And here come the bad feelings and signs...
I'm so depressed, this is the third night i've woken up crying.
Idk how much longer we'll be together, dosn't look like long at all.
I'm stressed to the max trying to make this work out, and be as perfect as it was before, but some how i'm constantly fuckin' up obviously.
[ Why is it I only feel when somethings been torn away?
- You all look at me as if the GASHES didn't hurt ]

He's so perfect, he's so close to being everything!!!

So I'm pretty much dateing the best guy alive, Marcel.. I love him alot.
It's amazeing how feelings grow within time, and how you can fall for someone hardcore.
Anyway, we fight alot but he's never not crossing my mind. Ha even right after we fight, just thinkin' about him seems to always make me smile. Most of the time i wonder why he's even with me... He could do so much better, and at times i don't treat him as good as i should. He means so much to me though, and I can't wait to be with him!
I love him, and i'm gonna spend forever proveing that soon to the best of my ability.
<3

DUDE....

So pretty much fuckin' great weekend all together!
Sunday was pretty gay, but Friday and Saturday were dope.
I met this chick named shay, she's totally fuckin' cool and it's amazeing how close we are already. 
We got so wasted, and got stopped by 6 cops then another 2 within the same ten minutes.
Fuck hopefully more drunken times await us shay, your the best.


P. S - R & R IS FUCKIN' NASTY SHIT! YUCKY It'll make you gag.
P. S. S - SAME WITH DISTILLED VODKA, GROSS! the taste will never leave your mouth, makes you not want to drink for along time.

P. S . S . S - Considering it's so gross... why the fuck did i chug the rest of it??? Shay do you know why??? lol damn i have no idea. That's what you call stupidity right there!

THIS IS BULLSHIT PEOPLE, SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!

So there's been lot's of talk about my dad, My dad is none of your guy's concern, EVER!
The only time you should talk about him, is if i brought it up. WHICH I DID NOT!
He's dead, and I think talkin' shit about him is the lowest possible thing you can ever do.
Then telling me i'm lieing about how he died??? WTF people. I only told you 'cause i think i could trust you, obviously it was a mistake. And i would never ever lie about something like that...
It's amazeing how disrespectful people can really truly be, especially someone you thought was your friend one minute, then just spazes and calls you a fuckin' cunt and shit.
All that drama is actually kind of ridiculous.
So today i've learn't who can really be respectful and who can't, not to mention who is really a true friend, and who is not.

So I offically had the worst Birthday of my life. Woke up this moring around 5 Am, started to cry. I remember how my dad use to wake me up early, just to wish me a happy birthday, Now he's gone.He died a month ago, nice birthday present eh? I Went to school, everyone i knew forgot about my birthday, special eh? That made me feel even worse. Didn't get to do anything for my birthday, would of had no one to hang with anyway. I don't really fit into a group anymore, I guess you can say i've been replaced, forgotten, etc. I came home from school, did nothing. Got to go out for dinner though, thats about it. Then later my mom, and two sisters got into a big fight, physical i mean. It scared me, made me feel even worse about my birthday.Then Kimberly decided she was gonna run away, so now i'm sitting here, waiting till i hear from her or till she gets home. So yeah, I offically claim this the worst Birthday of my life.