Is anyone actually happy? I have spurts of happiness sometimes. Little pockets of peace that never last long enough. I can honestly only remember one day I have ever been completely happy. I wish I could remember what it felt like. All I want is to just be happy. That's all but its not so simple when your mind tortures you over and over and you can't forget no matter how many distractions you have you eventually run out. I want the pain to stop,I just want it over. Everything hurts and I am fucking tired of caring about everyone when no one seems to care enough to look beyond my fake smile and happy attitude to see the twisted disgusting person underneath.
ok lets see my dad hasn't worked in 2 months,hes in the hospital now cause his heart had two blockages,they put stints in and now he can't work for 12 weeks. All our bills are way way late,cable/pho