I cant sleep i cant eat i cant think straight im going down the wrong path im trying my hardest to pick myself up again but sumhow i have led myself to think that i need sumone in my life other than God but unfortunatly that is not true things are about to turn around .... materialistic things are no good to me all i have ever wanted is someone to love me for me but it seems like now days all ppl care about is how you look well you have seen a picture of me and how i look but you judge always yea im a very tenderhearted person ppl know that so they always seem to play with my heart my head is spinning and circles and i have a hole as big as a golf ball in my heart i want to see the other reflection of me the one that God see's that i cant ... i try and try and its never good enough for ne ones perspective but i have learned that in life God intentionally gives you sour rotten lemons becuz he wants you to learn from your mishaps and mistakes and me well i have and now seen the reflection i have been longing to see i love you Curtis E. Shelley and when your ready for me ill still be here but idk if i can wait forever and im not saying i will its just i truely love you with all my heart and more
Yours Truely
♥Meagan
wow cant believe this lol .... im happy and scared at once =)
he is amazing sweet and so good to me im so happy and i want to stay this way forever
sumtimes you think about the good and the bad and then you put them together what ppl say to you , you want to believe them but you still wanna get your feet wet a lil i juss wish that ppl would except me for me not judge my appearances and take the time to know the real me
im fucken pissed how could sumone be so fucken shallow why do you have to toy with my heart be a fucken man and grow up i knew this would happen so fuck you
never ever think your happy till you look from every angle becuz there is bound to be sumthing screwed up sumwhere ... i loved him gave it my all and im sittin here going crazy outta my mind but its okay dont worry ill be fine i just need time .... when life gives you a reason to cry make sure you give it a reason to laugh and smile ... even if it kills you inside
though i thought that he would forget about me in the 84 days that he was in there i was wrong and im still loving him he is my baby im his baby gurl and i dont want that to change i love him alwayz will yay
=P finally happy
Meagan
yay matt's outta jail i missed you so much babe love you .... yay =]
i dont understand i love him doesnt he know this grrr why do i alwayz end up in this situation