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befor i put that gun to my temple i told you this.. and i would of done anything for you to show you how much i adored you, but its over now its to late to save our love, just promise me youll think of me everytime you look up in the sky and see a star
I've been sleeping on stones
and they've formed to my spine
My once straight back, now a crooked line
I've broken no bones, and I appear to be just fine
But my life's been emptied from inside
Just typed in yout.com instead of youtube.com by accident and then imagined there being a northern irish version of youtube....yyy
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This is my bump...taken..like a few minutes ago lol <333
If this world is wearing thin and you're thinkin of escape, i'll go anywhere with you, just wrap me up in chains <333
I got the magic in me.
Do the D.A.N.C.E. 1,2,3,4,5
stick to the B.E.A.T. Get ready to ignite
You were such a P.Y.T. catching all the lights
just as easy as A.B.C. that's how you make it right
she can kill with her eyes, she can wound with her smile, she can ruin your life with her casual lies, and she only reveals what she wants you to see, she hides like a child but she's always a woman to me.
Pick up the pieces and build a lego house,
if things go wrong we can knock it down.
Paint you by numbers and colour you in,
if things go right, we can frame it and hang you on a wall.
If Ferris Bueller had a day off now...Would he spend it on facebook ???
The day the earth danced onwards <3
Death my misadventure, I'm almost certain that's how i'll go, I regularly forget the "safety word".
If a promise is broken, it was never really made in the first place.
No one will get in the way of how I feel for you.
Jaffa Cakes, the sponge..the chocolate..the orange snot - everything about the Jaffa cake is delightful.The
Wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle YEAh!
I'm sexy and I know it LMFAO..
I'm on a boat..y'all!!!
Not at the table Carlos!!
Not to offend anyone or anything but 2 things I'm getting sick of lookin' at this year are charity adverts, esp the African ones. And hearing about Arab countries over throwing their oppressive dictatorships. It just the first few you see your all like "Aww man, something has got to be done!" But after years of bombarding you with the same shit day in day out, you kinda get desensitized to it. GET IT OFF THE TV and stick the fuckin' teletubbies back on hai!
Well, I woke up yesterday morning with the front of my top wet, I kinda paniced at the sight but then on closer examination realised I was indeed, Lactating. Some people might find this embarrassing but I just laughed and realised it was gettin closer and closer til my little one would be here.
I had a lovely conversation in boots with the lady about which breast pads were the best for fast flows and leaking lol something I never thought I would do :)
I got them home and it was like trying to unravel the mysterys of the universe...the
They arent that comfy but they save me from leaking all over my tops so week 19 welcomes the breast pad :L
Oh...and before I go...stupidity of the day...I tried to put the kettle in the fridge when making tea...Baby brain, I has it :D lol
Even if someone were to call you a liar and try to hurt you with heartless words or if the world won't believe in you and place a crown of thorns upon your head, I'll be your one and only ally. I know that loneliness and pain...
When I am crying out your name and I'm lost in shame. Lead me on my way, and give me words to say.
It's better to be unhappy alone than with someone - Marilyn Monroe
God is a character created by a bunch of insecure men who can't stand the fact they're goin to be alone forever, cause they have no tolerance for the opinions of others, the end.
I don't want to be JUST ANYBODY, I want to be your only...
Misery really does love company..
It musta been love but it's over now. It musta been good but I lost it somehow.
Some men just want to see the world burn....
Mootash Smileys <333
:{)
By the power of grey skull, by the beard of Zues!!!
Garlic bread and beans <333
Hellzapoppin'
Penguins can't fly, I can't fly...Therefor
Waddle waddle waddle waddle waddle YEAH
51. Zodiac sign:
The scales :))) Libra.
52. Male or female:
Female, I think.
53. Primary school:
Moyle Primary.
54. Secondary School:
Larne High School.
55. College:
Larne Skills & then Newtonabbey Tech.
56. What kind of weekend would you like:
Sunny, as if in this country LOL
57. Last time you saw your mother:
Last night just before I got into bed.
58. What's the one thing you wish you could change:
I wish I could make men be more reliable.
59. What are you listening to right now:
Olly Murs ft Rizzle Kicks - Heart skips a beat.
60. Who's getting on your nerves right now:
Kane =.=
61. Most visited website:
Facebook.
62. What's your real name:
Lyndsay Elizabeth Simpson Gorman
63. Nicknames:
Tooooo many :L
This year have you
64. Made a new friend:
I've made a few, yes. ^^
65. Laughed until you cried:
LOL Yessum
66. Met someone who changed you:
Yeah.
67. Found out who your true friends were:
And which ones were shit stirring cunts (Conor)
68. What did you do for your birthday:
Abs nothing, I was too tired :L
69. What time did you wake up at today:
about 9am, that's a lie in for me.
70. Name something you cannot wait for:
Smudge being born'd ^_____________
So lately, been wondering who will be there to take my place.
When i'm gone, you'll need love to light the shadows on your face <333
One man's fuck up is another man's golden opportunity!
Thank God you blew it, thank God I dodged a bullet!!!!!!
Last night I had a dream, I told you how I felt. Told you how when i'm with you it's my heart that melts.
I watched it all play out, the rest of our lives. my life was wonderful, you were by my side.
Should I just give up or should I just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads no where...
I really fucked it up this time, didn't I my dear? :/
21. Turned someone down:
Yeah.
22. Cried when someone died:
Yes.
23. Fallen for a friend:
Yes.
Your future
24. Want kids:
Already in the middle of brewing one, I want 2 :)))
25. Get married:
Nope, I never want to get married. I think it's a pointless insitution.
26. Career:
I want to be a youth worker to help teens with addictions, like I had.
which is better
27. Lips or eyes:
Eyes <3333
28. Hugs or kisses:
Hugs <333
29. Shorter or taller:
Taller.
30. Older or younger:
Older.
31. Romantic or spontanious:
Both :)))
32. Nice stomach or nice arms:
Nice arms?? WTF?? O.o
33. Sensitive or loud:
Both :L
Firsts
34. Piercing:
My ears.
35. Best Friend:
Jade McFaul.
36. Sport you joined:
Hockey.
37. First vacation:
Butlins :D
Right Now
38. Eating:
Nothing, for once LOL
39. Drinking:
Nothing.
40. I'm about to:
S'plode!!!
41. Listening to:
Rihanna - We found love....It was filmed close to where I live ^^
42. Waiting for:
Text messages.
Misc
43. Favourite band:
The cure ^^
44. Height:
Tall for a girl LOL I'm 5foot 8inches
45. Do you have a crush on someone:
Yes, unfortunately.
46. What do you like about yourself:
Nothing....I dunno.
47. Piercings:
I've had loads, only have my lip bar in now though :)
48. Tattoos:
I have a few ^^
49. Righty or lefty:
Righty.
50. Relationship:
Single...not so ready to mingle :L
...........
1. Had more than one bf/gf at one time:
Nope I have not.
2. Did you sing today:
I'm singing right now.
3. Ever cheated one somebody:
Yes, I have :/
4. Would you go back in time:
I'd love to, like Bill & Ted or Marty McFly :D
5. What moment would you choose:
I dunno, there are too many!
6. Are you afraid to fall in love:
I'm afraid of getting hurt.
7. Do you like the way you look:
Sometimes, not all the time.
Believe in
8. Yourself:
In what way exactly???
9. Miracles:
Not exactly.
10. Love at first sight:
No. Lust not love.
11. Heaven:
I believe you go somewhere...
12. Santa Clause:
Obviously.
13. Kissing on the first date:
Yes lolololol
14. Angels:
Nooo.
Have you ever
15.Kissed a stranger:
Yeah, quite a few :L
16. Drank hard liquor:
lololololol
17. Lost glasses/contac
Yes -.-
18. Sex on the first date:
OMG lol
19. Broken someone's heart:
I think so.
20. Been arrested:
Yesssss -.-
..............
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyong measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
The things I need to say will never be heard. They will linger in the deepest recessess of my mind forever but my body, my body is his. my mind shall never scream the words I long to say. They will always remain within the very depths of my unstable physicy.
Never trust anyone. People were made to lie && deceive each other. What you want will inevidably change, nothing is ever perminant. Nobody is perfect, always look after number one. Don't fall in love, you'll just get hurt. Never bare your soul, you'll just get destroyed. Everyone is judging you, but who are you judging?
And once again, I give away too much and get nothing in return.
I feel stupidand also irritated, cross and many other emotions that I'm not sure I
can describe.
I think I let my imagination run wild which I shouldn't do when I'm vaunerable.
God, I feel so so stupid. I feel like I've been such a fool, like I had expectations that were totally false.
I should completely just forget everything and go back to myself....
How come I forget you when you're always on my mind?
How come I do not want you when you are all I want inside?
How come i let you go when I can't see us apart?
How come I do not love you when you control my heart?
Sometimes I listen to my head because my heart keeps getting it wrong.
How can we make you understand all you can be is given in your hand..You won't need.
Trust in me, take me by the hand. Dreams are strewn across the sand, you won't need money.
Well all the bent-back peddlars, the jugglers and fools, they're driving me crazy. I'm climbing
the walls. Oh show me the way, the way to my stool 'cause i'm so sick, just so sick of it all. And when
the penny drops.....Trus
~Always be yourself, unless you can be Batman, always be Batman.
~Hey! Mario! Remember me? I wasted my childhood saving your Girlfriend!! >.<
~Saying "I'm almost there" when you haven't even left the house.
~Yelling your own name during sex because you're that fucking awesome.
~I hate it when I walk outside and a cow throws a fridge at me =.=
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Listening to dubstep (mainly Skrillex) and the baby is loving it, I can feel Smudge moving about ^^
You Go Little DUDDDEEEEE <33333
Hello week 18 of pregnancy :D This week my little womb tenant is about 15cms long and fully moving about like a wee trooper :D The little one can do some complex things now, like frown and somersault :D I can deffinatly say my little one has mastered the somersaults :L
This week Smudge is also starting to get covered in gross stuff called Vernix which will keep the skin from goin all wrinkly like sittin in a bath for too long :D
This week I'm also looking like Buddha and waddling like Pengu <333333