Today was really emotional for me because of my gloomly boyfriend. He hasn't been his normal self, I mean mondays I'm use to him being grumpy because he hates mondays like most people do.Before I went for lunch I hugged him and asked what was wrong because he was more grumpy than normal and he looked upset as well. He told me that he didn't want to talk to me about it, and that hurt me. I felt so upset that he couldn't talk to me about it but then a reminded myself that when he is ready he will talk to me. So I left him to be all gloomy and I asked Cherene a girl in my class to talk to Chris because he trusts her. And I found out that he feels like the spark bewteen me and him has gone...and that our date two weeks ago didn't go as he planned. But I was really tired that day because I didn't get enough sleep, also people in my class where coming to me with their problems and that just put me in a even darker mood than I was already in. So by dinner I just really wanted to go to Sean and Racheal's because it's like a save place for me to be where I don't have to worry about anything. And he asked Cherene if I talk about him, which I do...alot. I'm just worried that I'm losing him. I just feel like crying...I've never felt like this not even when I was dating Anna, my ex girlfriend. I just wish he would talk to me about it but I know he won't, I want to talk to him about it but I know he will just push me away. So I've been giving him his place alot of space, I haven't been hugging, kissing or anything with him. But if he does break up with me I will let him go because I won't force him into staying with me but I'll still be his friend.

I'm sorry I've been ranting and none of you need to be bothered with my problems but...I just needed to get it all out...right am going to cry for a little bit...

How I feel right now....just sad...and worried.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZzmTFBPMhk8

Right am not aloud to leave too early but I'll be getting out in 2 hours then I'll get ma bus back home :-D so I'll be online an hour earlyer than normal :-D

Hey guys :D

Right YOU all need to know this cause some of you might be happy or annoyed lol

Anyways if you remember when I went back to college after the x-mas hols, I came home early on a tuesday thats because I can't do higher maths or english because I'm on a lower course so they can't make me to the tests. So there is really no point me even going in for maths and english on tuesdays. So my college teacher, Sharon was meant to ask Ann the head of the business course to find out if I can leave college early on tuesdays, well Sharon forgot but she talked to Ann yesterday so I'll find out today. I'll put up a diary entry saying if I'm coming home or not after my 10am break :D So keep in mind that I might be able to get online earler than normal :)

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Hey guys :D

Right I have a test on Monday so I have to go study now but I'll be back later :)

Hey guys :)

Right I have a few things I need to get done today before I never rp properly!
List of things to do:
~ Wash the dishes >.<
~ Clean my room (which will never happen lol)
~ Go pay some bills (store cards are evil >.<)
~ See if my ordered books have arrived at the book store :D and get some flash cards to quiz myself on college stuff :/

Ummmm.....yeah thats pretty much it, so yeah I'll be back as soon as I can :D

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Hey guys :D

Right well I'll be back home tomorrow about 3-ish in the afternoon my time. I just thought you would all like to know that :D So yeah I'll see ya all tomorrow when I get home ^^

Thanks with love

Michelle xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey guys :)

Right well as some of you know I kind of got the wrong dates of mine and Chris's two month anniversary, well tomorrow is mine and Chris's two month anniversary :D He is taking me to dinner after college then we'll be catching the bus to Chirnside with my mate Robert to hang out with mates. So I will NOT be online until late Sunday afternoon (my time).

I will be online just before I go to college :D

I'm well happy cause I got out of college early! Since I am doing higher maths and english my teacher can't give me tests, so it's is pointless me even being in those classes! So I'll finish college at 12! How awesome is that?!?! :D

Hey guys :D

Right well I haven't been getting much sleep this whole week because I'm having to get back into the college routen sleeping pattern. And right now my eyes are falling closed like every few mintues. So I'm going to sleep but I'll be back in the morning (my time). Night All :)

Okay things are better. Chris told me this morning over texts while I was on the bus that he was coming in today and that he wasn't going to drop out of college, even if he failed Phil's test. Oh! Both me and Chris passed our test in Phil's class! :D Anyways I did talk to my college teacher and she told me that I should ask my admin and business teachers for advice but she thinks I should go for admin course next year. So I'm leaning that way at the moment. I'll think over it this weekend when I'm visiting Sean, [**Yummy**Mummy**], the godkids and my bf Chris.
Oh! And I almost forgot that today isn't mine and Chris's two month anniversary, it's in about 9 days. I just got the dates mixed up hahahahaha! I had such a blonde moment lol xD And yes if you are wondering I did get lots of cuddles and one kiss off him today :D

*sighs* Boyfriend problems!!!
My boyfriend, Chris, he texted me when I had just got asleep saying that he won't be in college today and asked me to texted him if he passed the test we did in class yesterday. So I texted him saying I'll call him but he never picked up, so I finially told him why dose he think he'll fail? He told that he wasn't good at computers and he wanted to do an Art course. So I getting kind of annoyed and very tired. So I tryed to call two more times and he still didn't pick up. SO I said I would help him with databases and spreedsheets, and told him that he HAS to be in college today. So hopefully he will be because I'm going to have a talk with that boy! Grrrr...and if life wasn't bad enough am worrying about what course to do next year. And my mum might lose her job because her boss doesn't think she is fit to work, so she is going to a doc soon to see if she is or isn't fit to work. What a great way to start my two month anniversary with Chris :/ I better get a hug and a kiss today off him!!!!

Got a big scare today at college! On the 21st of March is when you have to have your College application form in. My college class was told that this year will be hard to get into, there will be fierce competition to get into college next year. I was like all "Oh my fucking god!" I couldn't believe that I have until March, which may seem a long time away but it's not, to pick a course I want to do next year. So I have picked two courses but I can't choose which one tho! It's either NC Administration & IT or NC Business & IT. Grrrrr......has to have this in by next monday as well (well thats if I want to get in next year) >.< Evil time limets on College applications >:/

Oh But I have good news! On Tuesday 11/1/11 will be mine and my bf, Chris's two month anniversary! :D I know I'm so happy but I just hope we last...

Hey guys *yawns*

Sorry but I have been up for 20 hours and I really need to get some sleep. So yeah I'm going to bed now but I'll be back online when I wake up :) Night

Thanks with love

Michelle xxxxxxxxxxx

hey guys :)

Now I have sent ALL of my friends on here a wiki page link called Colour my hair......what?. It's about dyeing, styling and hair tips for girls and guys. It will be to help anyone that is thinking of changing their hair and trust me their will be a lot of help because I have put up youtube vids, pictures and....get ready for it pretty soon I will put up a vid of me...yes ME dying my own hair! :O Shocker I know but it will be awesome! :D So yeah check it out even if it is just to take a look :) Again here is the link ------> Colour my hair......what?

Thanks with love

Michelle xxxxxxxx

hey Guys :)

Well my x-mas hols are over :/ and I have to go back to college now >.< But the good thing is I'm only at college two days this week, today and tomorrow then I'm off! Whoop Whoop :P

Thanks with love

Michelle xxxx

Hey guys :)

Thats me at Sean and Rach's, had my dinner and a few laughs. Can't wait for tomorrow cause I might be seeing my bf that's if he's not too busy :) I'll be on and off ep for the next few days :)

Thanks with love

Michelle xxxx

Hey guys ^^

I won't be online until the 2nd of next month :) Cause I'm going to Sean and [**Yummy**Mummy**]'s house for new years eve pary tomorrow, so I have to help out and stuff :D So laters and have a great new years eve party ^^

Thanks with love
Michelle xxxxxxxxxxx