hey. life sux. what else is new though rite?

evil... just plain evil... i just read this fwd from my mom... it's so evil...... in a funny way... most people wouldn't even understand why it's funny...

~The following are emails between myself and my exboyfriend Jon... I am putting them here so that, if I seem distressed, you all may be able to understand a part of the reason why...~
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i know what you mean but its hard i got no life anymore so why stop



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From: alee mcrae <freakyrain2007@yahoo.com>
To: shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: SEX JOKE
Date: Wed, 14 Jun 2006 12:23:51 -0700 (PDT)



if u are sorry u're into it then quit. Jeez! not too hard to figure out babe... i gotta go cuz my idiot boyfriend is flirting w/my sister.
 
wbs,
 
alanda

shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com> wrote:
   
 
 

i wish i robbed a bank all i gotta say its a bad thing for what i did i cant trust my own self anymore after what i did i told my mom to fuck off and because now im doing cocaine it sucks i hate it im sorry im into it now

 
 
 
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From: alee mcrae <freakyrain2007@yahoo.com>
To: shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: SEX JOKE
Date: Fri, 9 Jun 2006 09:07:18 -0700 (PDT)
 

 
Damnit jon... u know i don't like guessing games... what the hell did you do??? Rob a bank??? u're scarin' me jon...
  
miss,
  
alae

shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com> wrote:
     
  
  
nope not that its something nobody can trust me with ever again


  
  
  
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From: alee mcrae <freakyrain2007@yahoo.com>
To: shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: SEX JOKE
Date: Mon, 5 Jun 2006 12:06:25 -0700
(PDT)
  

i have no idea... u got a chik preg.??? i'm clueless, babe.....

shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com> wrote:       
   
   

imma have to move out of here after grad other
wise im dead and wont be alive for what i did take a guess for what i did

   
   
   
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From: alee mcrae <freakyrain2007@yahoo.com>
To: shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: SEX JOKE
Date: Mon, 5 Jun 2006 10:22:51 -0700 (PDT)
   

   
Jon~
    
what exactly did u do??? I just
stayed up all night online just to reply to any e's u may have sent so u better tell me! 
    
~Alae~

shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com> wrote:
         
    
    
what its true i did something i cant reget myself for doing and i have to take the pain to you know


   
    
    
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From: alee mcrae <freakyrain2007@yahoo.com>
To: shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: SEX JOKE
Date: Sun, 4 Jun 2006 22:31:29 -0700 (PDT)
    

    
JON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!? I DON"T EVER WANT U 2 SAY SOMETHIN" LIKE THAT AGAIN DO YOU UNDERSTAND??? IT ISN"T FUNNY AND I HIGHLY DOUBT U DID SOMETHIN" THAT BAD... I'm sure if u told me that i wouldn't hate u... believe me, one of my friends is a convicted
sex offender and i still love him 
enough to stay the night at his house.. hell i've been known to stay there a couple months at a time and he has YET to touch me... damnit jon... Superman u know i still care about u... are u trying to make me upset again? i just got over another bout of nausea and depression... seriously hone.... whatever...   
     
LOVE AND
MISS U,    
     
Alae

shaelene little
<shaelene_2003@hotmail.com> wrote: 
           
     
     
i understand holy shit its hot outside im dieing of heat...shit im laughing to hard i see a fucking funny ass mother fuckin picture...im bad i should be somewhere else besides enjoying the free world i dont deserve no friends anymore shit i did something bad i cant say i wish i could tell but all of you peeps will hate me for what i did im gunna get someone to beat me up real bad or either shoot me for what i did...by september i
wont either be alive or be hurt reall bad but ya email me back kk
    

     
fuck the
world and everything in my life boo ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 
  
     
     
     
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From: alee mcrae <freakyrain2007@yahoo.com>
To: shaelene little
<shaelene_2003@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: SEX JOKE
Date: Fri, 2 Jun 2006 10:35:47 -0700 (PDT)
     

     
JON~>
      
no comment. YOU SCARED THE HELL OUTTA ME!!!!!!!!!!
      
i thought we agreed we were gonna be friends.... Jon.... I would LOVE to get back with you......BUT I'm already with someone... I AM SO
SORRY!!!!!!!
      
   
Miss u lots,
      
alae

shaelene
little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com> wrote:     
             
      
      
i miss you too i want you back i cant get
you out of my head and i cant get over you alae your the one who has my heart email me back i will check my email at lunch dont forget i love you alot and i cant get you out of my head my
life just aint the same anymore without you in my life love you and miss you tooo


   
 
      
      
      
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From: alee mcrae <freakyrain2007@yahoo.com>
To: shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: SEX JOKE
Date: Fri, 2 Jun 2006 10:22:11
    
-0700 (PDT)
      

      
What's wrong Jon???? Are you okay??? You don't have any terminal illness do you??? (I have
every right to freak out cuz nothing is goin' right today...) Write back soon.   
  
       
Miss You,
       
Alae

shaelene little <shaelene_2003@hotmail.com> wrote:
               
       
       
i want
to talk to you k so
email me back plz
  
      

losing my mind... hate computers...lol.
music rec:
Paris Hilton's: Stars Are Blind

I know baby you're frustrated
(uh huh)
but I'd like it if we waited
(mm mm)
Get a little more acquainted,
(alright)
it's better when anticipated
(oh, Just take off your clothes)
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anyways i'm about to log off cuz i have to. stupid library rules. anyways. i won't be on probably til next week. sorry to my pals. later.
Music Rec:
Who Knew by Pink

When I see you baby
I wanna take off your clothes
Just rip off your clothes
Just take off your clothes

When I see you I want you to
take of my clothes
Just rip off my clothes
Just take off my clothes
Well make yourself at home and take off your clothes
We'll get naked and we'll see how it goes

I know baby you're frustrated
(uh huh)
but I'd like it if we waited
(mm mm)
Get a little more acquainted,
(alright)
it's better when anticipated
(oh, Just take off your clothes)

I wanna touch your little
your little hip bones
your collar bones
and all your other bones
and your happy trail
it's my happy trail
Youre treasure trail,
let's see what goes down

Come on baby you're fixated,
(uh huh)
I think I'd like it if we waited
(uh uh)
Get a little more acquainted,
(alright)
it's better when anticipated
(no its not, just take off your clothes)

Just take off your clothes

So come on baby don't be shy,
and let's begin
and I'll take off your clothes
Cause everyone knows
you like me it shows
and you know how it goes
If you take off your clothes
we'll see how it grows
I just wanna know

If you take off your clothes
(you take off your clothes)
and if you take off your clothes
(I'll take off my clothes)
and i take off my clothes
(I'll rip off your clothes)
Rip off my clothes
(I'll rip off my clothes)
Rip off your clothes
(I'll take off your clothes)
Take off your clothes
(I'll rip off my clothes)
Rip off your clothes
(I'll take off your clothes)
Come on just take off my clothes

I know baby you're frustrated,
(uh huh)
but I'd like it if we waited
(just take off your clothes)
Get a little more acquainted,
(that's right)
it's better when anticipated

oh, JUST TAKE OFF YOUR CLOTHES
please.

lol. tg for music or i'd die....


music rec:

Take off your clothes-by Morningwood

oh goddess... y did i say i was gonna be organised this summer??? i'm cleanin' out my folders on my email and in one folder alone i had over 400 emails... and i have at least 30 email addresses!!!!!!!!!!

fjdkl;a jfdkla;ieoiankdnvb ffdjdaf

i'm so bored.

life is so much better now...
the beauty of music.... lol... and people....

Music Rec:

Mandy by Jonas Brothers

party sucked. killey sucks. everyone sucks.

Music:

FU!

The party is in just over an hour... we still need to get everything for it... i'm so dead...

Music Rec:
Six Words Long by Wierd Al

Goddess,
I miss hangin' out with my cuzzin' senselessly doin' stupid stuff and freakin' ourselves out... I hate it bein' all alone....
Fading Away,
Alanda

hey. i'm listenin' to STUPID GIRLS by pink. i love this song. my gramma has her cd. how totally awsome is that. my gramma is the bomb. she's gonna loan it to my mom so she can burn my sis and i a copy... i can't wait. i have a party on the day after tomorrow... FREEDOM party to be specific. free from "school" free for "enjoyment" and my neighbor, whom i babysit her kids, is gonna be free from her "husband" cuz she's gettin' a divorce... go S!... g'luck people!

Song Reccomendation: 
1.> Gallery by Mario Vasquez
2.> Stupid Girl by Garbage (not kidding on this by the way)
3.> I write Sins not Tragedies by Panic! At The Disco

~Alae~

I am so upset. the seniors are officially gone.
and i'll be a senior next year. not at all disturbing. none of it seems real... i feel as though my life is ending, when it's supposed to be just beginning.
whatever,
alanda

~Lost~

I'm lost without you here with me.
I can't find my way out of the maze.
I used to be flying free,
but now I'm just too phased.

You said you'd never hurt me.
You told me we were forever,
but I was blind and couldn't see.

You cheated and lied,and I never even knew.
After I cried,I gave up on you.

We're through,and I was lost.
But now I've found my way again,
and have paid the cost.
I'm out of the labyrinth,
and I don't care what might have been.

By:
Alanda McRae

~Society~

Censored Happiness
Contrived Emotion
Unadultered Devotion
Similar to the endless tides of the ocean

Political Prostitution
Sinister Evolution
Apocolyptic Revolution
Some may say society is entering devolution

Horrible Souls
Manchurian Mantality
Ridiculous Fatalities
Do we realize the formalities?

By:
Dartel R McRae

~Silent Screams Silenced~

I am a child, living in a nightmare
Muffled in confusion more each day
Why escape and travel away,
From my mind, my body and home
Away from the pain and fear in the real world

My mixed emotions from violence threatening
Piercing the air with my empty cry
Which no one who knows now hears?
No one is here to save my blood
But through all the turmoil I still can rise

Why end beauty when it has only blossomed
Shedding hopelessness on the lost ones
Save your soul without more ache
Bring joy to those who fall right now
Today live without fear and go on with hope

By:
Jacquelynn Michelle McRae

~jUST BECAUSE~

Just because I might leave
I hope you will not cry
I'll still love you no matter what
and I don't even have to try

the love we have is strong
as lots of people can see
as we plan to get married
I know our love will still be

Just because I act stupid sometimes
I will love you now and forever to come
hopefully to become your wife one day
and have little Andrews running around the place

If something gets in our way
just look at it and pass it by
just because we are together
and that is no lie

By:
Jacquinta McRae