I need you tonight..

So lately, been wondering who will be there to take my place.
When i'm gone, you'll need love to light the shadows on your face <333

One man's fuck up is another man's golden opportunity!

Thank God you blew it, thank God I dodged a bullet!!!!!!

Last night I had a dream, I told you how I felt. Told you how when i'm with you it's my heart that melts.
I watched it all play out, the rest of our lives. my life was wonderful, you were by my side.

Should I just give up or should I just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads no where...

I really fucked it up this time, didn't I my dear? :/

......

21. Turned someone down:
Yeah.
22. Cried when someone died:
Yes.
23. Fallen for a friend:
Yes.

Your future
24. Want kids:
Already in the middle of brewing one, I want 2 :)))
25. Get married:
Nope, I never want to get married. I think it's a pointless insitution.
26. Career:
I want to be a youth worker to help teens with addictions, like I had.

which is better
27. Lips or eyes:
Eyes <3333
28. Hugs or kisses:
Hugs <333
29. Shorter or taller:
Taller.
30. Older or younger:
Older.
31. Romantic or spontanious:
Both :)))
32. Nice stomach or nice arms:
Nice arms?? WTF?? O.o
33. Sensitive or loud:
Both :L

Firsts
34. Piercing:
My ears.
35. Best Friend:
Jade McFaul.
36. Sport you joined:
Hockey.
37. First vacation:
Butlins :D

Right Now
38. Eating:
Nothing, for once LOL
39. Drinking:
Nothing.
40. I'm about to:
S'plode!!!
41. Listening to:
Rihanna - We found love....It was filmed close to where I live ^^
42. Waiting for:
Text messages.

Misc
43. Favourite band:
The cure ^^
44. Height:
Tall for a girl LOL I'm 5foot 8inches
45. Do you have a crush on someone:
Yes, unfortunately.
46. What do you like about yourself:
Nothing....I dunno.
47. Piercings:
I've had loads, only have my lip bar in now though :)
48. Tattoos:
I have a few ^^
49. Righty or lefty:
Righty.
50. Relationship:
Single...not so ready to mingle :L
...........

Questions :D

1. Had more than one bf/gf at one time:
Nope I have not.
2. Did you sing today:
I'm singing right now.
3. Ever cheated one somebody:
Yes, I have :/
4. Would you go back in time:
I'd love to, like Bill & Ted or Marty McFly :D
5. What moment would you choose:
I dunno, there are too many!
6. Are you afraid to fall in love:
I'm afraid of getting hurt.
7. Do you like the way you look:
Sometimes, not all the time.

Believe in
8. Yourself:
In what way exactly???
9. Miracles:
Not exactly.
10. Love at first sight:
No. Lust not love.
11. Heaven:
I believe you go somewhere...
12. Santa Clause:
Obviously.
13. Kissing on the first date:
Yes lolololol
14. Angels:
Nooo.

Have you ever
15.Kissed a stranger:
Yeah, quite a few :L
16. Drank hard liquor:
lololololol
17. Lost glasses/contacts:
Yes -.-
18. Sex on the first date:
OMG lol
19. Broken someone's heart:
I think so.
20. Been arrested:
Yesssss -.-
................

It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or by a mile, winning is winning - Vin Diesel

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyong measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Depress-Ohhh

The things I need to say will never be heard. They will linger in the deepest recessess of my mind forever but my body, my body is his. my mind shall never scream the words I long to say. They will always remain within the very depths of my unstable physicy.

Never trust anyone. People were made to lie && deceive each other. What you want will inevidably change, nothing is ever perminant. Nobody is perfect, always look after number one. Don't fall in love, you'll just get hurt. Never bare your soul, you'll just get destroyed. Everyone is judging you, but who are you judging?

First of the year {Equinox}...

And once again, I give away too much and get nothing in return.
I feel stupidand also irritated, cross and many other emotions that I'm not sure I
can describe.
I think I let my imagination run wild which I shouldn't do when I'm vaunerable.
God, I feel so so stupid. I feel like I've been such a fool, like I had expectations that were totally false.
I should completely just forget everything and go back to myself....

Got Skrillex on the speakers and the bass up HIGH!!! Let's do this DIARY!!!!!

How come I forget you when you're always on my mind?
How come I do not want you when you are all I want inside?
How come i let you go when I can't see us apart?
How come I do not love you when you control my heart?

Sometimes I listen to my head because my heart keeps getting it wrong.

Road To RuIN!!
How can we make you understand all you can be is given in your hand..You won't need.
Trust in me, take me by the hand. Dreams are strewn across the sand, you won't need money.
Well all the bent-back peddlars, the jugglers and fools, they're driving me crazy. I'm climbing
the walls. Oh show me the way, the way to my stool 'cause i'm so sick, just so sick of it all. And when
the penny drops.....Trust in me, take me by the hand.

~Always be yourself, unless you can be Batman, always be Batman.

~Hey! Mario! Remember me? I wasted my childhood saving your Girlfriend!! >.<

~Saying "I'm almost there" when you haven't even left the house.

~Yelling your own name during sex because you're that fucking awesome.

~I hate it when I walk outside and a cow throws a fridge at me =.=

LOLzzzzz...

Listening to dubstep (mainly Skrillex) and the baby is loving it, I can feel Smudge moving about ^^
You Go Little DUDDDEEEEE <33333

Week 18...and 3days

Hello week 18 of pregnancy :D This week my little womb tenant is about 15cms long and fully moving about like a wee trooper :D The little one can do some complex things now, like frown and somersault :D I can deffinatly say my little one has mastered the somersaults :L

This week Smudge is also starting to get covered in gross stuff called Vernix which will keep the skin from goin all wrinkly like sittin in a bath for too long :D

This week I'm also looking like Buddha and waddling like Pengu <333333

Read all about it

I'm not censoring myself for nobody,
I'm the only thing I can be,
All that is good, all that is bad, all that is me, Oh.
I wanna sing, I wanna shout,
I wanna scream til the words dry out
So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid.

:))))

This week my baby is the size of an onion :D

Onion Smudge ^^

BABBBBBBBBY SMUUUUUUDGEEEE

Today I am 17weeks and 5days into my pregnancy and I felt my first "startle". It was amazing :D
I can feel little Smudge moving and making my tummy flutter ^^ I've never been so proud :)

Also, It may be a tad premiture but I have completed nesting (will get pics up asap) I have went a tad mental but my baby is worth every single penny :D

My little sisters have started singing and talking to bump, even though it can't fully hear yet (still waiting on those wee ear drums to toughen up)

Roll on week 18 and all the excitment it has to offer <3

Hiiyah Baby

Hello week 14 of pregnancy...
I cannot wait til I can feel my little Smudge, Got my bump on the go now :D
Soooo excited//terrified lol
My little smudge is the size of a lemon this week XD

Linzi Likes(Y)
Lucozade, Chicken Teriyaki, Bracelets, Chicken Nuggets, Smoothies, BBQ Sauce, Nivea, To Laugh, HeadBands, Zombieland, Dazed and Confused, The "BAD GUY" In Most Movies, Hoodies, Taking Pictures, Vanilla Oatmeal, Baby Lotion, Brushing My Teeth, Writing, Photography, BAM MARGERA, Gladiator Sandals, DOLCE & GABANNA THE ONE, Trampolines, Hot Tub Parties, Steak, Movies....& I Don't Know 

Linzi Dislikes(N)
Cold, Lakes, Sand, Sunblock, Cheaters, Fish, Most Girls, Slaughterhouse-5, Greasy Hair, Yellow Teeth, Opera, When People Don't Text Me Back, Not Having Money, When People Make Fun Of My Voice, People Who Can't Spell, Needy People, Clingy People, Heat, Feeling Sick, And Probably More, I Dislike ALOT

I'm not most girls...
- I have completed exactly 47 Sudoku puzzles in my life - I can eat more chocolate/chocolate covered/chocolate infused products than anybody I know - My biggest ambition is to learn how to surf, and then hopefully the rest of my life will fall into place, allowing me to live by the beach and surf everyday for the rest of my life!

New Tattoo

So, I got drunk on friday night in Belfast, and Emmi <3 thought it would be a good idea to get tattoo's.
I now have a lovely Liam Neeson quote on my tummy (which btw, worst area to get a tattoo!!) If anyone has seen the movie Taken you may already know what I'm gonna say...I got the infamous "I will look for you, I will find you & I will kill you" forever inked on my rather wobbly stomach!

Can I get a CAPITAL F-A-I-L ...or WIN depending how you view it, I find it rather amoosing >.< though I reckon soon enough I will regret it :L

:D Things that make me smile....

Numero Uno... [Eternal Sunshine] I <3 ReiRei...
Two. Justin Bieber (I don't care if I'm 21..He's FAB :D )
Three. FACEBOOK I am 100%% addicted to FB....
Four. Malteasers ^_____^ Ohh soo nomnomnommy <3
Five. Cute animal vidoes on you tube...D'awwwh too coote

^^

6.. Unexpected texts//Texts that make you grin at your phone like a MENTAL.PATIENT!! (Jonny Mckee does it to moi!)
SeVeN. Laverys Bar in Belfast(ROCK)City!! Best bar in the WORLD <3
Eiiight. Day's out with Fifi Craig <3 ... always the best days ...

CAM.WHORES!!

Nine. Falling asleep curled up around a HAWT man! :p Grrrrrr!!
TEN.... ALL OF YOU GUYS >_<  

The other 50....

51. Experience weightlessness. - DONE
52. Sing a great song infront of an audience. - DONE
53. Ask someone you've only just met to go on a date. - DONE ...They said No D:
54. Drive across America from coast to coast.
55. Make a complete & Utter fool of yourself. - DONE ...on a daily basis :L
56. Own a very expensive but absolutly wonderful business suit
57. Write your will
58. Sleep under the stars. - DONE
59. Take a ride on the biggest rollercoaster you can find. - DONE
60. Learn how to complain effectively, and use it.
61. Go wild at the Rio Carnival.
62. Spend the whole day reading a great novel. - DONE
63. Forgive your parents
64. Learn to Juggle with 3 balls.
65. Drive an Autobahn.
66. Find a Job you love.
67. Spend xmas on the beach drinking pina coladas
68. Overcome my fears.
69. Make a raft, and sail it. - DONE
70. Donate money * put your name on something, i.e. a park bench
71. Buy your own house & spend money making it exactly as you want it.
72. Grow a garden.
73. Get your body into optimum shape.
74. Drink a convertible with the top down & music blarring.
75. Accept yourself for who you are.
76. Give a speech in public. - DONE
77. Scuba Dive off Australia's Great Barrier Reef.
78. Go up in a hot air-balloon
79. Attend one really large rock concert. - DONE ...been to several :D
80. Kiss someone you've just met. - DONE ... do that most weekend's tbh!
81. Be able to handle; your tax forms, Mormons, your banker, telephone solicitor's
82. Give to charity. - DONE
83. Lose more money than you can afford at Roulette in Vegas.
84. Let someone feed you grapes. - DONE
85. Kiss the Blarney stone & develope the gift of the gab.
86. Fart in a crowded space. - DONE ...all the time :D
87. Make love on the kitchen floor. - DONE
88. Go deep see fishing & eat your catch. (I cant actually eat the fish, I'm allergic)
89. Create your own website.
90. Visit the holy land
91. Force yourself to spend a half-day at a concentration camp & swear never to forget.
92. Run a marathon.
93. Create your family tree.
94. Catch a Ball at a game. - DONE ...caught the hockey puk at an ice-hockey game... BELFAST GIANTS!!!
95. Make a hole-in-one - DONE ... <3 GOLF
96. Ski.
97. Learn to bartend.
98. Swim with sharks.
99. Look into your child's eyes, see yourself & smile
100. Reflect on your greatest weekness & realize how it's your biggest Strenght!!

100 things to do before I die..

1. Attend a mojor sporting advent - i.e Super Bowl, Olympics..
2. Throw a hugh party & invite all your friends. - DONE
3. Swim with a Dolphin
4. Skydive
5. Have your portrait painted. - DONE
6. Learn to speak a foreign language & use it. - DONE
7. Go Skinny dipping - DONE
8. Watch the launch of a space shuttle. - DONE ...it was on the news...it counts!!
9. Spend a WHOLE day eating junk food & not feeling guilty
10. Be an extra in a film. - DONE
11. Tell someone the story of your life, sparing no details
12. Make love on a forest floor
13. Make love on a train. - DONE
14. Learn to rollerblade. - DONE
15. Own a room with a view
16. Brew your own beer.
17. Learn how to take a complimant
18. Buy a round-the-world air ticket & a rucksack & run away.
19. Grow a beard!
20. Give your mother a dozen red roses & tell her you love her.
21. Be a member of an audience for a TV show
22. Put your name down for the first tourist shuttle to the moon.
23. Send a message in a bottle. - DONE
24. Ride a camel into the desert.
25. Get to know your neighbours. - DONE
26. Plant a tree. - DONE
27. Learn to say YES when you really mean NO. - DONE...I always do!!
28. Write a fan letter to your all-time favourite hero or heroine
29. Visit the Senate & see how Congress really works.
30. Learn to Ballroom dance PROPERLY
31. Eat Jellied Eels froma stall in London.
32. Be the Boss
33. Fall deeply in love. - DONE ...& I'm never doin it again D;
34. Ride the Trans-Siberian across Asia
35. Sit in a jury.
36. Write the novel you know is inside you.
37. Go to Walden Park & read Thoreau whilst drifting in a canoe.
38. Stay out all night dancing & go to work the next day without having gone home. - DONE
39. Drink beer at Oktoberfest in Munich
40. Be someone'd mentor
41. Shower in a waterfall. - DONE
42. Ask for a raise
43. Learn to play a musical instrument (with some degree of skill) - DONE
44. Teach someone illiterate to read
45. Be one of the first to fli in the Airbus A380
46. Spend a night in a haunted house, by yourself.
47. Write down your personnal mission statement, follow it & revise it from time to time
48. See a lunar eclipse. - DONE
49. Spend New Year's in an exotic location
50. Get passionate about a cause & spend time helping it. - DONE

First 50.....

End Credits..

When the blood dries in my veins & my
Heart <3 feels no more pain, I know
I'll be on my way to heavens door.

I know when I'm not,
I'll be hoping I wont drop,
To a place where I will rise, like before.

I can feel something happening
that I've never felt before,
Hopeless dreaming will start,
Dragging me away from heavens door.

When my mind stops thinking,
My eyes stop blinking,
I hope
Somebody's there.

And my heart stops beating
And my lungs stop breathing
in air,
I hope somebody cares.

DAFT PUNK

FINALLY listening to the Tron Legacy OST,
  Daft Punk, you sexy bastards!!!