[♫The Awesomeless!♫]'s diary

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Written about Monday 2009-01-05
Written: (5561 days ago)

FACT:I'm the happiest girl in the world

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Written about Saturday 2008-06-21
Written: (5759 days ago)

I only wish to be happy
could it be that
I cant let my self be happy
because im scared that once
I get happy something
will happen and i wont be happy
ANY more... :

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Written about Sunday 2008-03-30
Written: (5842 days ago)

Bored
Been here Since 4:45
gots a full tank of gas
just waiting to get home
Missing my own couch
wanting my Pajamas

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Written about Tuesday 2007-07-31
Written: (6085 days ago)

Not the Place To Be


A home is a place
with comfort
kindness and love


you couldnt
Get that here
not even with a shove


in this place you get
kicked pushed and
thrown around


you wanna cry
but instead you
scream real loud


you scream
you wanna
get
out


this isnt a place
you wannabe
NO DOUBT!!!


By Sissy
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Written about Saturday 2007-06-23
Written: (6123 days ago)

Im a Complete Mess..

Dont Look at me!!!

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Written about Sunday 2007-04-08
Written: (6200 days ago)

Just a little cut
and I will be just fine
Just a little cut
and it will clear my mind

Just a little cut
and my worries fade away
Just a little cut
and I'll make it through the day.

Just a tiny little cut
the pain will all subside
The smallest little cut
Pain and life coenside.

got it from [weallgloforever]

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Written about Saturday 2007-04-07
Written: (6200 days ago)

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before

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Written about Monday 2007-03-26
Written: (6212 days ago)

the guy i was CRAZY about... is moving away. i thought i was gonna get to hang out w/ him first. but then he got a g/f that hates me. she freaks if im even around him. so theres no chance in that. then the guy i was head over heels for i left cuz i was b-n a retard and i thought i liked this other guy but he turnd out 2 b an ass that just wanted sum ass. i think im still with him. but i havnt talked 2 him for almost a week now. then my x is practically stalkin me and all my friends. i love him but i never got to see him.

my mom doesnt see what her "boyfriend" is doin. he keeps goin back and fourth between her and his ex. i told her the next time she took him back i wasnt coming home. this moring i woke up and he was here in her bed. so im not talking to her. i cant believe she did that.

my brother wont stop freaking out on me. he saw me walking to my friends house and got really pissed at me. i cant stand it when he's mad at me. it makes me feel like a faluire. he told me not to walk the streets cuz he doesnt want me getting "hurt" and he wont let me talk to alot of the guyz that i do. its bullshit. but i kno he loves me. hes in denial that his babysister is growing up.

i cant take all the responsiblity i have to take on. i have to keep the house together. i gotta take care of my mom and brother and i feel like im the only adult type person in this house. its like ill never be able to be a kid. im spending all my time working. i dont have any friend time.

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Written about Saturday 2007-03-24
Written: (6214 days ago)
Next in thread: 97174

I cant believe he's really moving!!!
I love him to extremes he may never kno.
I really hope i get to talk to him still after he's gone.
he's really been the only guy there for me no matter what.
in a weird way i actually am glad things turned out the way they did but it all still sucks.
my stupidity got ahold of me and i dumped him.
i guess he's back with jessie though.....

i might as well move on.. he has
i think.
I'll still miss him and love him no matter what.





and i highly doubt any1 will guess who im talking about unless i actually talk to u on a reagualr basis and even then it will b hard.


yet another worthless thought from sissy♥
PEACE.

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Written about Tuesday 2007-03-06
Written: (6232 days ago)

not even a home.

this house.
this home.
this crib.
this place.
its not a place,
i like 2 face.
yet i come here,
day after day.
oh what id do,
to get away.
this shelter.
this habitat.
the place i layed.
the place i sat.
the tourture.
the pain.
the agany.
the thoughts
just a wild diease,
that i have caught.



just a poem i wrote about this houshold that id rather not b in!
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Written about Friday 2007-02-16
Written: (6250 days ago)
Next in thread: 94889, 94910

-------------------Girls-----------------------
--------------are like apples----------------
---------on trees. The best ones-----------
--------are at the top of the tree.----------
------The boys dont want to reach--------
----for the good ones because they-------
--are afraid of falling and getting hurt.----
-Instead, they just get the rotten apples--
---from the ground that aren't as good, --
-but easy. So the apples at the top think-
-something is wrong with them, when in--
----reality, they're amazing. They just----
-----have to wait for the right boy to------
-------come along, the one who's---------
-------------brave enough to---------------
------------------climb all-------------------
------------------ the way-------------------
------------------to the top------------------
-----------------of the tree.-----------------

Im The Apple At the Very Tip Top of the tree R u brave enough?

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Written about Saturday 2007-02-10
Written: (6257 days ago)

Im Sorry!!

I'm sorry
if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs.

I'm sorry
if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs.

I'm sorry
if I'm not tan enough for you

I'm sorry
if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you.

I'm sorry
If i don't have a dream body that turns you on.

I'm sorry
if im not tall enough.

I'm sorry
If I can't look "hott" every minute

I'm sorry
if my hair is not long enough.

But most of all...

I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.

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Written about Sunday 2007-01-14
Written: (6283 days ago)

roses are red
viloets are bule
u make me cry inside
when i look at u
u know my i luv u
u know my plea
and just for a second i thought u luved me
i wished and i prayed
for the day u would come around
but im still waitin
here on the ground
4 u to say u luv me
and to say u that want me
but just for a second
i thought u luved me

this was written by Brandi!
but i like it!

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Written about Saturday 2007-01-13
Written: (6284 days ago)

I want to drink away the pain!
I want to feel it no more!
i want u to kill me!
Stab me
shot me
gouge out my eyes
rip out my heart
and stomp on it!
do the torture
dont skip out on any!
cuz that pain will be
NOTHING
compared to the pain
I feel from u!!!



i kno it sux but urthe dummy that read it!

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Written about Friday 2006-12-29
Written: (6299 days ago)

I seriusly feel lyke im dyin!
ive been REALLLLLLY sick 4 a wile now!
ive puked everyday 4 the last month!
...dont let my mom find that out!
i dont want her or any1 2 worry!
i feel lykeim gonna puke right now....
oh crap....
i gotta stop writin this b-4 i

damn it!..I puked agian!
(good thing i had a garbage next 2 me!)
this is not the best winter break!!!
o well

i deserve it!

~♥~Sissy~♥~

p.s. i doubt u wanted 2 kno that but o well!

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Written about Thursday 2006-12-28
Written: (6300 days ago)

the dirty looks,
[the jealous stares,]
the best part is,
[YOU THINK I CARE]
catch ur breath,
[pinch ur wrists,]
baby its true,
[I DO EXSIST]
i'm the person i wanna be so
[DONT FUCKIN LABEL ME]
im a rude Ass bitch when i need to be,
[but im cool as fuck when ur real with me]

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Written about Tuesday 2006-12-05
Written: (6323 days ago)

Hey Guys!
This Is Gonna B The LAst Tyme Im ON Till MOnday!
Im GOin 2 SOUTH CAROLINA!
2 c my AWEOSME bubbby! AKA [the_new_me2]
YAY!
He said hes really Buff now!
were gonna b takin TONZ of pics
when we go!
so ill update u on how sexifull
he is when i get back! lol

what sux is we are leavin tomarow mornin at fricken
1 in the morning!
I guess its worth it 4 my bubby!
well i X-pect tonz of messages tellin me
how much u guyz miss me when i get back!
lol
SO WRITE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love YA ALL!
Lyke HARDxCORE FrEaKz!
-♥Sissy♥-

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Written about Friday 2006-11-17
Written: (6341 days ago)

God I Hate B-in Sick!
My throat is sore,
My nose is Runny and Stuffy,
i keep coughin and hackin,
the cold medicine is makin me tierd,
and the cold is keepin my awake!

URGH!

SUM1 SAVE ME! PLZ!

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Written about Saturday 2006-11-04
Written: (6354 days ago)

UR JUST JEALOUS CUZ I LOVE GAY PPL! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!


People at N-Dub are so fuckin imature!
they talk about stupid shit do stupid shit and like stupid shit!
WHAT IS W/ THEM AND STUPID SHIT!

I DONT BELONG THERE!
W/ Those ppl and there fuckin stupid
shit!
for example adma h. (not harrison)
had metal balls and keep talkin about ppl playin w/ them and shit
then theres Tyler and Darryl who act like the are fuckin gettin me in the ass or sumthin!
STUPID SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

People sit there and talk about how
there representin!
and how fuckin ghetto they are!
but they have no fuckin clue
what the hell they are talkin about!
when u throw up an EASTSIDE sign and
yell out SOUTHSIDE ur GONNA get ur ass KILLED!
expatually if u do that shit around
WESTSIDE! DUMB FUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DONT SAY UR FOR BOTH CRIPS AND BLOODS
WHEN U HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THE HELL THEY ARE!
U get that Samantha???????
GOOD! lol

I HATE FAKE FUCKERS!
they talk about a person then
act like they are
that persons friedn!
LIKE ALLY AND ALYSSA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
first point they are fightin and callin each
other whores and shit!
the next they are goin trick-or-treatin together!
like best friends! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!


well thats all 4 u dumb fucks 2 read 2day!
PEACE!
LOVE U ALL LIKE HARDXCORE BITCHEZ!!!!!
-Sissy

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Written about Tuesday 2006-09-26
Written: (6393 days ago)
Next in thread: 83581, 83693

HES GONE!

My bubby is gone!
he has left 2 Train 4 the Army!
he will be back in 6 months
I dont think i can last that long though
he just left @ 4:15pm and i already fuckin
miss the shit outta him!

he is the only guy that ive
been able 2 talk 2 about anything
and thats been there 4 me no
mattter what!
Hell hes the only person at all!

I NEED MY BUBBY!!!!


and 2 top that shit off
my best fuckin friend
is even here 4 me
she doesnt want 2 be my
friend and niether does Jackie!
so i have no one 2
fuckin talk 2!

WHY THE HELL HAS
EVERYONE TURNED
THEIR BACKS ON ME????


WHAT THE HELL DID I DO??

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Written about Monday 2006-08-21
Written: (6429 days ago)

I just relized what all Ive Missed
and Im gonna miss w/out my Dad!
I can never truley be Daddy's Lil Girl!
I Can never Dance w/ my Daddy @ the
Daddy Daughter Dance!
I Wont get 2 have my Dad Walk me
Down the Isle @ my weddin
I Wont have the Father
daughter dance @ my weddin!
I dont get 2 be spolied by my dad
....................................
I dont even kno why my mom keeps me!
She didnt want me!
My dad did!
....................................
well w/e i guess ill have to spend
my life w/ out bein Daddy's Lil
Girl!...:( *tear*

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