[Karen]'s diary
Lost my bf/future Fiance... currently heartbroken now.
How could I fuck things up so bad that he would want to leave me?
I must be the worst girlfriend ever...
He deserves so much better, I hate myself for hurting him.
Maybe if I just never ever opend my mouth, and was cool with everything he would still be mine....
Depression starts here...
[ Quote ]
HOLY MOTHER FUCKING CRAP!!
- - Karen; ;
You Are Simply Amazingly Gorgeous And
You S T O L E All Of The B E A U T I F U L N E S S
When You Were Born;;
Lucky[ Quote ]
Haha, that's sorta funny. Jyl your a dork.
I love him more then anyone, and I'm gonna prove it to him. I can't wait to see him, it's gonna be more perfect.
Umm I'm about 5'4 - 5'5, haven't checked in awhile, so not quite sure. Unfortunitly i'm fat and weigh 136 :(
Also Well I love Partyin', and drinking with friends. People say i'm a crazy/funny person, so i guess thats me. I love laughing and just haveing a good time. I'm always up for trying new things. Poetry is my life, I enjoy reading it, and writeing it. Plan to publish a book in the future. People say i'm talented and pretty good at it, so if you ever want to read a poem I wrote just let me know. I love my bestfriends to death, and would do anything for them. My favorite band is Evanescence, i'm completely obsessed. I'd go lesbian for AMY LEE! Second would have to be Hinder, Austin is so fuckin' hot haha. So yeah, if you haven't listend to either of them, i seriously surjest doing so, right now!
There's probably lots more to write, but I don't feel like typeing it all so if you want to know anything, just ask me.
My [ philosophy ]...
Meeting you was [ fate ]
Becomeing your friend was my [ choice ]
Falling in [ love ] with you was beyond my [ controle ]
When You Shed A Tear And You Still Want Him
Its When He Ignores You And You Still Want Him
Its When He Loves Another Girl
You Still Smile And Say I’m Happy For You..
When All You Really Wanna Do Is Cry
<left>Two tear drops were floating
down a river. The first one *
asked "who are you from" she
replied, "I'm from a girl who's
man left her. Who you from "
He replied, "I'm from the man who
regrets letting her go." <|3</left>
don`t matter, 'cause I got you babe
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
BuckCherry
You got a lovely face
We're going to your place
And now you got to freak me out
Scream so loud
Getting fucking laid
You want me to stay
But I got to make my way
Hey!
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good I'm on top of it
When I dream
I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on
The paper is your game
You jump in bed with fame
Another one night payed in full
You're so fine
It won't be a loss
Cashing in the rocks
Just to get you face to face
Fuck you so good
Get the video
Fuck you so good
Crazy bitch
Crazy... bitch
You want it all
To be a star you'll have to go down
Take it off
No need to talk
You're crazy but I like the way you fuck me!
You're crazy but I like the way you fuck me!
So many times I... I had my F O O T out the door.
So many times I... I thought to give him a C H A N C E.
Thought he'd be a B E T T E R man.
Now I'm sitting here, and I'm so C O N F U S E D.
'Cause I keep F I G H T I N G myself for you.
I don't know how much more I can T A K E,
But I can't F E E L this way...
You got me so [T O R N!]
This is my B E S T F R I E N D, Jade.
Jade hun, your Beautiful, no matter what you think. Your a total sweetheart, defently one of the best.We got alot in commen too, it's really saweet. Hehe us and older guys, i love it.So yeah, were pretty tight now. If anyone messes with jade, I swear to god i will kill you. She's one of my best girls. Anyway, Can't wait till we can hang out, love ya lot's hun!!!
[</3]
but when you do have it, you can't appreciate it, you destroy it.
when you lose it, you want it back, but when it's gone
you can never understand why you let it go
without you - i laugh harder
you had it all but did not know
no one you'll find will ever be
closer to all your dreams than me
believing the grass would be greener
you told yourself "I just don't need her now"
but I know you'll soon discover
you'll never be satisfied with any other."
i just dont care
Holly shit i just don't know anymore, i'm afraid my relationship is fuckin' dieing.
I love Michael, i'm afraid to lose him.
Written about Thursday 2007-02-22
Written: (6483 days ago)
And here come the bad feelings and signs...
I'm so depressed, this is the third night i've woken up crying.
Idk how much longer we'll be together, dosn't look like long at all.
I'm stressed to the max trying to make this work out, and be as perfect as it was before, but some how i'm constantly fuckin' up obviously.
[ Why is it I only feel when somethings been torn away?
- You all look at me as if the GASHES didn't hurt ]
He's so perfect, he's so close to being everything!!!
So I'm pretty much dateing the best guy alive, Marcel.. I love him alot.
It's amazeing how feelings grow within time, and how you can fall for someone hardcore.
Anyway, we fight alot but he's never not crossing my mind. Ha even right after we fight, just thinkin' about him seems to always make me smile. Most of the time i wonder why he's even with me... He could do so much better, and at times i don't treat him as good as i should. He means so much to me though, and I can't wait to be with him!
I love him, and i'm gonna spend forever proveing that soon to the best of my ability.
<3
DUDE....
So pretty much fuckin' great weekend all together!
Sunday was pretty gay, but Friday and Saturday were dope.
I met this chick named shay, she's totally fuckin' cool and it's amazeing how close we are already.
We got so wasted, and got stopped by 6 cops then another 2 within the same ten minutes.
Fuck hopefully more drunken times await us shay, your the best.
P. S - R & R IS FUCKIN' NASTY SHIT! YUCKY It'll make you gag.
P. S. S - SAME WITH DISTILLED VODKA, GROSS! the taste will never leave your mouth, makes you not want to drink for along time.
P. S . S . S - Considering it's so gross... why the fuck did i chug the rest of it??? Shay do you know why??? lol damn i have no idea. That's what you call stupidity right there!
THIS IS BULLSHIT PEOPLE, SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!
So there's been lot's of talk about my dad, My dad is none of your guy's concern, EVER!
The only time you should talk about him, is if i brought it up. WHICH I DID NOT!
He's dead, and I think talkin' shit about him is the lowest possible thing you can ever do.
Then telling me i'm lieing about how he died??? WTF people. I only told you 'cause i think i could trust you, obviously it was a mistake. And i would never ever lie about something like that...
It's amazeing how disrespectful people can really truly be, especially someone you thought was your friend one minute, then just spazes and calls you a fuckin' cunt and shit.
All that drama is actually kind of ridiculous.
So today i've learn't who can really be respectful and who can't, not to mention who is really a true friend, and who is not.
So I offically had the worst Birthday of my life. Woke up this moring around 5 Am, started to cry. I remember how my dad use to wake me up early, just to wish me a happy birthday, Now he's gone.He died a month ago, nice birthday present eh? I Went to school, everyone i knew forgot about my birthday, special eh? That made me feel even worse. Didn't get to do anything for my birthday, would of had no one to hang with anyway. I don't really fit into a group anymore, I guess you can say i've been replaced, forgotten, etc. I came home from school, did nothing. Got to go out for dinner though, thats about it. Then later my mom, and two sisters got into a big fight, physical i mean. It scared me, made me feel even worse about my birthday.Then Kimberly decided she was gonna run away, so now i'm sitting here, waiting till i hear from her or till she gets home. So yeah, I offically claim this the worst Birthday of my life.