i just found my knife and it looks tempting but i cant do it,im too scared*sighs*im always the one being pushed around im always the one that gets messed with just for being himself

i hate my fuckin life,yes i have a car puter video games and stuff like that but i still hate my fuckin life.some times i wish some one would walk up to me and blow my brains out.thats how i feel thats all ill ever feel,im never happy anymore.im always pissed im always sad,so fuck life fuck and,fuck the whole god damn world.

pull the trigger no one would care
pull the trigger and blow my brains out into the air
yet again no one would care
pull the trigger my nightmare ends
pull the trigger the critizing will end
pull the trigger no one would care
pull the trigger and blow my brains into the air

this is a poem on how i feel i wrote it

ok ppl im getting rid of relations that i dont talk too much nothing personal

N 1) smoked weed or cigs
n 2) consumed alcohol
y 3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
n 4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
y 5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
n 6) made out with someone of the same sex
y 7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
y 8) watched porn
n 9) bought porn
n 10) done drugs
TOTAL: 4

i am changing my name back to elf person

hello ppl its the me myself and rob hour leave a message after the beep*beep*


damn didnt fool ya huh well this is probly the last time i change my name,if im going to change it again ill let yall know

kee for crew

JOIN BITCHES

THANK YOU GOD FOR ALL MY WONDER FULL FRIENDS LIKE [;;Melodrama Junkie] [pepsi girl] and [Dark Demon's Rose]

look the tears are starting to flow now im even more useless.why do i cry why,in my family the guys arnt sopposed to show emotion why am i doing that now why.now im even less worthy to have the same name as my father.im so hopeless and i cant stop crying.

i may be gone for awhile after today plus i miss rping on sublime hatred yall should try it its very good and has good people on it i just f*cked it all up for myself,omg i hate my life my moms out of the hospital shes totaly yelling every second at me for being me im just sick and tired of it,my dads always cussing at me cause im always listening to Kiss,im just tired of life at the moment i just want to cry but i cant,im sorry im leting this all out on you my freinds and i apologize

The person I never wanted to be,
is the perosn I see most frenquently

he smears on a fake smile with force to make himself feel happy.
he longs for love because he needs it so bad.

he reaches out for help,
when help is not needed.

he reaches out for the bottle.
and is self concious and has low self esteam,

the strength needed for him to get along is hidden behind his fake smile.
and denys that he is not okay and says he is fine behind a fake smile

the thoughts that run through his mind are not normal
he lives to die.

the guy I see in the mirror is some one i hoped to never be.
the guy I see in the mirror is me.

heres another basicaly same message diff pic

http://elfpack.com/img/image/42552_1155014108.jpg

I MADE THIS BANNER AT PAINT SHOP PRO HERES THE LINK(http://elfpack.com/img/image/42552_1155013608.jpg)THE OTHER ONES ARE OUT DATED

i have 2 banners to choose from





here are the codes

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wat i fear
[] the dark
[] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[X] closed spaces/ heights
[] cats
[] dogs
[] birds
[] spiders and/or other insects
[] driving or being in cars
[] flying
[] flowers or other plants
[] being touched
[] fire
[] water
[] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] germs
[]thunder/lightning
[]frogs/toads
[] mice/rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
[] wind
[] cotton balls
[] cemeteries
[] clowns
[] large crowds
[] crossing bridges
[] death
[] Heaven
[] being robbed (Bitch I beat their ass)
[] men
[] women
[] having great responsibility
[] doctors
[] tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[] diseases
[] daylight
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] poverty
[] ghosts
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains or railroads
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[] being blind...
[] being deaf
[] growing up
[]monsters under my bed
[] creepy noises during the night
[] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
[] long words
[] Being kidnapped