how did this get so far?
i swore i wldnt let it
not again
it hurts, it stings, it rips, it burns
pain pours through the holes of my soul
i see my heart in front of me
held together with so many loose threads
vulnerable to all the damage of the world
every possible trama
and yet all there is is you
the simple excruitiating beauty of you
and everything about the person you are
...its almost too much
you see my thread bare heart
you pick it up so tenderly
and you promise...
you promise to never leave
to be the one,
to never hurt me again
and as your promises weave into my mind
and intertwine my soul
you squeeze, you tear, you pull
my heart is nothing but a pile of unrecognizable pieces
...and you're not done
you tell me exactly what i've always known
im not good enough...im not worth it
and you leave me...broken, beaten, and alone
then in your wake, i know...
im everyone's favorite
favorite to hurt, favorite to break
they all love to see me cry
every tear a sign of defeat
they love to pull me apart
rip me apart piece by piece
they cant help but love to throw every bit of my fragile soul
into the ash that once was my life
until i am stripped bare of every tender thought, every happy memory
they didnt mean it when they said they loved me...
i know they didnt...
just like i know you didnt mean it when you looked into my eyes
and i saw the world reflected back
i just know...because they all left
just like you did...
you were so special, but not original
one more broken promise...one more dose of pain
just another death ripping from the inside out
...just one more
but with every silent scream burning through my body
i make a promise i know i'll break (just like you did)
i will never let it get this far again
i swear
not again...
days within eternity
seconds last an hour
something here has changed again
sweet kisses have turned sour
blindly listen to the silence
brush away the fear
if you begin to tremble, love
remember that im near
black roses hold no secrets
just thorns to take your blood
a single tear falls down your face
yet it could cause a flood
your heart has once been shattered
and so then was your soul
i'll sew our pieces together
broken hearts can make a whole
love is once more calling
listen to the silent ring
one haunting intricate melody
it creates a hard song to sing
there's no hiding from the moon, love
so dance once more, dont cower
these are days within eternity
where seconds last an hour
o the pain...
never learn
new addiction
senseless tears
truest fiction
love unravels
fall apart
drug of love
courses through my heart
motionless shiver
silent cough
my deadly drug
please cut me off
drug of choice
yet never mine
i need you now
here's your sign
something changed
i still try
but you aren't near
im running dry
future dim
i'll live without
im emptiness
grows my doubt
attempt to recover
swallow the pill
leason learned
withdraws kill
CRYSTAL EYES
life reflected
my soul flies
happiness exists
in crystal eyes
love unbound
my heart cries
lost inside
your crystal eyes
pain is gone
no broken sighs
i feel safe
seeing crystal eyes
i am unworthy
one thousand tries
im not enough
for crystal eyes
forever and more
till all else dies
i'll stay locked inside
your crystal eyes
NO PAIN IN LOVE
The stage was set
So simple there
Across the room
The chosen stare
It started out
So slow and steady
My "love" began
I was unready
You cared so much
You were always there
I noticed it first
A simple scare
I missed one date
I thought no big deal
But I didn’t know
How it would make you feel
You screamed so loud
I was against the wall
The sting of a hit
But you didn’t mean it at all
"I still love you baby"
You whispered with care
I simply believed you
As you stroked my hair
It happened again
This time a punch
Yet I believed you once more
"Baby, I love you a bunch"
My insides all hurt
You were twisted, I was crying
I began to realize the truth
The love for you was dying
I escaped to a friend’s
I let it all spill
The pain was exposed
I felt truly ill
She gave me the strength
I didn’t know how
Independence restored
I could leave you now
I haven’t talked to you since
My life is my own
My new boyfriend must deal
With all the pain I have known
I saw you today
It nearly opened the sore
I remembered the fact…..
I’m not yours anymore
YOU'RE MY DRUG
o the pain
withdrawls
holding tight
talking now
deep in night
love is pain
they were right
hold me close
hold me tight
holding me
never leave
started to
couldn't breathe
when ur away
i couldn't stand
you're my drug
ur in demand
hugging u
now we kiss
when ur here
its simple bliss
i hope u know
but heres a clue
the song was great
i love u too
if u have secrets u need to tell
we can talk all day long
if ur dreams get broken somehow
i'll remind u that u belong
if u need someplace to hide
u can hold my hand for a while
if ur sky begins to fall
i'll stay with u until u smile
whenever u need some space
there's my room, u can take it
if someone goes and breaks ur heart
together we'll unbreak it
when u feel sad or empty inside
i'll show u ur not alone
if u get lost out there
i'll come and take u home
i'll go with u somewhere else
when u need to get away
and when nothing seems to be going right
and u need a friend...i'll stay
by savannah b.
O.D. CASE
o the pain
you were my drug
you were in demand
without you there
i cldnt stand
but now ur gone
not coming back
i fell to the floor
my world was black
i slowly straighten
trying to stand tall
my pain was receeding
giving a final retreat call
i saw what you were
all the times you had to lie
my breath runs through my lips
in a single broken sigh
our love was fake
but the pain was real
i know that u cheated
and how that made me feel
my heart was broken
i was in need
too bad for me
i just o.d.ed
love notes burn
while the emotion spurs the fire
bittersweet
like what you taste of desire
people die
with no afterglow of life
fake a smile
falsehood dripping off the knife
sincere lies
burn me through and through
pain within
lack of love bursts anew
broken hearts
painful pulling of the stitches
tears run dry
emotion gone like lost riches
sorrow grows
against it you have no chance
life replaced
by a simple razorblade romance