan [♥]
There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today
So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know
That you're not
You're always there to point out
My mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today
So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
So shut up shut up shut up
Is gonna bring me down
So shut up shut up shut up
Is gonna bring me down
Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away
So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Shut up shut up shut up
I don't wanna hear it
Get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say
Is gonna bring me down
Shut up shut up shut up
Won't bring me down
Shut up shut up shut up
Bring me down
Won't bring me down
So shut up shut up shut up.
This song practically explains me!!!!!!!!!!!
[I'M JUST A KID]
I woke up it was 7
Waited till 11
just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
and here it goes
[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me
Tonight...
And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me
What the fuck is wrong with me?
don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
and every night is the worst night ever
I'm just a kid [repeat x5]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world.
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me tonight
I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight
I'm in soo much pain my shoulders burn my hands are sooo sore..........
[TRUE RAPE STORY]
Walking in my nighty; rubbing my eyes
My fathers sitting on the sofa with his friend
He pats the seat in the middle; i sit
Shivering so cold; a quilt he lends
"Jessy you love me dont you" a smile; his
Their breathe spirts weep
"Daddy you know i do; what is it?"
He smiles at his friend; his hand creeps
His friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyes
Daddys creeping up my nightie; cold hands
I try to pull his hand away; grip is strong!
They look at one another; nod; something planned
I feel my palms sweat; Daddys under my knickers
"Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling again
But there grip is to strong for weak me
I look at both; and ask, who are these men?
His fingers going up me; pulling away
His friend leans forward; a kiss? Why?
His toungue moving mine; my eyes squint
Lean back and away; "Why are you doing this?"
No answer, i feel the pain inside me; him
Chucks the quilt on the floor; me to
I try and scamper away, but im not fast
"O Daddy please, i love you"
His friend; pulling at my nightie
And my Dad pulling my pants down
His friend pinning my hands to the floor
As my Dad lies himself on the ground
I squirm; as Daddy friend pulls me up
And places me ontop of Daddy; thrusts within
I cry; i bite; i scratch; i slap; i fail
"O Daddy please you win you win!"
I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking free
I can feel the blood seep down my leg
"Daddy your hurting me please"
I plead to him and his friend; not even a beg
Daddys laughing; why does he laugh?
His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans
Tieing my hands togather; moving in and out
"Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groans
They smile at one another; laugh to
They roll me over and spread me wide wel
My daddy sits on my face; himself in again
While his friend talks and pushes himself inside
I can hardly breathe; i gag for air
I cough and splutter; cry and weep
I beg and plead; but its no use
Theyve already made me hurt and bleed
I stare into his eyes; that look upon me
This is not my Dad; where is he?
If he was still here; would he care
Would he actually even; see?
Finally they get of and lie me on the sofa
My cheeks blouchy from tears and pain
They play with them selfs; all over me
Rub it in; making me feel the shame
"Why Daddy? Please tell me why?"
Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away
"Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek
"Is that all you have in your heart to say?"
He puts my nightie on me
I walks me to my bedroom door
Ever since that night; His friend
And himself every Friday come back for more
"Night sweet Girl; You are my life"
Closing the door, tears still down my face
Still the smell of him and his friend
Fade into me like disgrace
I watch the Moon go down; the sun come up
"Jessy its school" Knocking at my door
I cant help but cry; weep in pain
Because im so scared he wanted more
But one night daddy took it too far
Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot
They were worried they would get caught
So he and his friend took me to a cemetary lot
I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back
"Daddy please!! Not tonight!"
Daddy and his friend both had their last fun
After that i tried to put up a fight
I begged daddy "Please no more!"
All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!"
Daddy unblindfolded me at last
He said I love you so much
He went back into the car and pulled out a bat
"Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!"
I was dead
After only one swing.........
[**Please if you care for all the children and women who have been raped repost this bulletin with the Headline "A True Rape Story"]
does anyone really know what REAL love IS??? does anyone really know how REAL love FEELS??? sumtimes I think I know but then theres that little voice in my head tellin me "NO one could ever love some one so ugly, horrible, forgetful, stupid, gay,!!!!!!!!" and then I think about it!!! the voice is right who could ever love sumone so like ME!!!!????
I'm bored and tired ive got nothin 2 do and im FUCKIN tierd of Nate and Coss they r both assholes and keep tryin to break me up w/ Eric and tryin to find any excuse for me 2 break up w/ him i keep tellin them i love him and alwayz will and they cant find any excuse for me to break up w/ him! then they tell me that hes just tryin 2 get in my pants but i kno nathan only wants 2 get in my pants cuz he literally tried to feel down my pants! well i gotta go 4 now im gonna go kill someone BYE BYE !!!!