When it rains it pours. I Don't mean to sound so cliche but it's true. The trick is not letting it get to you, but trying your best to deal with it while observing who is there to help you as well. Friendships can be lost, but others made stronger. Just be wise in your decisions. Sometimes the right choice is one we'd rather not want to make. But Don't worry, it all turns out for the better in the long run. Whats hard now gets easier with time. Selflessness will get you somewhere eventually, but selfishness gets you somewhere now but at a cost. I choose to remain selfless because it's just right in my mind. If i get fucked over it's because people close to me choose to do so. So should i be more selfish? is it my fault i get walked on? in a way yes, i should have chosen those friends a bit more carefully, but for the most part no. Let people be selfish, let them walk all over other just to get what they want. The words of these betrayers tell me i should change, but i don't see it necessary. I may not have everything i want but i do have the loyalty, trust, and respect of many. Why should i give that up for a girl, a job, or a new friend. Never, Not in this life. Everyone has their own idea of right and wrong, but even we bypass our own beliefs and ethical ideas to get what we want sometimes. Those who are truly unselfish will give up for the good of themselves and those around them while others just don't care. These are the people you must watch out for. They may be your best friend, or family member, or someone you are generally close to, but i ask you to observe. If they seem to be overly selfish, take precautions. Don't fall into my position where it's too late. don't get fucked over. Choose your friends wisely, and when your done look them over one more time. not out of disrespect but to make sure that no one has the capacity to destroy you. I'm sorry i kept rambling but to anyone that reads this i post it because i care. I care for my friends and family no matter what, but i don't want this to come to any of you. It's a horrible sense of betrayal, and loss of friendships that no one should have to go through. But at the same time i have made stronger bonds with other friends i know and hope will give me the same loyalty honesty and respect i give them. I just ask you all to be careful. The amount of selfish people that walk into our lives becomes more and more each day, and if you're as selfless as i am, you will get fucked if you're not careful. Being kind hearted, Is it worth it? i know it is.

Whoa! so not used to writing in diaries...or journals but wtf ill give it a shot. Moving out in 2 weeks officially and i can't wait. Gonna post a few pics of the house once my friend, his borther, and i have settled in, and a few more pics of the the party we'll be throwing once we move in. So look out for those every now and then. well im out. it's like 3 in the morning and i havent slept in 2 days so g night n00bz! =P

zomg im moving soon! =D

dear diary...im drunk as fuck rofl. l8rs u waste of time diary bitch. XD im so outnif it rigjht now lolz