the guy i was CRAZY about... is moving away. i thought i was gonna get to hang out w/ him first. but then he got a g/f that hates me. she freaks if im even around him. so theres no chance in that. then the guy i was head over heels for i left cuz i was b-n a retard and i thought i liked this other guy but he turnd out 2 b an ass that just wanted sum ass. i think im still with him. but i havnt talked 2 him for almost a week now. then my x is practically stalkin me and all my friends. i love him but i never got to see him.
my mom doesnt see what her "boyfriend" is doin. he keeps goin back and fourth between her and his ex. i told her the next time she took him back i wasnt coming home. this moring i woke up and he was here in her bed. so im not talking to her. i cant believe she did that.
my brother wont stop freaking out on me. he saw me walking to my friends house and got really pissed at me. i cant stand it when he's mad at me. it makes me feel like a faluire. he told me not to walk the streets cuz he doesnt want me getting "hurt" and he wont let me talk to alot of the guyz that i do. its bullshit. but i kno he loves me. hes in denial that his babysister is growing up.
i cant take all the responsiblity i have to take on. i have to keep the house together. i gotta take care of my mom and brother and i feel like im the only adult type person in this house. its like ill never be able to be a kid. im spending all my time working. i dont have any friend time.
I cant believe he's really moving!!!
I love him to extremes he may never kno.
I really hope i get to talk to him still after he's gone.
he's really been the only guy there for me no matter what.
in a weird way i actually am glad things turned out the way they did but it all still sucks.
my stupidity got ahold of me and i dumped him.
i guess he's back with jessie though.....
i might as well move on.. he has
i think.
I'll still miss him and love him no matter what.
and i highly doubt any1 will guess who im talking about unless i actually talk to u on a reagualr basis and even then it will b hard.
yet another worthless thought from sissy♥
PEACE.
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-Instead, they just get the rotten apples--
---from the ground that aren't as good, --
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-something is wrong with them, when in--
----reality, they're amazing. They just----
-----have to wait for the right boy to------
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Im The Apple At the Very Tip Top of the tree R u brave enough?
Im Sorry!!
I'm sorry
if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs.
I'm sorry
if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs.
I'm sorry
if I'm not tan enough for you
I'm sorry
if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you.
I'm sorry
If i don't have a dream body that turns you on.
I'm sorry
if im not tall enough.
I'm sorry
If I can't look "hott" every minute
I'm sorry
if my hair is not long enough.
But most of all...
I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.
roses are red
viloets are bule
u make me cry inside
when i look at u
u know my i luv u
u know my plea
and just for a second i thought u luved me
i wished and i prayed
for the day u would come around
but im still waitin
here on the ground
4 u to say u luv me
and to say u that want me
but just for a second
i thought u luved me
this was written by Brandi!
but i like it!
I want to drink away the pain!
I want to feel it no more!
i want u to kill me!
Stab me
shot me
gouge out my eyes
rip out my heart
and stomp on it!
do the torture
dont skip out on any!
cuz that pain will be
NOTHING
compared to the pain
I feel from u!!!
i kno it sux but urthe dummy that read it!
I seriusly feel lyke im dyin!
ive been REALLLLLLY sick 4 a wile now!
ive puked everyday 4 the last month!
...dont let my mom find that out!
i dont want her or any1 2 worry!
i feel lykeim gonna puke right now....
oh crap....
i gotta stop writin this b-4 i
damn it!..I puked agian!
(good thing i had a garbage next 2 me!)
this is not the best winter break!!!
o well
i deserve it!
~♥~Sissy~♥~
p.s. i doubt u wanted 2 kno that but o well!
the dirty looks,
[the jealous stares,]
the best part is,
[YOU THINK I CARE]
catch ur breath,
[pinch ur wrists,]
baby its true,
[I DO EXSIST]
i'm the person i wanna be so
[DONT FUCKIN LABEL ME]
im a rude Ass bitch when i need to be,
[but im cool as fuck when ur real with me]
Hey Guys!
This Is Gonna B The LAst Tyme Im ON Till MOnday!
Im GOin 2 SOUTH CAROLINA!
2 c my AWEOSME bubbby! AKA [the_new_me2]
YAY!
He said hes really Buff now!
were gonna b takin TONZ of pics
when we go!
so ill update u on how sexifull
he is when i get back! lol
what sux is we are leavin tomarow mornin at fricken
1 in the morning!
I guess its worth it 4 my bubby!
well i X-pect tonz of messages tellin me
how much u guyz miss me when i get back!
lol
SO WRITE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love YA ALL!
Lyke HARDxCORE FrEaKz!
-♥Sissy♥-
God I Hate B-in Sick!
My throat is sore,
My nose is Runny and Stuffy,
i keep coughin and hackin,
the cold medicine is makin me tierd,
and the cold is keepin my awake!
URGH!
SUM1 SAVE ME! PLZ!
UR JUST JEALOUS CUZ I LOVE GAY PPL! HAHAHAHAHAHHAH
People at N-Dub are so fuckin imature!
they talk about stupid shit do stupid shit and like stupid shit!
WHAT IS W/ THEM AND STUPID SHIT!
I DONT BELONG THERE!
W/ Those ppl and there fuckin stupid
shit!
for example adma h. (not harrison)
had metal balls and keep talkin about ppl playin w/ them and shit
then theres Tyler and Darryl who act like the are fuckin gettin me in the ass or sumthin!
STUPID SHIT!!!!!!!!!!
People sit there and talk about how
there representin!
and how fuckin ghetto they are!
but they have no fuckin clue
what the hell they are talkin about!
when u throw up an EASTSIDE sign and
yell out SOUTHSIDE ur GONNA get ur ass KILLED!
expatually if u do that shit around
WESTSIDE! DUMB FUCKS!!!!!!!!!
DONT SAY UR FOR BOTH CRIPS AND BLOODS
WHEN U HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THE HELL THEY ARE!
U get that Samantha??????
GOOD! lol
I HATE FAKE FUCKERS!
they talk about a person then
act like they are
that persons friedn!
LIKE ALLY AND ALYSSA!!!!!!!!
first point they are fightin and callin each
other whores and shit!
the next they are goin trick-or-treat
like best friends! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
well thats all 4 u dumb fucks 2 read 2day!
PEACE!
LOVE U ALL LIKE HARDXCORE BITCHEZ!!!!!
-Sissy
I just relized what all Ive Missed
and Im gonna miss w/out my Dad!
I can never truley be Daddy's Lil Girl!
I Can never Dance w/ my Daddy @ the
Daddy Daughter Dance!
I Wont get 2 have my Dad Walk me
Down the Isle @ my weddin
I Wont have the Father
daughter dance @ my weddin!
I dont get 2 be spolied by my dad
..............
I dont even kno why my mom keeps me!
She didnt want me!
My dad did!
..............
well w/e i guess ill have to spend
my life w/ out bein Daddy's Lil
Girl!...:( *tear*
What are you afraid of?
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces/ heights<<
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightn
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[x] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[x] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[x] diseases
[ ] daylight
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] being blind...
[ ] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ]monsters under my bed
[ ] creepy noises during the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] long words
[ ] Being kidnapped
I only got 3 man im 2 brave! lol
I give up i cant take this shit anymore!!!! fuckk it all!
Sissy!!!!!!!!! The Bitch w/ no reason!Missing: </b>
Love Can Sometimes Be Magic But Magic Can Sometimes be an Illusion!
Love is Like a Book…If You Tear a Page, You Rip The Heart…And Have to Pay For Both!
Love is Like Honey and Lemon, Sometimes Sweet and Sometimes Sour
Love Me Now or Love me Never But If you Love Me, Love Me Forever
Diamonds Are Nice, And So Are Pearls, But Nothing Compares To u
First Time I Saw You…I Knew It Was True…I'd Love You Forever And That’s What I'll Do!
For Love I'd Do Anythign For You I'd Do More!
I Dropped A Tear In The Ocean When I Find It, Is The Day I'll Stop Loving You!
If Loving You Is Wrong I Don't Want To Be Right!
If The Only Possible Way We Can Be Together Is In My Dreams…Then I'll Sleep Forever
If You Love Me Tell Me It's True…If You Don't I'll Still Love You!
I'll Love You Forever I'll Love You For Always As Long As Im Livin My Baby You'll Be!
Im Falling For You..Please Catch Me!
One Day it Finally Came True, I Saw the One I Trully Loved and That one was you
Tell Me That You Love Me, Tell Me That You Care, Even If Your Lying, That’s All I Need To Hear!
The Face Is The Mirror Of the Mind, And Eyes Without Speaking Confess The Secrets Of The Heart
Y Do I even try 2 pretend like my life is all nice and dandy?.....
I Guess The One Person who didnt give Up On me All the Way Just did!!!!
im so stressed its not funny!
between my brother leaving(im gonna miss him 2 death), Findin a way 2 get money, workin around the house, dealin w/ all my friendz problems, dealin w/ all my problems(if u wanna kno details ask), and tryin 2 keep everyone else happy!
I Keep pilin my stress on others and it keeps pilin up twice as much on me!
one of these times im gonna completly snap and no one will be happy!!
they'll see how i feel
I can never be happy and keep others happy
its alwayz about everyoen else!
and the thingz that i do, do that keep me a lil happy every one judges me for and yellz @ me for!
the one thing that keeps my stress down a lil bit Eric flips out about!
cant he see how unappy i am
I dont want 2 start bein stupid and goin back 2 the fuckin razor blade!
im about 2 say FUCK EVERYONE ELSE!!!!
ITS ABOUT 2 BE ABOUT ME!!! fuck every one else and how happy they wanna be!
I LIVE 4 ME!!!!
alright what ever im out!
~*~Sissy~*~AKA No Longer Ur Saint! But MINE
Kissing Is A Habit
Fucking Is A Game
Guys Get All The Pleasure
Girls Get All The Pain
10 Minutes Of Pleasure
9 Months Of Pain
3 Days In The Hospital
A Baby Without A Name
The Baby Is A Bastard
The Mother Is A Whore
This Woulda Never Happend If The Rubber Hadn't Tore!!
Sex is like math
You subtract the clothes
Add the bed
Divide the legs
And Pray to god
You dont multiply
Roses are red
Grass is green
Open your legs
And I'll fill you with cream
Hickory dickory dock
This bitch was suckin my cock
The clock struck two
I dumped my goo
And dumped her to the end of the block
Sex is good
Sex is fine
Doggy Style & 69
Just for fun
Or gettin paid
Everyone likes gettin laid
Sex is evil
Sex is a sin
Sins are forgiven
So stick it in!!!
roses are nice
violets are fine.
ill be the six
if you be the nine
30 things to do to piss your parents off
1. follow them around the house every where
2. moo when they say your name
3. run into walls
4. say that wearing clothes is against your religion
5. stand over them at four in the morning with a huge grin and say"good morning sunshine
6. pluck someones hair out and yell "DNA!"
7. wear a sticker that says "im retarded"
8. have 20 imaginary friends that talk to you all the time
9. in public yell out" no mom/dad i will not make out with you!"
10. do what they actually tell you to do
11. jump off a roof trying to fly
12. hold there hand and whisper "i see dead people"
13. everything they say yell "liar!"
14. try to swim on the floor
15. tap on there door all night
16. pretend to have amnesia
17. say everything backwards
18. give yourself a swirly
19. run around with a lamp shade on your head screaming "the sun! its dying!"
20. sing at the top of your lungs while running around the house...in your underwear
21. have nervous spasms at spontaneus times
22. snort loudly when you laugh then laugh harder
23. run in circles
24. recite a whole movie 3 times
25. pretend to beat yourself up
26. slither evrywhere
27. wear you pants on your head and your shirt on your waist....tell them your making a fashion statement
28. try and drink out of a glass the wrong way
29. super glue your finger to your nose
30. talk to a pen