It's been an ok day. Not going to lie. I had meat for the first time in like 2 weeks. I'm happy. However, I am still worried about thursday. For on thursday i get to learn if its ulcers or cancer or what it is. I'm scared.

I'm so sick of being sick. I need no stress yet there is a point where i just can't turn my back. There are certain people that i can't leave and i have no idea why. It's driving me crazy. I'm also scared that i might have cancer. It honestly scares me beyond reason. I am fighter i know that but if i do have cancer i'm already tired of the fight. All i want is for people to take into account how they effect me. Yes, i am a girl(young woman) whatever the hell you want to call it. And yes i do have a mind of my own and i intend to stand up for what i believe in. Yes i will fight with you if i feel like i'm being controled get used to it. I'm done being Little Miss Submissive.

I'm so tired of all the damn drama. Yes i know that i cause most of my own drama but then there are times where i just want to get away from it and yet no. I need no more stress, fear, or anything else.

Being single sucks at times. I'm not going to lie. I do miss having someone to talk to. Then at times i don't miss it at all. I like my freedom, and the not tied down thing, but then again, i wish i had had someone to be there for me when i was in the ER. Honestly is this too much to ask for?

ok don't get me wrong, guys are great but honestly its not women that cause the damn drama. is it a crime to own up to bein the cause of drama?! Seriously half the time we women will own up to it just because we can't stand to hear you bitch about it anymore.

i just don't know. i wish people would just keep their drama to themselfs. I mean honestly i don't want to deal with it anymore