its like 4:40am and i cannot sleep, im so excited over the new superman movie, i cant freaking wait, its gonna blow every other damn movie outa the water, not just all superhero movies, ALL MOVIES!!!!!!!!
no body knows exactly what i go through, everyday i put on a brave face to cover up the tears i cry at night, it hurts bad emotionally, knowing that there is no real gaurantee in my cancer being gone for good, there are days i will wake up crying my eyes out saying please dont let me die, and nightmares of my doctor talking to a nurse with the nurse telling the doctor that "hes alright" meaning me, and my doctor saying back to the nurse in a slow and sad voice that "no hes not" and my doctor walking into the exam room and saying that they have done all they could and they gave me the best treatment possible, and that he is sorry, and i just keep hearing his voice in my head saying "Matthew, im sorry, im so soo sorry", that dream haunts me, and it always will, and it always re-occurs
ok, i have this weird but interesting dream lastnight, i feel asleep, and when i awoke i was downtown here in battle creek, and i kept seeing helicopters flying all around in the sky, so i wondered what was going on, so i looked down the streets and noticed that there were people everywhere looking up at the sky, and then i seen a streak of fire go across the sky, then i looked at the ground and seen a water puddle and seen my reflection in it, i was wearing dress clothes and i had a pair of glasses on, and they were a different pair than the ones i have, then all i kept hearing around me was "Where is Superman? Why hasent he done anything yet?" then i looked behind me at the building i was standing infront of, and it was the Daily Planet, and at that time i realized who i was, and i thought "oh crap, i have to do something!" then i looked around and seen an alley so i jogged across the street looking left and right and kept on looking around me to see if anyone was watching, and everyone was still looking towards the sky, so i proceded down the alley picking up pace to a slight run, i grabbed my glasses and took them off and clinched them in my right hand, i pulled open my vest and dress shirt with the buttons ripping off, and i looked down and seen that i had the new superman costume on, and that the clothes i had on were gone and i was in full costume, so i crouched down a little bit, and then i made a jump and i went soaring into the air and i landed on the rooftop of the Daily Planet, and i got a look at what the helicopters were going after, it was a guy who highjacked a military jet fighter, and i knew this was gonna be a hard one, one helicopter comes flying in and the guy in the jet fighter takes aim at the heilcopter, without hesitation i launched myself as fast as i could towards the helicopter, i flew in front of it and i seen a missile making its way towards me that was shot from the jet fighter, i bolted right towards the missile and i felt the explosion on me and was knocked un-oriented, then i got a lock on the jet fighter, and i had to be sure that i could take him out, and in the blink of an eye i had flew over to the jet fighter and grabbed ahold of the tail of the plane, with the flames of the afterburners flaring in my face, i decided to freeze up the jets, so i blew as fast and as hard as i could and a thick layer of ice formed over the jets, and the jet fighter shut down, and i flew the jet to the ground and the guy was taken away by the police, and then i say bye, then i crouched down once again and launched myself back into the sky, and then i woke up
my best friend and i have stumbled across a thought that may change everything in the world of fuel sources, we are gonna create a "fuel rod" which is a form of fuel for cars which will consist of a solid chemical compound that is nearly endless in production of combustable fumes that would be to the equivalent of gasoline combustion
-_- i feel like superman in superman 2, when superman went to the fortress of solitude and says "father i have failed you, i didnt listen, and i need you, ....FATHER!!!!
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsom
sounds just like me lol
words of wisdom from (Marlon Brando) Jor El: even though you have been raised as a human being,..you are not one of them, ....they can be a great people Kal EL, they wish to be, ...they only lack the light to show the way, ....for this reason, above all, their capacity for good,..i have sent them you, my only son.
hmmm, i wonder, what if the cancer rate is increasing due to the amount of radioactive material taken from the earth and being encased in lead, since radioactivity kills cancer cells, what if, now go with me on this, what if since all the radioactive material that has been taken, what if that is what has kept cancer from killing people, since WWII more and more radioavtive material has been taken from the earth and has been contained, what if there is a slight possibility that there might be a direct relation to the increase in the cancer rate, what if we need that radiation, what if that was there for a reason to keep this illness from happening, no one may ever know, but that is one of my ideas on how the cancer rate has increased
i have been ponering this for a long time now,....what if we have the ability to control time, well not actually control it, but more like slow it down,....i have a belief that we can make time go faster, due to the fact that we have our minds set on another day, you have a plan that you cant wait for, but then when it comes, you sit there and think "wow that came fast", and you wonder what happened to the time in between there,...what if i said there is a way to control that, well not control, but take advantage of that time between your plans,...why not just plan for today, and live for today, not for tomorrow, cause tomorrow hasent came yet, and by the time tomorrow comes, you could have either wasted yesterday, or made the most of it, ......you can have your plans for another day, but just keep in mind, dont wish for that day to come quickly, cause before you know it, today will become tomorrow, and tomorrow will become the next day, and you will sit back and wonder where all the time in between has gone, ....so as i said, live for today, plan for tomorrow, because before you know it, tomorrow is already here