[Enneigard Rebirth]'s diary
my hair....oh god MY HAIR!!!! AGHHH!!!!!! poop./
just incase you dont know, the words in parenthesis is me talking & replying to myself. just so you know.
i cant really be sure people are reading this shit....oh well...
wait.....if no one thinks im hot, so that must mean im ugly.
Right?
i went to show & pizza 2day at the dorm. went to cutbank, ate at pizza hut, & watched 8 below...
had a really shitty weekend. bad things happened, & i really felt like crap. but then again, we all have days like that...
all i have to do is get her out of my fucking mind & ill be okay again...even though i was never okay
to love someone that cant love you back, to have feelings for a deceased love, that is a fateful demoneida...
Description:
Disorder Rating Information
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Very Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Very Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Comp
oh well...
i was denied.
Written about Saturday 2006-03-25
Written: (6861 days ago)
we all have our simplistic problems, are deeper tormented illusions of unexpressed emotions, waiting to crawl out into the light of revealment, but to be masked with regret & unsurity, is the real curse.
if you know what to expect then knowing the truth doesnt hurt as bad...
hey! evilishish wiki
bleh...meh...i
i decided to post one of my poems from www.Creative-p
enjoy....or at least TRY to
××× ŧõ mŷ mũŧĭĿâţēđ âńĝėĿīč Ĺŏvē...×××
i hide behind a smile & of an image of a friend
wishing this horrid pain would seize & end
no one would ever understand this torture
while everyone gives into it like pop culture
so i set my own heart on a bottle of propane
knowing that my true love was slain
that was the match that ignited my pain
with screwed up thoughts tearing apart my brain
wrap barbwire around my neck & hang from the ceiling
stab myself with a knife, i dont need this darkened feeling
she was shot to death because of me
im a hopeless abomination, dont you agree?
shut myself away from sociality to feel the darkness
because i deserve it, i am ugly & hopeless
please forgive me my love, i have failed you
your soul resides in heaven, i only know that to be true
i was supposed to protect you in this complicated tangle
i am the norevard, the savior of the distressed angel
i failed my mission & now i am damned for eternity
i am so sorry that youve been caught in this calamity
just another victim of depression's darkest side
with a tough brave image but a frail person inside
i already have it copyrighted so no one can do shit with it....