Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free?
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be halfway to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name

I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be halfway to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back
You're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left
To stop you

Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back
You're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left
To stop you now

We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be halfway to anywhere
Where Love is more than just you're name

Just heard this song and can't stop singing it!!
It's called 'Anywhere' by Evanescence, and the harmony is so beautiful. Wish I had someone to sing it with...

OOOH!!! *runs after Steph*

AH!!! I'm in love with this song!!

Words fall outta my mouth
And Ican't seem to trace
WhatI'm saying,
Everybody wants you're time
I'm just dreaming of light
I can't have you for mine
And I know it,
I just wanna watch you shine

Tripping up on my tongue
It's all over my face
And I'm racing
Got to get away from you
Burning all the way home
Try to put it to bed
But it chases
Every little thing I do

When the light falls on you're face don't let it change you
When the stars get in you're eyes don't let them blind you

You're Beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be
Come down to me

Spell it out in a song
Bet you'll never catch on
To my weakness
I'm singing every word for you
Here I'm thinking I'm sly
Then you're catching my eye
And just maybe
You're thinking what I'm thinking too

When you see it on my face don't let it shake you
I know better than to try and take you with me

You're Beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be
Come down to me
Come down to me



Pwitty!!

Love it!!

meep. I'm off again byebye!

Okay, so because my last post today was so short I decided to write here again. I'm just... needing an outlet, so don't pay attention to any of this (unless you feel the need)

I just bought a nice new pink dress for £3, and it looks really nice. It's kinda cool too because if fits right and its a size 14 (UK)- which aint special to many people, but I thought I was a 16/18 so, its well nice. I want to wear it lots, but I don't normaly wear dresses, because my legs are scarry lol, oh well.

I've got a bit of a cold at the moment, which sucks, though it does make my voice kinda low and husky - which I guess is kinda cool. Might call the boyfriend in a bit - I miss him.

I feel totaly pissed off and parnoid about something. I literaly keep looking around all the time. Oh well, I bet some car's driving past and the shadows are changing - I swear I saw SOMETHING move in here... probably a shadow from outside.

Stephy didn't come round today - kinda sucks, but I understand. Last time I spoke to her she was painting which is cool. She's a really awesome artist. If you get chance, check it out - I think she's demonika on here - I forget too easily.
Didn't finish my wings today - I can't decide on the style in which to cover them if I'm honest. Oh well. I'll work sumats out before saturday.

I need to ask Arron if he'll walk me into town at 11pm tomorow... apparently its "Not safe" for me to go on my own. *rolls eyes* Yeh, because I really look like the sort of person to mess with - Jeans, trainers, a T-shirt that says 'step up or step off' and a knife in my pocket, (You didn't just read that bit *wink wink*)
But oh well, its a good excuse to be with him anyway - yeh, Steph, if you're reading this, I'm kinda back with Arron... I think... I dunno - thats why I'm gonna ring him in a bit. So yeh - thats why I was asking about him - not because I don't want to talk to you, but because I'm kinda confused at the mo. Sorry.

   I need to get this sorted.

Meh.
  _
 |
0
   When I saw you there
   I swear my hear stopped
   But you don't see me
   You're worlds topped
   Full of what I'm not
   Away from me
   Away from what we
   Could still be
               _
              |
              0


Hmm, that has potential I guess.

I can't get my head back. It's off in the clouds, looking down on me and dreaming up lovely scenarios where life becomes perfect, and everything I really want is mine.

I'd really like to know why life feels like this hard thing that we have to slug through.
Surely not everyone feels this way?
  I know I don't all the time. Not all the time.

You know that bit in 'Hitch' where Will Smith is like "I know that I want to be miserable, if thats what it takes to be with you" ?? I feel like I'm going through that. Please Goddess let there be a light at the end of this tunnel. I feel like... I had this great thing, and I took advantage of it, then ignored it, and managed to almost to forget it completely - and now I get a little taste again and I just fall apart again, and need it always...

I hate the word 'Always'.
There's a bit in a play called 'Translations'(Which is based in Ireland so half the characters speak Irish and the other half speak English) where an Irish girl ask's what the english word 'Always' means - and the person who knows replies that it's a silly word to start with. It's so true. 'Always' isn't real.
The future is so unsure.
  Thats why I am.
    I think.


You know?

Oh well - too deep maybe.

I'm gonna go down stairs (In my new dress) and ask if I can use the phone.
Sorry for the uber long posty ness.

Sweet dreams to all this night.

Blessed be
love
Sophia xx

WEEE!!

I'm nearly finished with my wings!! They look awesome. Cant wait for halloween - wish Aza was coming... but oh well!!

Have fun!


((Look!! Little post for once!!))

RAWR !!

Time for smelly dairy - ness entry #3!

It's the thursday before half term, and - OMIGOSH I can't stop thinking about this boy! I feel like such a blonde bimbo!
Seriously, anything I think of instantly reminds me of him. I see a water bottle, I think 'My guy prefere's alchohol', I see a book, I think 'Has he read that?'

I'm hopeless.

Might go see him later - if he's in! haha.

I want to ask his sister, since I'm talking to her, if he's about... but that might be a bit rude. Like saying - nice to see you , but I'd really rather see you're brother -  Not gonna happen. I may be a weirdo, but I'm not a saddass too.

       CHOCOLATE SPREAD

sorry - random.

So, my thought for the day (though, I suppose I'm owing a few now) goes something like this:

You may think you're taking one step forwards and two steps back, but you're actualy just going somewhere different. Enjoy it when you get there :)

OOH  and general advice:

When you're feeling like the world is a pile of shit and you can't be arsed with it, just take a little time off to remember all the cool stuff, and then you'll be able to see things with new eyes.


Can't wait for halloween!
  Hoping to get some freinds together for Samhain too (:D:D:D) If u know what that is - MESSAGE ME!!

Did I tell you?? I quit work - it was bugging me too much - plus I don't like working with guys who think that no means yes and that it's their right to feel you up. *rolls eyes*  But all will work out in the end.

EEP!! I'm doing it again. The word 'will' is like the name 'Will' - which is the name of the guy I just broke up with because I want to be with the other guy I cant stop thinking about - and now I'm thinking about that guy again -  bother.

hmm, hope he doesn't read this actualy.
Might put up a sign that says 'Psycho Do Not Read This'.
Interestingly enough that's an impossible command - because if you're to follow it, you have to read it, and by doing so have dissobayed the command...
Little bit of a brain twister in there for you.


           OU(I'm)T

             ^^^
           I'm inside Out

hehe, cause the (I'm) is INSIDE the OUT hehe... yeh - i'll be good.

Sorry.

I love the song 'Come down to me' by Saving Jane at the mo, the chorus goes:

You're beautifull just the way you are
And I love it all, every line and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be
Come down to me.

SO PWITTY!!

Annnyway - I'm being dragged off for a walk in the dark... and the cold... and you know what? I dont think I have a coat! hahaha.

Oh well!

TTFN
loveya

Sophia xx

Here is my smelly diary - ness.

Worked today - oh the joy (NOT). It was sooo slow! OMG.
Still have £20 left tho!! yay!! (okay, so I only got £22 for 6 hours work... but hey, money is money right?)
I bought mum a pink furry steeringwheel cover too. ROXXORS!

So I'm sat here eating raisins and talking to myself, and you - obviously.
Goddess, there's 500g of this stuff... I'll be shittin for hours hahaha.

I write really long entries dont I? loadsa people write like.. one line... me... Several paragraphs. Oh well :D

Its been raining all god damned day.
"Rain is good
Rain is great
Rain is just
Precipitate"
hehe
Its raining as I type... not the good rain with the thunder and the lightning and the whooshy rain that drowns out all other noise, oh no. The drizzle that just keeps going ang going in its own dreary (not to mention BORING) way.
*sigh*
How does that song go? "Take me dancing naked in the rain..." hmm... NO. I think not.

I've lost my phone. My mobile that is. I think its somewhere in my room.
I just remembered now because I went for credit last night with my friend who's scared of the rain. Odd how my brain works.
Anyway. yeh.

    RANDOMNESS IS CONTAGIOUS... OUTRAGEOUS!!
                - Adam

So, I'm starting this thing - Lauren's thought for the day.
(Yeh, I only ever have the one haha)

Thought for the day:

 Life is like a kaliedoscope - full of different shaped and different coloured people. Working together makes life beautifull, but you always get some that are stuck and wont change.

Odd, I know, but hey. My shining people are pretty, like in a kaliedoscope, so there.

I think I need to poo now... too many raisins.
I'll loveya and leave ya

  Sophia x

So tonight is my first night as a part of this site. Odd, but cool.

I feel really wierd tonight for some reason. Like the worlds looking in on its self. That sounds strange, and thats how i feel. Strange.
Wonder why.

Well, today was cool. Saw Steph again, and Sasha... tho thats all really.
Missin my boo, but then, I always have to. Sucks.

I'm listening to Evanescence full blast on my headphones... still kinda quiet really, could do with an amplifier or sumats.
Music is only really loud if its all you can hear and the base or beat is shaking through you :D

I'm starting to like Limp Bizkit lately. Some of it is a lot deeper than 'Rollin'. Wasn't expecting it to be honest.

OH NO!! This song is so how I feel at the mo... learnt how to play it once...

"The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can't sleep,
I need to tell you
Good night
When we're together I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you
I fall apart
All you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue
I cant look away
As we lay in the stillness
you whisper to me
Baby, Marry me
Promise you'll stay with me
Oh you dont have to ask me
you know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you
Stay with you
Some how I'll show you
That you are my
Night sky
I've always been right behind you
Now I'll always be right beside you

So many nights, I've cried myself to sleep.
Now that you love me
I love myself
I never thought I would say that
I never thought there'd be
You..."

*finishes singing along*

I never seem to see you.
Thats how I feel
Like we're heading off in different directions
Like you can live without me
We never have the time.
Thats how I feel
Like we're too busy for each other
Like you don't really need me.
But I need you.
And I love you.
I'll always make the time
trust me that its true
One day we'll be together
Even if its just a day
Then will be just perfect
Now I've nothing to say...

well, thats enough jibberish for one night.
Luv ya's

Sophia