I think i might have to go lie down coz i have a pounding headache... >.<

Mwahahaha i went shopping, walked into town and it was goood! Didnt take long.. now i'm avoiding english coursework! :o as usual....
Anywho got a new dress thing which is gorgeous and £30 worth of make up coz i'm cool like that! XD Yeah all problems can be made better by spending money!! I'm going to wear the dress to school monday.. maybe over jeans maybe not!! XD
In other news i am fed up of being hit on... and harassed via PM by 30 year old guys.. =____= GO AWAY!! lol this is irrelevant to all youz my friends because you know i loves you all! X3

4 messages in the time to write that last entry??? how can that be i only have 1 online friend??? :o

rawr!! XD
I'm off for some retail therapy.. only in my local town, going to walk down (keeping my weight down ya see) and see if this dress i want is still in the shop!! It's so pretty and at heart i love my dresses.. like mega much! XD Plus i need to get out and get rid of some stress.. haven't done much except art for days now and as if that isn't enough i have science and maths papers to work on =___= bleh and exams in about 6 weeks! HELP ME!!!
Art exam is a week on tuesday and i have an engineering presentation two weeks today which should be fuun! I hope we win soe prizes i could do with the cash!! =/ lol!!
I'm having a bit of a teenage crisis at the moment and i really can't wait to get back to school and keep myself busy.. too much time to think at home! And thinking is not good!! Although everything is going to be okay... you know why? My darling Jim is going to ring me today! X3 lol yeah something as simple as that makes my day, but he really is my angel and i can't wait to speak to him! And i hate phones! :o lol
So yeah!! retail therapy, walking and hopefully complete my targets for today! English essay - complete or at least half done, artist studies drawn, last AO1 drawing coloured. *dances* Im actually pretty happy at the moment.. :o in an odd i hate myself sorta way! XD XD
Oh yeah and i'm revamping my house!! Slowly.. just with everything else changing i thought i might change my house around a bit too! =D

lol!!!
i lost another quater of a stone!! XD ugh so much school work i can't wait to finish my AS's and disappear for a while go MIA!! so if i disappear over the summer you know why!! XD

And lol... no posts for about a month!! I love my EP diarty.. i sound so. crazy! XD XD makes me feel happy!! LOL! cheh.. i'm in an oddly bright mood and ZOMG I NEED TO UPDATE MY ET DIARY!! i forgot to tell everone the Amazon packet i'd been waiting for arrived today!! MY BOOKS ARE HERE!! YES!! *is amazingly happy*

Everyone's treating me like glass o_o off one day ill and mike puts my hood up for me coz it's raining and holly makes me promise to keep warm as i walk into town o_o XD Weird!! lol

*HEADDESK HEADDESK HEADDESK*

yeah... I UBER FAILED at my physics test and it's really got to me.. i've never failed at something i've tried so hard at before. It's so demoralising. I want so much to succeed.. and i hate failing more than anything.. *rolls eyes* personality issues...

cheh that is all.

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[January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange]
[January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow]
[January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink]
[February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue]
[February 9th ~ February 18th = Green]
[February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown]
[March 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua]
[March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime]
[March 21st = Black]
[March 22nd ~March 31st = Purple]
[April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy]
[April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver]
[April 21st ~ April 30th = White]
[May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue]
[May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold]
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[June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon]
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[July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow]
[July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink]
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[August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green]
[August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown]
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[*RED*] Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love...and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable. >
[*CREAM*] Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long time.
[*TEAL*] You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead and it is easy for you to make new friends.You are very competitive and love to be first.
[*GREY*] You are attractive and active. You never hide your feelings and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up peoples day. You know what to say at the right time and you have good sense of humor.
[*GREEN*] You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.
[*GOLD*] You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.
[*PINK*] You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.
[*YELLOW*] You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.
[*MAROON*] You are intelligent and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you're patient when it comes to love. Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
[*ORANGE*] You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach and you really work hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have, you sometimes over react that's because you are sensitive.
[*PURPLE*] You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.
[*LIME*] You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.
[*SILVER*] You are imaginative and fun, you love trying new things. You like to challenge yourself and you learn things easily, you're easy to talk to and you give good advice. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.
[*BLACK*] You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.
[*OLIVE*] You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful, people that are easy to talk but don't envy other people easily.
[*BROWN* ]You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.
[*BLUE*] You may have low self-esteem, and can be very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.
[*NAVY* ]You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.
[*WHITE* ]You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes weird, but everyone loves that in you.
[*AQUA* ]Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily. It's hard to find love for you, and you get lost in love easily, Sometimes get hurt by love

I'm pink... and it's so bloody true o_o hopless romantic.. never satisfied... negative thoughts.. tries hard.. cares about people.. cheh.. o_o surprisingly accurate..

lol... and the update for tomorrow never appeared o_o i can only assume i was fine and too busy trying to survive school to do anything about it! XD Anywho next couple of weeks are going to be buuuusy! XD
*Beki's birthday on friday
*Away Next Tuesday to Thursday in Bangor
*Buffet a week on sat
*Manchester a week on sun
*X-mas eve
*CHRISTMAS DAY!! and then all hell breaks loose and i think the rellies are invading.. o_O i will be so FAT i swear i am going to the gym the first day it is open after x-mas.
This is of no relevance but my gym plan for the next few weeks is this:
This wednesday, Sunday class, Next Monday and Thursday and then who knows... XD lol Anywho should be fun!! I can't wait!! *dances* cheh! 

*ish becoming more active again*

yeah so today.. pretty lazy day.. I got up late spent most of the day finishing reading the Hot Gimmick chapters that were scanlated.. buuut they haven't got the latest volume up >.< mega annoying. I waaant to know how it ends!!! It's got really really good and complicated and ahhh! >3< *fumes* stupid slow scanlation.
Anyways appart from that i have a cold.. and it's annoying me.. i sound like a hippo in a birthday cake... seriously.. bunged up nose, headache.. feels like someone's crawled into my brain and stuffed it up with insulation.. MY HEAD DOESN'T NEED INSULATING!!! GO AWAY!!!! yeah that is all.. plus my mum keeps nagging at me about school and i hate it >.< I wish she'd just leave me alone sometimes.. i don't need her going on about homework an how i need to carry on with 5 AS levels until the mocks at least. GRRRR!! majorly.. So yeah then she came in and forced me to sit with my dad and go over my physics homework which i MARJORLY didn't get... i sorta understand it now.. which is better i guess..
but i yelled at my mum, as she was leaving she went "There's a pen and paper there if you want it."
I yelled: "I KNOW! IT'S MY BLOODY DESK I PUT IT THERE!!" She was acting like she'd got it for me when all she'd done is stated that there were items on my desk that had been there for weeks.. i was perfectly aware of their existance ffs.
Yeah i'm slightly stressed now.. so i think i'm going to bed so i don't take it out on my friends tomorrow.. i need to start sleeping more anyways. But yeah so much work to do.. English Lit essay tomorrow *yawn* then the gym which is good and when i get back i have to type up notes on Antony and Cleo and write up a Physics experiment... =___= BOORING.. But cheh... 4 weeks till x-mas *squee* i'm so excited i feel really christmassy this year! 2 months till my bday. London on thursday, chester saturday, party saturday evening! <3 lots to look forward too i guess.. just need to get work out of the way and stop leaving things to the last minute so i get all stressed about them.. and sleep *nods*
Anyways on that note i'll update tomorrow! night! xxx

wow it's been so long since i wrote in a diary.. i shall do a short up-to-dater thing.. yeah <_<

Caving = BLIDDY AWESOME!!!!! It rawked my world.. loveed it! And the people are great hope to see them all in Feb!
Half Term = PHAIL.. i didn't get round to sorting out my life.. finished my room though and went to the Pleasure Beach in Blackpool with Beki which was awesome..
School = STRESSFUL!!! Still working hard at 5 AS levels.. Engineering and a load of other crap..

in other news i've joined the gym which is awesome! Art trip on Thursday! X3 My room is tidy.. still a bit bleh about stuff in general but nothing anyone needs to worry or care about.. i'm ranting at Molly about it and she's being awesome can't wait to see her soon!!! Mangavolume is phailing at the moment which is crap..

Mike's party was awesome!! So was ruth's.. and Tanz's next weekend plus x-mas shopping which should be cool! yayz! It's freezing here.. we had snow on sunday night.. zomg best day EVER!! Sunday night had the snow which was great then monday chilled day at school and then me and Beki went to Chester for a manga con.. we went to look at the market which was cooleh! Some mad swiss guys forced chocolate and hot chocolate on us.. it was so funny! XD The con was great we had an amazing time and stole some oragami boxes which we wore as hats!! coz we're that cool! XP lolz

okays i need to head to bed now.. i'm shivering my ass off!! =( One last thing that Beki will get:

YOUR FACE!!!

<_< >_>

xxx

I made the final cut for the elfpack birthday comp o___O i feel so proud! XD rofl.. even if my suggestion wasn't that great compared to the others! ^___^ *dances*

that is all! =D

I don't normally do EP rambles.. it's normally ET for life rambles EP for anything else i feel needs to be said... although i want to print off both and get them made into a book.. i mean i have a record of all the best and most random bits in the last 2 years of my life which is like ZOMG :o *dies* yup.. just like that! See i don't keep an offline diary unless i'm angry and i need to vent or upset.. so EP & ET is mainly cheery Paper diary is ZOMG depression *nods* mind you the nearest i come to a diary is all my poetry.. i am a poem whore.. anything that happens i write a poem with some strange vague and "turn left at the traffic lights" link to the event which is most probably abouot people and involves a rant at society! =D yay me! And this is getting very random and completely missing the point.. of everything.. i didn't come on here to write this.. at all.. EVER!

ZOMG *DIes* If you are a guy skip this bit.. it's to do with periods and stuff.. *falls off chair* okay i am probably the only person to be amazed by this but i have actually started my period 4 weeks after my last one.. for the first time EVER!!! Normally i have a period every 6 - 8 weeks.. which is good coz period pains are like t3h shitz. Buut this time i had one on a normal time-frame relevant to the world.. it worries me slightly.. my body did something normal.. i mean even my hair is not flicking out at odd angles anymore *le gasp* something is very wrong people.. i think the world may be ending! XD slight over reaction <_< >_> but meh. So yes thats for anyone that wants to know (which is no one) and anyone that cares *again tumbleweed* and yes i have had too much coffee and i did fall asleep for 2 hours when i got in from school.. sleeping patterns = fucked.

Anyways what else? School was okay apart from being so tired i kept falling asleep in lessons.. i shall make it my business not to get "merry" on saturday night/sunday morning and have only 2 hours sleep in about 36.. then attempt homework sunday night andd school monday. Bleh i need to get a holiday form ad sort out my life. I can't wait until half term rolls around and i can get ontop of things. i PHAIL at physics but i'm hoping it'll be like last year and i'll sleep more, revise more and suddenly it will make perfect sense X3 yah! ^__^ stupid git taking 5 A levels *hits self* i'm too stubborn and ambitious.. if i survive this year i DEMAND a medal.

Other news: Chris Crocker is <3 AMAZING! XD rofl i love him so much! I need to get some new PS games at somepoint.. my mum has started paying for my phone! *yay* for more money! =D Christmas is 86 days away and halloween 30 days away.. plus i'm going Cosplaying in november! X3 SOOOO AWESOME! I'm going to have a random collection of costumes.. including a sasori akatsuki one! which will be t3h sex... and since when have i started saying t3h sex and t3h shitz.. *shrugs* ahh well... <_< >_> see something weird is going on! lolz! Anyways i will shut up now! I'm just avoiding starting my english lit essay.. *yawn* I just cba with it.. i'd much rather surf the net and CG.. but i guess i should spend half an hour on it.

[:o i have 5 EP messages... I have NEVER had 5 EP messages.. i'm not that popular! >3< WHAT IS UP WITH THE UNIVERSE! Oh yeah and i'm talking to Josh again.. which makes my life just about perfect at the moment. If i get a boyfriend now i will die from shock.. coz then life would be like ... as perfect as life gets.. this is so.. strange.. and scary and GOOD... =D]

Stolen off [Beki in Wonderland]'s ET diary! XD it amused me so i thought i'd have a go at it!

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car),
Ember Saphira (O___O I prefer Lexxi Scuzz tbh!) 

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie),
Cookie Dough Shortbread (roflmao!!!)

3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
A-Par (sounds like a golfing term >.<)

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal),
Blue Wolf (hehe cool! X3) 


5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Eva St.Albans (O____o i would hate to be called that! *kills middle name*) 

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Resal (DL!!! that amuses me waaay too much! XD) 

7. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The" + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink),
The Red Rum (oh yes! XD The Red rum saves the day!) 


8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers),
Jim Pop (My grandad and my great grandad's names my other grandad walked out on my dad when he was 3 and i have just realised neither of those are my granddad's real names.. if i was using their real names i'd be James Lewis.. but Jim Pop is cooler!) 


9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Davidoff Humbug (ROFL!)


10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother's & father's middle names ),
Lavina Edward (*dies*)


11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher's last name, a major city that starts with the same letter),
Dunstall Dublin (remind me never to become a weather woman)


12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower).
Winter Orchid (sounds like a good name for a book.)
 
13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you're wearing right now + "ie" or "y")
Strawberry Jeansy (XD i like that!)


14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree),
Latte Silver Birch (sounds like an American Indian name to me!) 


15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: ("The" + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + "Tour"),
The Writing Snowstorm Tour... (ugh)

PROBLEM SOLVED!

hello people! I am going to spazz and die now coz Heroes is amazing! I just watched the latest ep on Three and i was like ZOMG!! *dies* I still fangirl Peter and Hiro so much and i love the new trampy guy that has appeared.. okay non of that is spoilers and i'm going to stop rambling before i do spoil the plot for anyone as Three is about 2 eps ahead of BBC 2 now.. or 1 w/e other channel they show it on! X3 and I'm also going to spazz because i've been the happiest these last couple of days that i've been in ages! =D which is fan-fabulous! I've made a decision that is selfish to hell and i am loving it! XD Plus Josh is out of my life for good. As far as i'm concerned he's dead to me and good riddence i say! Now this is making me seem a horrible person i know but i'm one of those easy going people that is always thinking about making others happy and how they feel and bottling up my own feelings so i go through really depressed stages and talk to no one about them.. and blah blah blah really. Right now i have no close friends but i don't mind! It's so much better now i can just be myself and i've hung out with so many cool people these last couple of days i think that maybe i'm perfectly happy with my life and whats happening it.. which i haven't been for so long. I spent too much of my time worrying about other people that it actually built up on me so much i spent more time wanting to kill myself than i did having fun! But this is a new year (school year) and a new leaf and i'm grabbing it by the horns. I'm not going to worry about having close friends. I have people i can chat to and in 2 to 3 years i'll be off to uni anyways! I need to knuckle down thoough coz i have my eyes set on cambridge doing architecture and there is a 1 in 12 acceptance rate. So i've taken 5 AS levels and i really need to get As in all of them. I'm starting to feel the pressure but i'm taking it in my stride and i'm going to get organised this weekend! (For real! :o) lol
Anyways i have no idea what i am rambling about and th future's boring i need to copy out some notes for Matt and hit the hay.. actually no i'm going to do something for my brother.. coz he asked me too.. and i love him really. Thats the other thing i'm majorly close to my family at the moment! My dad's away alot and my mum get's really upset by it.. i mean i cna cope but i am stupidly independant it has been said! For example in the next month i think i'm seeing him for an hour this sunday and thats it.. o__O so yeah.. i'm having to do more work at home.. alot more responsibility but i feel i've grown up alot and i can cope! =D I'm actually enjoying being relied upon by my mum! It gives me a feeling of worth! XD
Anyhoo.. i'm off to potter the net write those notes and do that thing (it's art based so you never know i mmight upload it to here or DA depending on how it turns out!)

I FEEL CRAP

Arrr! I be commendeering this from [Beki in Wonderland]!!

I'm a Fabulous Pornstar who will do anything for sex!! hehe ROFL!!

Now you try!

1st letter of 1st name

A- Fabulous
B-Gorgeous
C-Pretty
D-Popular
E-Gangster
F-Girly
G-Dyke
H-Sweet
I-Retarded
j-Emotional
K-Lovely
L-Beautiful
M-Slutty
N-Preppy
O-Hot
P-Gay
Q-Punky
R-Hot
S-Sexy
T- Very Sexy
U-Ugly
V-Wonderful
W-Geeky
X-Bitchy
Y-Under-appreciated
Z-Over-appreciated


Now the Third letter in your middle name (if you dont have one use your last name):

A-pornstar
B- skank
C-Bitch
D-Obsesser
E-Fucker
F-Retard
G-Queen
H-Slut
I-Girl
J-Goth
K-Nerd
L-Motherfucker
M-Sex machine
N-Alcoholic
O-Geek
P-Babe
Q-Crackwhore
R- Beauty queen
S-Prince (ess)
T-Whore
U-Cry Baby
V-Jackass
W-Punk
X-Scardy Cat
Y-Coward
Z-Chocoholic


Now What Color Is the Shirt You Are Wearing:

Red- Who's Good With My Hands
purple- Who Looks At Porn 24/7
Orange- Who Likes It In The Butt
Yellow- Who Wants To Have Sex With You
Green- Who will do anything for Sex
Pink- Who Will Rock Your World
blue- Who wants to fuck everyday
White- Who everyone wants to screw
Brown- Who Wears Big Sunglasses
Black- Who Will Do Anything For Crack
Gray- who gives great head
None-who is a beast in bed

NOW REPOST THIS WITH THE NAME & STATEMENT YOU GOT
BEGINNING WITH " I'm a

I'm freeezing! lol may be because i'm sitting around in my pirate costume but the cold air coming out of the chimney doesn't help! So i'm going to snuggle into my nice new bed! X3

lol just 2 things to mention about today: The bus-pass incident! I thought i'd lost my discount card for the bus and me and neil were looking everywhere for it. Then the bus came so i decided i'd just have to hope i had enough money! Guess what? As i got on the bus i found it! where you ask? not somewhere normal.. noo that'd be too easy.. it was up my sleeve -__- i meant wtf?? why do i keep putting stuff up my sleeve? I always find stuff i've lost there and i don't even notice i've done it!

2) my mum said they have jobs going in Tesco on a tuesday and friday so i'm going to get an application form tomorrow! =D yay! More money! and BOA ticket soon too! X3

So yeah loving life! Pictures and/or vid of pirate day to come tomorrow! Tarrah!
Love ya! xxx 

short ramble as i am exhausted and lacking in rum... bah. i need more before wednesday.

Jack made me laugh he said to me tonight (he's 7 i was babysitting)"I hope i still know you when i'm a famous footballer. I should do. I want you to babysit my kids if i have any." I was like o___O aww... but i'm going to be in my 30s by the time he has kids.. 9 years age difference... o__O i shall have kids of my own. hehe! bless

Now to get off the pc and go to bed.. i blame matt... he talks to me waaay too much and is a night dweller as well >.<